Fri 9/18/26 – I was going to leave this on the front page, but it’s TMI for some (even me). Idk if it’s because of Virgo season, my own Saturn in Virgo or my Mercury in Capricorn but I’m not feeling very sexual lately. I’m also bored of the internet and I’m sick of scrolling through p0rn, like my eyes glaze over and I feel so blahzay about it. Earth energy feels heavy and dense, which means anyone who is trying to connect with me sexually when I cam isn’t flowing…I’m just not turned on. But since I’m not feeling 98% of them anyways, maybe that’s why I’m not vibing with anyone anymore. Even pretending won’t cut it, it’s just not my style. I learned that my Libra moon needs mental stimulation (flirting, laughing and witty banter) in order to get turned on. I might as well go Hermit mode until Libra season or maybe for the rest of the year.
On the upside, I have been recycling old artwork and learning how to loop them infinitely in After Effects; it has been very satisfying for me as I have been wanting to get that dialed down for years now.
And I wish I had thought of it. Except my sexual / perverted side is hidden, controlled and professional. Midheaven in Scorpio.
Some more ramblings
Due to my introverted nature, I actually don’t talk all that much. And if I DO talk, it’s because I’m comfortable and we’re friends. Which is why I haven’t conquered the phoneseggs space yet. I’ve taken a few calls, made some money BUT something’s holding me back. And I can’t seem to want to naturally just pickup the phone and talk. Maybe because the callers themselves have expectations? Which puts pressure on me to give them the best experience so they won’t leave a bad review, which in turn lowkey stresses me tf out, which then puts me in freeze mode. At least with cam, I show up and be myself and whoever is there will tip me for what they want. Then it’s over. Also with certain phoneseggs platforms, I have to bid to be seen among hundreds of other listings.
I am stepping out of my comfort zone…soon. Fingers crossed.















