bookmark_borderBest Thing I Found on Twitter Today

Fri 9/18/26 – I was going to leave this on the front page, but it’s TMI for some (even me). Idk if it’s because of Virgo season, my own Saturn in Virgo or my Mercury in Capricorn but I’m not feeling very sexual lately. I’m also bored of the internet and I’m sick of scrolling through p0rn, like my eyes glaze over and I feel so blahzay about it. Earth energy feels heavy and dense, which means anyone who is trying to connect with me sexually when I cam isn’t flowing…I’m just not turned on. But since I’m not feeling 98% of them anyways, maybe that’s why I’m not vibing with anyone anymore. Even pretending won’t cut it, it’s just not my style. I learned that my Libra moon needs mental stimulation (flirting, laughing and witty banter) in order to get turned on. I might as well go Hermit mode until Libra season or maybe for the rest of the year.

On the upside, I have been recycling old artwork and learning how to loop them infinitely in After Effects; it has been very satisfying for me as I have been wanting to get that dialed down for years now.


And I wish I had thought of it. Except my sexual / perverted side is hidden, controlled and professional. Midheaven in Scorpio.

Some more ramblings

Due to my introverted nature, I actually don’t talk all that much. And if I DO talk, it’s because I’m comfortable and we’re friends. Which is why I haven’t conquered the phoneseggs space yet. I’ve taken a few calls, made some money BUT something’s holding me back. And I can’t seem to want to naturally just pickup the phone and talk. Maybe because the callers themselves have expectations? Which puts pressure on me to give them the best experience so they won’t leave a bad review, which in turn lowkey stresses me tf out, which then puts me in freeze mode. At least with cam, I show up and be myself and whoever is there will tip me for what they want. Then it’s over. Also with certain phoneseggs platforms, I have to bid to be seen among hundreds of other listings.

I am stepping out of my comfort zone…soon. Fingers crossed.

bookmark_border5/6/2022 + 5/6/2026 Synchronicity

This is an old photo of cards I pulled for Friday, May 6th…it may have been from 2022. Yet while searching for something else today (Wednesday May 6th 2026), this photo somehow came up. Time is wild, I can’t stress this enough. I’ll be back to add the message I’m getting from these cards 4 years later.

You have the power to become anything you want. Set your expectations for yourself, and know that you will become whatever you think about.

How do I read cards for myself? I will start with the tarot pulls since those are harder to interpret:

I read from one of my many tarot books that instead of looking at the cards, step inside the scene itself. What is going on inside each card?

Card 1: X of Wands – the doggie is carrying too many wands = you’re doing too much and overwhelming yourself.

Card 2: IV of Cups – are you meditating or procrastinating? Maybe you’re avoiding something or someone.

Card 3: VIII of Wands – no people just wands moving fast in the air. Perhaps you’ll need to act or create something fast or a creative opportunity is coming your way (sometimes they say within 8 days).

Card 4: V of Cups – the figure is upset because there are 3 cups that spilled, even though there are 2 still left standing. Disappointment, grief, not seeing the positive side.

For the oracle cards, they’re easier to read because there’s words on them:

Card 1: Power – you have power available to you at all times. What kind of power would you like; is it self serving or does it help others?

Card 2: Talisman – stones, crystals, keys, rings, necklaces or any object that has magical powers can be useful in enhancing the energy of your magical requests and manifestations.

Card 3: Focus – focus on what you want. But make sure it’s in service to your highest and best good.

By the way, when I ask questions during readings for myself – believe it or not, I am not there to judge (this takes A LOT of practice btw). The tarot and oracle cards help us to “see” and “hear” different aspects of ourselves. A lot of the times it can be contradictory but if you learn that everything in life is contradictory, you’ll eventually learn to make sense out of the cards.

bookmark_borderPhoto: High Frequency Crystal Healing

Found this photo in my Crystal Healer LA archives – I setup my Seeking Divine Knowledge 2010 painting with my Aura Quartz crystal skull along with other Quartz crystals and Selenite with sprigs of rosemary.

Look upon this image and breathe and remember – all is well. You made it through another day.

May all beings be free.

bookmark_borderThe Devil XV – HK Tarot & Occult Tarot

Tuesday 2/10/2026 // Edit: I wanted to add a photo of HK Baphomet and Baphomet from the Occult Tarot deck. Side by side, they look aesthetically pleasing to me.


Feb 3, 2026: I love this particular card – it represents my style – kawaii occult graphics. Also, purple and orange just go together really well. Again this unique HK tarot deck was a limited edition purchase from Etsy years ago so don’t ask where I got it from. But hey, there might be something similar?

I’m sure people who read my blog – including family members – will assume I’m a devil worshipper or satanist just because I’m into occult shit. What most people don’t really know is that the devil isn’t an actual creature – it’s a composite symbol. It represents the material plane – worldy success, addiction, obsession, people, situations or things that ‘bind’ us to them in a negative way (bondage). It’s really just an invisible force that gets projected onto people and things; for example – women, booze, drugs, sex, white people, etc.

Like when people are trying to tempt us, or even something playful as an invite to something fun, daring, or out of the norm – we usually say ‘you’re being the devil right now’.

The Devil is also associated with Capricorn and the number 15.

bookmark_borderSocial Media Observations & Ramblings

Mostly based on my own behavior, I noticed that:

– People just aren’t paying attention as much. For me personally, my attention span dips in and out. The millions of people promoting or sharing something can be taxing and I have other things on my mind these days. Maybe it’s because I’m getting old? Idk. I was also one of those people promoting or sharing something for a hot minute…I got sick of myself.

– One of the things I learned about marketing your business is that if you want people to pay attention, then you have to post A LOT. This is how people will remember you, through repetition. It’s annoying as fuck tbh but it works. Posting a lot in my opinion though, eventually leads to burnout especially if it’s not producing some kind of return (a lead or a sale of your product). I definitely felt this with my crystal shop and that’s why I haven’t posted in some time now. Although I had a couple of loyal folks who always bought crystals from me (if you’re reading this – thank you, I love & appreciate you!), the majority of my crystal sales never came from posting on Instagram anyways.

– Posting a lot won’t necessarily bring the results you want. If anything, the majority of people just want to be entertained by what you post. They don’t always want to buy, which is why I think the shop section of IG is pointless. I’m definitely one of those people who also rejects a lot of ads (most of them are irrelevant anyway)…which is why it’s hard for me to do ads for my own business. Too critical for my own good.

– I haven’t been very successful with my own entrepreneurial endeavors; thanks to the neverending pandemic, I kinda gave up on it. I tried it, but wasn’t built for it. Did the universe spare me from struggling and putting myself in a situation I didn’t really want to be in? Probably. That or being programmed to be an employee for life has taken its toll.

– As usual, I’m bored with everything that I’m doing and I don’t know what’s next for me. A friend did a channeled card reading for me recently and also sensed my eternal state of boredom. Sigh. Anyways, here’s an excerpt from Mystic Medusa‘s Astral DNA Report aka her take on my natal chart that at least gives me some clues as to why I can’t just settle as a “personal brand”:

Neptune House X

Their public image can be mysterious: an alias, nom de plume or a brand conceals the true persona. Tenth House Neptune people are adrift in an ocean of treacherous career currents until they find or create their true vocation. Their c.v. is peppered with surreal episodes, a twilight zone of enigmatic gigs and of course, quite a few off-c.v. escapades. Whatever their official occupation, their title is really “magician” or “rainmaker.”

Enjoy this gif I made. Happy Scorpio season!

bookmark_borderSHERMGRAFIK Website Screenshots

It used to be so fun, challenging and also frustrating building websites; I was so obsessed about how mine looked and I was constantly tweaking it. The site was built in HTML via Dreamweaver, I was using iframes and tables to align elements. At the time, everybody was doing it that way.

Then WordPress came out.

All this reminiscing came about because I was thinking about Futura 2000’s website around 2004 when I started learning web design.

His website stood out to me because it was very experimental and out there. Everybody was using Flash to make their website graphics interactive.

However, I didn’t learn how to code actual HTML until 2014.

So yeah, before I switched to Save the Savages – Shermgrafik was my first ever domain.

Want to take a trip down www memory lane? You can see old versions of websites at Internet Archive.