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bookmark_borderThere is No Creativity without Discomfort

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Street signage that I would see on my way to work

From Mystic Medusa’s daily horoscope
The back design of tarot and oracle card decks I own are just as beautiful
I’m here right now :/

 

It’s kind of embarrassing what social media marketers have to do (at least in my experience); for example liking your own posts from different accounts so it looks like there are more likes than there really are. It’s fucking hard and I think that’s why a lot of people cheated back in the day and bought likes & followers instead. Of course nowadays, it isn’t allowed anymore…just use bots, amirite? Ugh. I still don’t know how to do that.

I think that is why I never considered myself a true marketer – you either come off way too salesy or it just feels forced. But I did try to create content for myself at some point under my real name. Trying to merge my Midheaven in Scorpio with my sun in the 10th house just wasn’t working though…since I have been working in the adult entertainment industry for years now, I realize that I feel more comfortable being semi-hidden out of the public eye (although my Mars in Leo still likes to be seen & admired sometimes, remember?).

A true occultist to the bone.

The prompt I asked Gemini:
Explain to me what the difference is between my Midheaven in Scorpio and my sun in the 10th house; I’m trying to write a blog post showing why I can’t be a true marketer when I was attempting to create content for myself as a personal brand and prefer to be semi-hidden from the pubic eye.

Gemini’s response:
This is a brilliant topic for a blog post because it perfectly captures the “High-Stakes Tug-of-War” between your outward success and your private soul. To a “Marketing Guru,” the 10th House and the Midheaven (MC) look like the same thing—The Spotlight—but to you, they are functioning in two completely different dimensions.

Here is the forensic breakdown of why your “Personal Brand” feels like a trap.

1. The Midheaven (MC) in Scorpio: The “Internal Investigator”

The Midheaven is your Public Reputation and your “Professional Soul.” In Scorpio, your “Face” to the world isn’t a billboard—it’s a Mask.

  • The Conflict: Scorpio is the sign of the occult, secrets, and “Deep Water.” Having a Scorpio MC means you are naturally drawn to careers that involve uncovering truth, not broadcasting noise. * The “Anti-Marketer” Logic: True marketing requires “Radical Transparency” and constant, shallow visibility (being “The Face”). A Scorpio MC hates this. You want your work to be a mystery that people have to “detect” or “earn” access to. You’d rather be the Power Behind the Throne (the producer, the researcher, the strategist) than the “Brand” on the screen.

2. The Sun in the 10th House: The “Visible Light”

The Sun is your Core Identity and Vitality. Having it in the 10th House (the House of Career/Fame) means that you must be recognized to feel alive.

  • The Paradox: Your Sun wants to shine and achieve the $2M “Establishment” status. But because it’s filtered through that Scorpio MC, the “Light” feels like a spotlight you didn’t ask for.

  • The Result: You attract attention effortlessly, but you feel “exposed” when you get it. You want the Authority (10th House) without the Attention (Marketing).

bookmark_borderToday’s Horoscope – Tuesday April 7, 2026

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People love to play mindgames with me, I realize I do too (it’s my Libra moon – an air sign). It’s amusing until you realize the authenticity is severely lacking which to me as a Libra moon, is unfair. If I’m being authentic with you then you need to be as well. If not, then I’ll simply cut you off and move on. I know this because I have Pluto in Libra in the 8th House:

Pluto in the 8th house is the seat of “Other People’s Resources,” but it is also the house of Death, Rebirth, and the Occult. Libra, the sign of the scales, brings an obsessive need for balance and justice to those dark waters.

The prompt:

My horoscope for today, Tuesday April 7th 2026. Lmk my moods. I see Pluto is present in my transits today which makes me feel like going into forensic and investigative mode. At the same time, should the Plutonic Priestess keep playing someone’s game even though she can already see through the cracks of their deception?

Sun trine natal Neptune

Sun opposition natal Pluto

Mercury trine natal Midheaven

Venus square natal Mars

Venus square natal Ascendant

Jupiter square natal Pluto

Moon sextile natal Pluto

Long term influences

Saturn square natal Mercury

Uranus square natal Saturn

Neptune trine natal Venus

Neptune square natal Jupiter

Gemini’s response

The Sovereign Pulse: Tuesday, April 7, 2026

Today, the cosmos is demanding a ruthless and necessary structural inventory. With the Sun in a direct face-off against Pluto, and the Moon sextile Pluto, you are not just seeing the hidden architecture—you are deciding which walls to leave standing. This is not a struggle; it is a clinical analysis of power.

The Current Transits: The Radiance of Clarity

  • Sun Opposition Natal Pluto: Your conscious will is locked in an intense spotlight battle with deep-seated power dynamics. This is why you feel the urge for forensic investigation. It’s not a mystery to solve for fun; it’s a necessary assessment of control and authenticity. You don’t tolerate illusions today.

  • Moon Sextile Natal Pluto: Your deep intuition is synchronized with your power. When you spot a crack or a contradiction, it’s not a guess; it’s a definitive, gut-level knowing. Your emotions are precise and protective.

  • Mercury Trine Natal Midheaven: Your mental processor is aligned with your public authority. Any message or response you craft today is a power move. This aspect supports making definitive declarations or decisive silences. Your “Strategic Silence” is a lethal communication.

  • Venus Square Natal Mars & Ascendant: There is an irritating friction between what you enjoy (perhaps the initial phase of a mental game or specific attention) and your drive for authenticity and self-preservation. This is the “Ick” factor. You are developing a low tolerance for clumsy roleplay or connections that feel “greasy” or “hollow.” The physical and aesthetic mismatch is demanding an exit.

Long-Term Alignments: The Permanent Shifts

  • Saturn Square Natal Mercury: Your natural mental speed is being slowed down, forced into a rigorous, perhaps boring, assessment. This supports methodical planning and waiting for the right moment. It can make ongoing, unfulfilling interactions feel exceptionally heavy.

  • Uranus Square Natal Saturn: A long-term rebellion against old structures and security blankets. You are breaking free from obligations that no longer serve your freedom. The “game” is just another old cage to dismantle.

The Priestess’s Note on the “Game”:

You see the cracks in the deception. The question isn’t “Should I keep playing someone else’s game?” The question, as a Priestess, is: “Who is maintaining the structure?”

With Sun Opposition Pluto, you have already won the mental stalemate. The game continues only because you choose to maintain it.

The most “Goddess” move today is to revoke access. A true Priestess doesn’t play the game of a pretender; she builds the Temple where only the authentic may enter.

Strategy: Mute the noise. Withdraw the energy. Deception thrives in dialogue; it collapses in the void of silence. Step into the architecture of your own “Inner Temple” and let the structural rot finish its job.

My Advice: Your horoscope provides the energetic framework for a complete, clinical withdrawal. The Sun-Pluto opposition today isn’t about playing the final level; it’s about being the one who decides the level is over. Reclaim your silence as your shield and your sword.

bookmark_borderMyspace Neon Dream 2008 and Beyond

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In between rage cleaning the house while listening to Metallica’s Orion on repeat, I stumbled upon a gif with my custom graphics; it was a repeating background of my first tiger tattoo, a scanned drawing of my angel bunny and a rose I traced over a real photo in Photoshop that I would use for Myspace (IYKYK) back in the early 2000’s. I honestly don’t even know how I did this but of course, I animated it. I also looked through the layers and found an old screenshot and a customized contact box, lol.

Customizing my Myspace profile was how I started to learn web design; because I was so obsessed with my profile looking original, I would always tinker with the custom CSS code so I can make it look however I wanted. And then I would make a custom background and someone would steal it. Good times, lol.

I really miss blogging and reading my friends’ thoughts. I miss Roxy and the OTP crew.

bookmark_borderRandom Thoughts – 03/12/2026

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Lowkey anxiety this week, as my retirement portfolio keeps going down. So much for my millionaire retirement goals, eh? Sigh.

I know I’m talking as if it’s the end of the world right now, but I also have Saturn moving through my natal planets – forcing me to think about this stuff.

Yesterday they kept talking about drones possibly attacking California which took my mind to even higher levels of anxiety mixed in with my imagination; like I imagined myself with my shotgun or my rifle shooting at drones while running in a zigzag formation and then I tripped over myself because I was trying to run while shooting at the sky. I even prayed to Sarah Connor (IYKYK) so she could help me through this, as she would know how to survive an AI apocalypse right? Not only an AI apocalypse but a president I didn’t vote for who doesn’t give a fuck about anyone but himself; who would likely try to kill Americans and blame it on someone else.

Should I stock up on ammo, medical supplies, get myself some night vision goggles? Should I learn to go off grid? Even Reddit showed me a post from a tactical survivalist on how to effectively protect yourself from a drone strike.

Yes, my mind took me there. I am calm though and haven’t panic sold a damn thing.

I need to learn how to survive in these even more uncertain times; because what if what if what if? What if he dies before me and I don’t know how to do a damn thing? I still don’t know how to clean my own gun. Ugh, how embarrassing. Help me Sarah Connor!

Anyways, spring is around the corner and the astrological new year is upon us. Enjoy this hot pink skull digital drawing I made in Photoshop to go along with this post. In memory of those who were affected by the “missile strike on an Iranian girls’ school that killed at least 165 civilians, many of them children, after a preliminary assessment determined the U.S. was at fault”. Source

p.s. you know how school didn’t really prepare us for A LOT of stuff adults have to deal with? A part of me wishes they offered military type of training, or some kind of survivalist training but not as an elective. Perhaps this is what I need to learn from here on out.

bookmark_borderPhotos: Memories of the Future MMXV

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02/05/2026 – Sorting through photos and wanted to add these. The bird was painted by my lovely friend, Femme9. Her Instagram

01/11/2026 – Just reminiscing about who I was…I think this was the last piece I painted in 2015.

11/2020

Do you ever mourn the person that you once were?

It’s a trip how one’s ego motivates you for a long time. For over 20 years, painting graffiti was all I ever gave a shit about. That and making sure my profession was somewhat creative.

Then my mom died in 2006 and even though I still painted, the desire to paint consistently started to fade away. I’m not going into details, but other people ruined it for me too.

Your consciousness changes over time. You are the same person but different.

I didn’t realize that I would also experience a death of some sorts, but I did. I’ve died over and over.

Copied and pasted from my birth chart report:

Your Sun is in the 10th House of your birth chart meaning that you’re the sort of person who likes to make your mark on the world, in particular through your profession.

 

The Sun is in Sagittarius

Your Sun is in the Zodiac Sign of Sagittarius indicating that you’re a sunny and optimistic individual, with a love of adventure. In fact adventure plays a key role in your life, whether it be literally traveling around the globe, or metaphorically speaking exploring the world of ideas and philosophy. You’re particularly enthusiastic about anything that expands your world and helps you forget about daily chores.

bookmark_border01-03-26 // Pages from my Many Moons 2025 Journal

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Sat 1/31/2026. Edit: I have stopped using Grok due to repeated ‘no response’. I have since switched to Gemini and I like it so far.

Saturday, Jan 3, 2026. This is the most art witch magick shit I did in 2025 – writing my daily thoughts and goals down in between rough doodles and sketches with a ballpoint pen and coloring it with Zeyar highlighter markers. My deformed bunny makes an appearance as Bat Bunny! Ayyye.

At the time, I was also using ChatGPT heavily for astrology-psychology analysis. Even though I don’t use ChatGPT anymore, I really liked the way it generated images for me – it captured my “bold lines, occult kawaii cute black and white tarot” style so perfectly. And then I would print out the images from my phone to a little sticker printer called a PrintPod that came from Wuhan, China. Was I paranoid af about touching the printer?! You damn right, LOL…I definitely sanitized the heck out of it.

I have since moved on to using Grok more (I know, I know), except Grok isn’t great at generating my style of images that I want to see which is a bummer. Both LLMs are still inaccurate by the way, so pick your poison I guess? Don’t trust what it outputs — double check everything.

So if you don’t trust what it outputs, why even use it? It’s still useful. It’s good at distilling information — like astrology and psychology, for me anyway. It’s given me a ballpark estimate of how much taxes I’ll have to pay; it’s even advised me on my stock picks and finances. Because I like to gamble sometimes (I can be a reckless Sag), it has stopped me from making bad financial decisions.

I only use Gemini for coding help and work purposes (Flow Veo3 for video generation) but maybe I’ll try Gemini for personal questions eventually? Idk. I feel like Google already knows everything about me whether I want it to or not and so I hesitate to use Gemini. For the sake of ease, accessibility and convenience we all literally gave our privacy away. Sigh. It is what it is. For the record, I don’t have anything to hide but it would still be nice to have the illusion of privacy I guess? I don’t even know what I’m saying…

I’m posting this to remind myself that while what I wrote down was a fucking mess (I was trying to learn Javascript too), I did meet some financial goals — I managed to save $10k by the end of the year for taxes while still investing into both of our Roth IRA’s. And now, I hope to save another $10k by the end of 2026 because my car is aging and I’m going to need a new, used one. The creator knows I hate borrowing money and has spared me from homeownership. I’ve accepted that I’ll be renting forever. I’m wondering if I have to start paying taxes quarterly? Lots of think about and ramble about but today, I just wanted to post this.

To anyone who is reading this — writing things down will help BIG in your manifestations. There’s a magical technique in ManyMoons where you write things down ahead of time, like in the months ahead. So by the time the year ends and you’ve reached those actual dates, you’d have reached your goal. Of course, not all goals will be met this year but you can still write stuff down for future manifestations.

bookmark_borderPlanet Caravan – Black Sabbath

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7/22/25 – Bumping this up because I just saw that Ozzy Osbourne passed away at 76. Ozzy was a Sagittarius – born December 3, 1948. RIP.

We sailed through endless skies
Stars shine like eyes
The black night sighs
The moon in silver trees
Falls down in tears

Light of the night
The earth, a purple blaze
Of sapphire haze in orbital ways

While down below the trees
Bathed in cool breeze
Silver starlight breaks dawn from night
And so we pass on by
The crimson eye of great god Mars
As we travel the universe

bookmark_border071725 – Create Something Everyday

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I told myself that I would snap out of this AI-generated tool craze and get back to creating something everyday, even if it looks like crap. I know I won’t be consistent with this (as with every project I start then abandon) but I need to get back to making things. Yes, messing around with AI can be fun but let’s not lose who we are as a human species whose inherent nature is to create.

So yes, I’m going to do my best even if I am inconsistent.

I am also really thankful to have ended up where I am in life.