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bookmark_borderStill Missing You 7 Years Later💔

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10/20/26: I woke up thinking about you, wondering why you had to leave so abruptly.

11/27/25: Missing you a lot today and bumping this photo up just because.

08/07/25: Update because it was your earth birthday 5 days ago. I remembered yesterday then posted on IG today. I was scrolling for a while on my phone, looking for a pic of you. It was the one of you driving the Suburban I’m pretty sure. I fucking miss you. Do you ever hear me talking to you sometimes?

10/22/24: Bumping this up just because. We miss you.

7/28/24: It’s that time of the year where I reminisce about you. You were already on my mind before that but knowing your earthly birthday is coming up made me want to go through photos and post something.

I’ll probably come back and edit this post but for now, I just wanted to see your face.🐰

bookmark_borderFor the Tired and Weary Artists Who Are Also Adults

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I know I said it – I was going to draw for myself and Roxy because it was our thing and I still want to but so far it’s not happening. I’m not going to beat myself up for it because I’m an adult who has to work a 9 to 5 for a living wage. By the time I get home from work I still have to clean up after my 2 cats, eat, wash dishes, shower and spend a little time with my husband. I’m not complaining, it is what it is.

bookmark_borderTarot Card Pulls – August 20th to 27th 2026

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These cards were pulled in between the Solar Eclipse and the Lunar Eclipse. I’m going to keep editing this as I receive more downloads:

Card 1: VIII of Swords – Sometimes we stay in situations longer than we should; the seal is clearly smiling even though it is bound and can leave at anytime. It’s more comforting to stay in mental bondage than to see what else is out there.

Card 2: Ace of Wands – Force of the element of fire. New experiences, creative ideas. Some kind of new inspiration that will lead to action, confidence, enthusiasm. Drive. Sexual passion. An exciting opportunity.

Card 3: VIII of Wands – A positive card. There’s momentum in whatever you’re doing. Could also mean that your goals could come to fruition in 8 days, 8 weeks or 8 months.

Card 4: XVIII The Moon – Deep instinctual forces. Self-deception.
Your intuition, feelings, dreams and illusions will be amplified around this time.

Card 5: X of Pentacles – How blessed and lucky are you to have a family that supports you and a place to call home. It may not be the family you grew up with but the family you created or married into. Comfort. Money, wealth, financial security. Success. Security. Stability. Responsibility. Prosperity. Legacy.

Card 6: X The Wheel of Fortune – The Wheel of Fortune is always turning, just like the earth, the sun, the moon and the planets are in constant motion. What will happen next? Stay open to possibilities. This is a good luck card. Karma, fate, destiny, progress, a lucky break.

Card 7: IV of Pentacles – This card comes up for me a lot. I think it’s because it’s related to money and resources. At the moment, I am neutral about it.

Card 8: IX of Pentacles – This card comes up a lot for me as well – a woman in solitary enjoyment of the finer things in life as she surveys her garden. She is reaping the benefit of the wise use of her talents and resources. She is alone and at peace with herself and her surroundings. She is in control of her thinking and of her destiny. The card of self-mastery, self-reliance.

Card 9: 4 of Wands – A well-deserved rest. Contentment. Blessings. Harmony. A happy and secure home.

The overall message that I’m getting from these cards is that my finances, material wealth, and well being are in good order. Keep doing what you’re doing.

Reference: Tarot Plain and Simple by Anthony Louis

bookmark_borderRevisiting Chiron in Taurus

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Well since the current transit is in Chiron in Taurus, the universe decided to remind me of my fears around material possessions, particularly around money. If you’ve read this old post, then you know I personally have Chiron in Taurus in the 3rd house and so I’m feeling the effects of this transit. It also doesn’t help that money has been a lot tighter lately because war and inflation. Sigh.

While I was writing out a check, I stumbled upon a letter writing out my fears around having a lot of money. I believe I cashed out a Universal Life Insurance policy and an old 401k (of course I had to pay taxes on it) but at the time, I needed that money to pay the credit card debt ($13k) I had accumulated for the crystal shop. And so, here is the letter I wrote. Of course I had to decorate it with Baphomet stickers that ChatGPT generated for me a while ago.

bookmark_borderPOR VIDA FOREVZ

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You would’ve been 43 today. I miss you terribly. I’m sure you’ve heard me talking to you. I miss my number one hater. What were we laughing about here? You were probably talking about twinks and shit, lol. I want to draw for Drawloween because it was our thing even though we never finished because we’re fucking adults who have busy lives.

I’m stuck in these photos and I don’t want to leave.

bookmark_borderWhen You’re a Scorpio AND a Sagittarius

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So in Western astrology, I am a Sagittarius. In Vedic, I am a Scorpio. Both make a whole lot of sense to me, but lately I’m starting to see more of my Scorpio side come out. For example, my career – sun in the 10th house with a Midheaven in Scorpio. Scorpio is naturally at home in the 8th house – the house of sex, death and transformation. I’ve been working in the adult entertainment industry for more than 16 years now, and I’ve become more secretive and mysterious about my life (a Scorpio trait) even though I’m still in public spaces (social media).

What is western astrology?

Western astrology is a system of divination and psychological analysis based on the tropical zodiac, the 12 signs, and planetary positions. It traces its roots back to ancient Babylon and Hellenistic Egypt, focusing heavily on individual personality traits, inner psychology, and life experiences. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8]

Core Concepts

  • Tropical Zodiac: Anchored to Earth’s seasons rather than fixed star constellations, starting with Aries at the spring equinox.
  • The Natal Chart: A map of the sky at the exact time and location of a person’s birth, used to analyze character and life tendencies.
  • Sun Signs: Popularly used to describe a person’s core identity based on the position of the Sun during their birth month.
  • Planets, Houses, and Aspects: Planets represent distinct drives, houses represent specific life arenas, and aspects show how planets interact with each other. [1, 2, 3, 7, 9]
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What is vedic astrology?

Vedic astrology, also known as Jyotish (the “science of light”) or Hindu astrology, is an ancient Indian system that maps the positions of stars and planets to understand a person’s karma, life path, and destiny. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6]
Core Concepts
  • Sidereal Zodiac: Unlike Western astrology (which uses fixed seasons), Vedic astrology uses the actual, observable constellations in the sky, creating a shift of about 23 to 24 degrees in the zodiac signs.
  • The Birth Chart (Kundli): A map of the sky at your exact time and place of birth, divided into 12 houses representing wealth, health, career, and relationships.
  • Nakshatras: A specialized system of 27 lunar mansions that track the moon’s path to offer deeper, more personal insights into your mind and emotions.
  • The Dasha System: A unique timeline used to predict when specific planetary periods will happen and shape events throughout your life. [11, 12]

If you’d like to explore further, let me know: Do you want to know your Vedic sign compared to your Western sign?Would you like to learn how the dasha planetary periods work?Tell me how you want to proceed!

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What is sidereal astrology?

Sidereal astrology is a star-based system that maps the zodiac using the actual physical locations of constellations in the sky. It differs from Western tropical astrology by accounting for the Earth’s slow wobble, known as the precession of the equinoxes. Because of this shift, a person’s sidereal zodiac sign is usually about 24 to 25 degrees—or roughly one full sign—behind their tropical sign. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

 

How It Works
  • Star Alignment: Uses visible constellations along the path of the sun (the ecliptic) as a permanent background map rather than anchoring to the changing seasons.
  • Ayanamsa: Relies on mathematical correction systems—such as the popular Lahiri ayanamsa—to sync the starting point of the zodiac with specific reference stars like Spica.
  • Real-Time Astronomy: Matches what you would see if you pointed a telescope at the sky and checked which constellation a planet is physically sitting in. [4]
Major Traditions and Differences
  • Vedic Connection: Forms the core foundation of Vedic astrology (Jyotish) from India, as well as several ancient Babylonian and Egyptian systems.
  • Tropical Contrast: Tropical astrology fixes 0 degrees Aries to the spring (vernal) equinox and tracks Earth’s seasons, meaning it grows out of alignment with the actual physical stars over long spans of time.
  • Sign Shifts: If you are a late-degree sign in Western tropical astrology (like a late Aries), your sidereal chart will typically place you in the previous sign (such as Pisces). [3, 4]

If you would like, let me know your birth date and I can help you figure out what your sidereal sign might be compared to your regular Western sign.

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bookmark_border7/25/26 – Notes on Astrology

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Friday 10/9/26:
Trippy…this happened to me 2 weeks ago except this was the very first time I ever dreamed about them. And my Venus is in their 12th house:

if you have repeated dreams of someone & they keep popping up in your dreams, this is usually a sign that they’re thinking of you or they’re trying to get your attention, this ESPECIALLY applies if you’ve recently cut them off, blocked them, or distanced yourself from them. this especially applies to people with planets in their 12th house too. @shawtyastrology

When their Venus appears in your:

9th house – They may expand your horizons, or be a travel buddy. (their Venus in my 9th house)
12th house – You may share a deep & almost unspoken bond. (my Venus in their 12th house)

This is from TimePassagesApp on Instagram

Saw this on Instagram and I had to share it:
At least once in a lifetime, you’ll find someone with whom you have intense chemistry, but it’s important to know that you cannot be with them. Hope this helps. That’s the 8th and 12th house blessing and curse. @vedanshastro

Friday 8/28/26:

I don’t know why women are doing this trend where they put their faces in a reel and add astro placements but this one caught my eye simply because again – 2 of those placements I have with someone. 1 placement I have with my husband. Both are quite intimate.

Saturday 8/8/26:

How I feel about the second arrow situationship: skullfucked because no matter what or how long, I can’t get them out of my mind. So it’s almost like we’re married. Fuck.

So the first arrow is me and my husband, I am the Mars in Leo person. The second arrow has been an ongoing online situationship where we are both Sagittarius suns but the other has Moon in Gemini. That’s fuckin trippy and I don’t know what to do about it. But also, what if you have both placements…does that mean you’re married to yourself? Lol.

Saturday 7/25/26:

saw this on Twitter from @eroticacid and it blew my mind: marriage is the 7th house, but MARRIAGE marriage is the 12th house.

What in the actual fuck. So if my Venus is in someone’s 12th house, does that mean I’m secretly married to them, subconsciously/unconsciously?

So I asked Google: what does having Venus in someone’s 12th house indicate?

Having Venus in the 12th house indicates a deeply private, romantic, and spiritual approach to love, featuring hidden feelings, a need for solitude, and karmic connections. The 12th house rules the subconscious, the unseen, and isolation, while Venus rules love, beauty, and value.

Love and Relationships

  • Secret or unrequited love: Feelings may be kept hidden, unexpressed, or tangled in secret, long-distance, or complicated situations.
  • Karmic bonds: Strong attraction to past-life connections or people from very different cultural backgrounds.
  • Idealistic heart: A tendency to dream of a perfect, unconditional love that can lead to disappointment when faced with everyday reality.

bookmark_borderBest Thing I Found on Twitter Today

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Fri 9/18/26 – I was going to leave this on the front page, but it’s TMI for some (even me). Idk if it’s because of Virgo season, my own Saturn in Virgo or my Mercury in Capricorn but I’m not feeling very sexual lately. I’m also bored of the internet and I’m sick of scrolling through p0rn, like my eyes glaze over and I feel so blahzay about it. Earth energy feels heavy and dense, which means anyone who is trying to connect with me sexually when I cam isn’t flowing…I’m just not turned on. But since I’m not feeling 98% of them anyways, maybe that’s why I’m not vibing with anyone anymore. Even pretending won’t cut it, it’s just not my style. I learned that my Libra moon needs mental stimulation (flirting, laughing and witty banter) in order to get turned on. I might as well go Hermit mode until Libra season or maybe for the rest of the year.

On the upside, I have been recycling old artwork and learning how to loop them infinitely in After Effects; it has been very satisfying for me as I have been wanting to get that dialed down for years now.

And I wish I had thought of it. Except my sexual / perverted side is hidden, controlled and professional. Midheaven in Scorpio.

Some more ramblings

Due to my introverted nature, I actually don’t talk all that much. And if I DO talk, it’s because I’m comfortable and we’re friends. Which is why I haven’t conquered the phoneseggs space yet. I’ve taken a few calls, made some money BUT something’s holding me back. And I can’t seem to want to naturally just pickup the phone and talk. Maybe because the callers themselves have expectations? Which puts pressure on me to give them the best experience so they won’t leave a bad review, which in turn lowkey stresses me tf out, which then puts me in freeze mode. At least with cam, I show up and be myself and whoever is there will tip me for what they want. Then it’s over. Also with certain phoneseggs platforms, I have to bid to be seen among hundreds of other listings.

I am stepping out of my comfort zone…soon. Fingers crossed.

bookmark_borderMore Notes on Healing 082718

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The things that I’m writing down here are just notes and stuff that I am observing and learning from…all based on my own experience.

I still hella read and learn a lot from reading books and taking classes but at some point, your own experience will start to take over and have more weight.

Healing is already taking place when the person is willing to come and try out a session. Your intention to come for a healing is just as important and plays a part in the process. If the person changes their mind & decides not to come, you have to be patient and not get irritated; some people are just not ready and will definitely cancel on you. Give them time.

Every person is on a different spiritual level; similiar to levels of kindergarten, elementary, junior high, high school, college, etc. Don’t judge them based on their level, as you were once there.

Again, Western medicine will say it’s all a ‘placebo’. But what most don’t consider is that just because we don’t see it doesn’t mean it’s NOT happening. This is the main premise of energy work – you don’t see it but it’s definitely happening.

I’ve only done a few crystal therapy sessions and I can immediately sense that something’s different. A client of mine brought their husband to the house and even he (having no knowledge of crystal therapy) noticed that something was different about his wife.

I’m not writing this to convince anyone to try it, but if you’re feeling anxious, stressed out, tired and life isn’t exactly going the way you want it to, a crystal therapy session could only benefit you.

We – you, me, spirit and the crystals & stones – are all working together on the invisible parts of you. Your aura – the human energy field that surrounds you – contains physical, emotional, mental and spiritual information.

The energy worker doesn’t have to see auras – the healer will ask you about your life and current issues that you want to work on, then uses a pendulum to assess how your chakras, or energy centers are spinning. However the pendulum spins around the chakra is usually an accurate reflection of what the person was saying they need help with.

bookmark_border071026 – Create Something Everyday

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Even if you have nothing to say…

create something everyday.

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Summer sucks and I’m hating it already. I am dreading the utility bill. But we must find something to be grateful for even if the world is falling apart and the cost of living keeps going up. People often say that they’d rather be broke in California than live anywhere else and I have to agree. I must create beautiful things that soothe my soul and keep me from going insane. If you know me – I wear all black and gray everyday; you would never suspect me drawing cute bunnies and using neon pink, orange and purple highlighters but that’s what I do, I definitely have a rainbow soul. Create something and see what your mood is today.