bookmark_borderI Fucking Miss You, Por Vida

I think the only reason why I keep this blog going now is because she loved it. Like, she was a fan of me and my work as I was of hers. We met on a graffiti forum more than 20 years ago so we were internet friends, then became best friends irl. She would send us handwritten letters in cute stationary, art supplies, stickers and snacks through the mail. She was a Leo – a fire sign so our creativity, our art fagginess, dark, sarcastic, “haterade” humor was a match. She was fierce and loyal. I have never known someone to love and care so much about their friends.

Here is an artist interview that I still love reading time and time again that I kept on here:

Artist Interview: Roxy B. Montoya

bookmark_borderMeme Dump #15

Me when someone from high school finds my social media

“I can explain”

The movie referenced is Eyes Wide Shut.

This blog is my Midheaven in Scorpio – as the Midheaven or MC represents your individuality but it is also connected to public life and career in the birth chart. Because it is in Scorpio, my Midheaven is associated with sex, death, rebirth and of course…the occult. Go figure.

I hide in plain sight. If people find me, they find me. But I’d rather be behind the scenes, observing everyone. By the time I reached 11th grade, everyone in high school knew I was the artsy fartsy weirdo anyways.

bookmark_borderVideo: Dark Smokey Quartz

From my personal collection, and also the model for this digital illustration.

Smoky or Smokey Quartz is associated with the root chakra. It is a grounding stone, meaning it can assist with keeping us from being scattered. Our thoughts and emotions tend to be all over the place but when you hold or are near a smokey quartz, it can help you to be more present. For me, I always keep a grounding stone when I’m driving.

This is the same Smoky Quartz, the first one I ever acquired from the Tucson Gem & Mineral show.

bookmark_borderMetaphysical Vibes Sketchbook Project 2020


My work comes out the best when I’m doing it for something or someone…in this case one of my best friends gifted me a sketchbook to fill up and mail out by a certain time. Of course whenever I have deadlines, it motivates me to create.

bookmark_borderTarot Wisdom and Encouragement // Full Moon in Scorpio // May 2, 2026

 

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My favorite crystal shop owners whose shop has relocated from Los Angeles to Palm Springs – Mark & Martin from Spellbound Sky – have some words of wisdom and encouragement for you, my dear readers of this blog. The tarot deck Mark uses frequently in his reels is Aleister Crowley’s Thoth – the artwork on the cards is a lot darker, also some people discovered later on that Aleister Crowley was a racist. I’ll leave that up to you to decide, but for now I just wanted to share this.

As always, take what resonates with you, leave the rest behind.

bookmark_borderHappy Full Moon – Meme

Thursday, April 30 2026 — the moon is in Scorpio for the next couple of days, with the full moon tomorrow (Friday, May 1st). Deep, dark, intense feelings about something or someone will probably come up again.


Sunday, February 1st 2026 — happy full moon in Leo! I hope you feel fired up to do something that lights your soul on fire. Keep going


Sat Jan 3, 2026 — Happy Full Moon in Cancer! May you feel emotionally nurtured tonight. Still my favorite meme so I’m bumping it up.


Some apps along with my personal calendars say the moon is in Sagittarius, others in Capricorn. Shrug if I know BUT I always tend to feel more energized & motivated when the moon is in Sagittarius since it’s my Sun; determined and ‘into my work’ when the moon is in Capricorn (my Mercury).

I don’t have anything to say, as you can see I’ve gone ghost on nearly all my IG accounts or simply deactivated them. It takes so much energy and effort to be on there; I don’t know when I’ll feel motivated to pick up my side projects again.

Introverts gonna introvert I guess…

I just wanted to post this meme as it was buried in my Instagram saves. Credit: @thatcatbobbie

I hope you’re doing well. I’m just here lurking and being on the internets and pondering the next stage of adulthood: do I want a house, or do I want to retire with lots of money? I constantly go between wanting everything and wanting nothing. It’s hard to decide when you’re a Libra moon!

bookmark_borderThe Difference Between Racism and Fetishization

This kind of stuff is prevalent in porn (and maybe even dating) unfortunately. Since I can’t articulate it through words but experience it on a regular basis (mostly in online spaces related to sex work).

But first, let’s define the word fetishize

verb

  1. (tr) to be excessively or irrationally devoted to (an object, activity, etc)

So I asked Gemini:

What is the Difference between Racism and Fetishization of a Particular Race or Ethnicity?


Gemini’s response:

While both concepts are rooted in the dehumanization of a specific group, the primary difference lies in the mechanism of erasure: one uses exclusion and hostility, while the other uses objectification and a “positive” stereotype.

1. Racism: The Mechanism of Hierarchy

Racism is a system of exclusion and superiority. It functions by casting a particular group as “less than,” “dangerous,” or “inferior.”

  • The Goal: To maintain a social, political, or economic hierarchy.

  • The Effect: It strips a person of their humanity by viewing them as a threat or a burden to be marginalized.

2. Fetishization: The Mechanism of Objectification

Fetishization is a system of consumption and projection. It functions by casting a particular group as “exotic,” “ideal,” or “hyper-sexualized” based on their race.

  • The Goal: To satisfy a personal fantasy or a psychological “itch” through another person’s identity.

  • The Effect: It strips a person of their humanity by viewing them as a prop or a script rather than a multidimensional individual. The person’s actual personality, history, and boundaries are ignored in favor of the “aesthetic” they provide to the observer.


The Intersection: Dehumanization

Feature Racism Fetishization
Vibe “I don’t want you near me.” “I want you near me as an object.”
View of the Individual A stereotype to be feared or hated. A stereotype to be possessed or consumed.
The Result The individual is invisible because of hate. The individual is invisible because of a fantasy.

In short, racism hates you for what it thinks you are; fetishization “loves” you for what it wants you to be. In both cases, the actual person—the multidimensional “Goddess”—is never actually seen.

Edit: I generated some book covers in Nano Banana 2 inside Flow Veo3 to go along with this post.

bookmark_borderLord of the Memes

Part of my quote unquote marketing strategy for my online crystal shop was creating my own memes. Even though crystals are the most unique thing you could ever sell (as each piece is literally one of a kind) – in order to connect with your audience and stand out from everyone else, you have to show yourself. This was the hardest part for me and if I had to start over again (which I’m kind of thinking about it) – I would do the same exact thing.

At the time though, it wasn’t even really a marketing strategy as everything I did was just an experiment and ‘just for fun’ of what worked for me and what didn’t.

bookmark_border2010 – Garage Magazine spread

2010 – Spread in Garage Magazine

I used to think I was so special because I was a “graffiti writer”…

As I got older and saw one of the most important people in my life leave this earth, I realized that I was just another person in this rat race called life.

But if you play your cards right, you might still find some kind of happiness in this fleeting world…

Here are some of my graffiti photos and drawings, enjoy.

www.shermgrafik.com

bookmark_borderRemembering my Mom – 4/10/2026

Today would’ve been my mom’s 76th birthday (April 10, 1950). As of this year, she’s been gone for 20 years now. This photo was taken in the Philippines, I was 4 years old.

She was an Aries and loved music and action movies, the violent kind. She was also a piano teacher. Her independent, creative and fiery spirit is what brought me to California. Here is a song that is stuck in my head right now that reminds me of her – Sealed with a Kiss by Bobby Vinton

I was the rebellious daughter who tried to be good but didn’t always listen. I had my own independent, creative and fiery spirit and had to follow my own artistic path. Thank you for allowing me to become who I am, even though you didn’t always agree. I love and respect you, most of all I miss you.