Well here is my first real attempt at creating an avatar for myself. I’ve been lazy about starting but also picky because sure – I COULD pay someone else to create an avatar or character of me but then they might not capture the true essence of me. I definitely want to look more anime but I’m also happy with the results here. Anyways, hope to post more soon and get into rigging! Yay.
Whenever I catch myself scrolling my socials for no reason, I make myself stop especially on Twitter lately. It’s been information overload.
Creating animated gifs is a meditation in itself; there are endless ways to make this however you want. I had to stop working on it because I could change the colors and gradients or add more frames to this for HOURS. You really do lose track of time when creating something fun and I miss doing that.
These two emojis are power symbols to me. Today on Jupiter day (the planet of expansion, faith and good luck) we can repeat this simple sentence to ourselves:
Money flows to me easily and effortlessly.
All my needs and desires are met before I even ask.
Yes, money is a construct just like time. And yet on this plane, we are all slaves to it – time and money.
Even if you have nothing to say…
create something everyday.
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Summer sucks and I’m hating it already. I am dreading the utility bill. But we must find something to be grateful for even if the world is falling apart and the cost of living keeps going up. People often say that they’d rather be broke in California than live anywhere else and I have to agree. I must create beautiful things that soothe my soul and keep me from going insane. If you know me – I wear all black and gray everyday; you would never suspect me drawing cute bunnies and using neon pink, orange and purple highlighters but that’s what I do, I definitely have a rainbow soul Create something and see what your mood is today. If you feel like sharing it with me, email me a photo of your creation: savethesavages6@gmail.com
It’s kind of embarrassing what social media marketers have to do (at least in my experience); for example liking your own posts from different accounts so it looks like there are more likes than there really are. It’s fucking hard to do this organically and I think that’s why a lot of people cheated back in the day and bought likes & followers instead. Of course nowadays, it isn’t allowed anymore…just use bots, amirite? Ugh. I still don’t know how to do that, nor do I want to.
I think that is why I never considered myself a true marketer – you either come off way too salesy or it just feels forced. But I did try to create content for myself at some point under my real name. Trying to merge my Midheaven in Scorpio with my sun in the 10th house just wasn’t working though…since I have been working in the adult entertainment industry for years now, I realize that I feel more comfortable being semi-hidden out of the public eye (although my Mars in Leo still likes to be seen & admired sometimes, remember?).
A true occultist to the bone, and so here I am back home at Save the Savages.
The prompt I asked Gemini:
Explain to me what the difference is between my Midheaven in Scorpio and my sun in the 10th house; I’m trying to write a blog post showing why I can’t be a true marketer when I was attempting to create content for myself as a personal brand and prefer to be semi-hidden from the pubic eye.
Gemini’s response:
This is a brilliant topic for a blog post because it perfectly captures the “High-Stakes Tug-of-War” between your outward success and your private soul. To a “Marketing Guru,” the 10th House and the Midheaven (MC) look like the same thing—The Spotlight—but to you, they are functioning in two completely different dimensions.
Here is the forensic breakdown of why your “Personal Brand” feels like a trap.
The Midheaven is your Public Reputation and your “Professional Soul.” In Scorpio, your “Face” to the world isn’t a billboard—it’s a Mask.
The Conflict: Scorpio is the sign of the occult, secrets, and “Deep Water.” Having a Scorpio MC means you are naturally drawn to careers that involve uncovering truth, not broadcasting noise. * The “Anti-Marketer” Logic: True marketing requires “Radical Transparency” and constant, shallow visibility (being “The Face”). A Scorpio MC hates this. You want your work to be a mystery that people have to “detect” or “earn” access to. You’d rather be the Power Behind the Throne (the producer, the researcher, the strategist) than the “Brand” on the screen.
The Sun is your Core Identity and Vitality. Having it in the 10th House (the House of Career/Fame) means that you must be recognized to feel alive.
The Paradox: Your Sun wants to shine and achieve the $2M “Establishment” status. But because it’s filtered through that Scorpio MC, the “Light” feels like a spotlight you didn’t ask for.
The Result: You attract attention effortlessly, but you feel “exposed” when you get it. You want the Authority (10th House) without the Attention (Marketing).
I told myself that I would snap out of this AI-generated tool craze and get back to creating something everyday, even if it looks like crap. I know I won’t be consistent with this (as with every project I start then abandon) but I need to get back to making things. Yes, messing around with AI can be fun but let’s not lose who we are as a human species whose inherent nature is to create.
So yes, I’m going to do my best even if I am inconsistent.
I am also really thankful to have ended up where I am in life.
Not should, not try to…just do.
This article by James Altucher inspired me right now: The Penultimate Rules On Being More Creative
Granted I didn’t read all of it (I skimmed it actually), but I will definitely revisit in a bit.
For now, let me just write this.
