bookmark_border05/29/26 Mood Gif: Born to Create, Forced to Work

Gosh, scrolling through Instagram I feel so weird right now. I want to start posting again, but everyone’s posts are so goddamned good and I feel intimidated. I shouldn’t be and yet I kinda am. So I guess I’ll just post over here until I feel confident again. People who follow me on that particular account aren’t down with AI too much so everything I post needs to be handmade digitally and somewhat original. It’s understandable as a lot of them are artists.

Just remember – AI is a tool, just like a pencil or a pen. It really can’t do anything without your input. Although I like it for some things, I don’t rely on it entirely unless I’m at work. Another reason why I just talk about it here because again, my Instagram followers will probably shame me for using it.

Anyways, here is the original drawing done inside my Many Moons journal today, Friday May 29 2026. Don’t get it twisted – I am lucky as fuck to work where I work. This is not a complaint but more like a commentary on people like me who have to work but would rather create just because we’re wired to. At the same time, my job supports what I do. If I had no job, then I’d probably be stressing about not having a job and money and because of the stress I probably won’t be creating anything so it’s a double edge sword that I’ve learn to live with.

bookmark_borderPhoto to Gif: Butterfly Witch // Work in Progress Painting

I’m really upset with what’s happening in the USA right now. Everywhere I look, it’s just bad news. Again, why is the president and his family exempt from ever being audited by the IRS ever again?? Please remind why I should continue to pay taxes…

So yes, I have been posting and organizing photos, memes, and other images that I’ve hung on to or forgotten about for years and uploading them to my Flickr and here. This is my comfort zone for now.

It feels really hopeless at this very moment especially when you’re reading all the bad news but I know justice and karma are on its way. I know this because some astrologers I follow on Twitter are seeing it, I know that cycles come and go. The karmic Wheel of Fortune is forever turning, it never stops.

On a smaller scale, have faith in yourself and your values. Take it day by day and find time to disconnect from the internet. Create art, make music, garden, clean your space, organize your files, write/journal, run/walk, meditate, talk to trees. Take care of yourself, you exist in this moment and time for a reason. Blessed be.

bookmark_borderJust Minding My Business…

My life is pretty boring these days. I’m still trying to think of how to work less while making the same amount of money or even more and I still want to take a year off work. But I’m super thankful to have this creature in my life. Her name is Mika and she’s a black tortie British Shorthair. You can follow her on IG @mika_miriya_bsh . I couldn’t decide which pic I liked better so I made both into a gif.

What’s life like for me right now? Well I still can’t afford to buy a home in Los Angeles but at least I live where I want to live and it’s close to work so that’s a tradeoff I suppose. If you want to be in LA, you simply can’t have it all unless you’re rich AF.

I can hear my mom saying that I should’ve bought a home in 2003. Knowing myself at that time I was still hella irresponsible though and just wanted to paint and do whatever the fuck I wanted to do. I mean, why do parents project their dreams unto their children? She made me feel like THAT was supposed to be my ultimate goal in life.

Also it takes me a long fucking time to grasp real estate terms and concepts. I’m in my mid-40’s and I’m just barely starting to understand it. Sheesh.

And maybe I’m okay with living where I live WHILE not owning the place. Maybe we can normalize that homeownership is not as attainable as it used to be. Besides, we entered this world with nothing and we’re going to leave with nothing but our souls. So why even put myself through all that?

The so called American dream is dead and your life doesn’t have to look like everyone else’s.