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My work comes out the best when I’m doing it for something or someone…in this case one of my best friends gifted me a sketchbook to fill up and mail out by a certain time. Of course whenever I have deadlines, it motivates me to create.
05/09/2026 – Have you ever missed someone so much but at the same time don’t want nothing to do with them anymore because the pain is greater than the pleasure? Like, you’re attracted to fire but you know playing with it will only get you burned. If both of you are fire/air signs – the compatibility is off the charts but at the same time there will be lots of mental sparring & sexual tension as both tend to be headstrong – one wants to control (top from the bottom) while the other doesn’t want to submit nor take control and then it keeps going back and forth in a toxic dynamic loop.
It was fun until it wasn’t. Getting hurt repeatedly from someone’s energy takes a toll on you after a while. Being publicly degraded, insulted and disrespected while secretly worshipped can be really taxing on one’s spirit. Giving yourself to someone who is too insecure & controlling to give back is also exhausting. It’s just not worth it anymore, and I’d rather be alone and not interact with this person ever again.
I hope you meet yourself in someone else and see how it really feels.
Edit 031426 – here is the song that inspired the title – Metallica / Ride the Lightning
July 8, 2015
Hand drawn & digital from 2011, turned animated gif art.
Image description: voluptuous lady with a dragon head. Her breasts are exposed, there’s lightning bolts on each side. I signed it with my old graffiti name, SHERM.
Saturday, May 2nd 2026: I dug up a photo of this old, framed drawing I did. I feel that it pairs well with the Raiders chola girl; as a matter of fact I think I did these two based on a black and white themed art show. Anyways, “Smile Now, Cry Later” is an oldies song, inspired by gang culture in Los Angeles in the 90’s. I have to admit, as a young artist I romanticized it a bit, even the graffiti writers took part in the subculture of tagbanging around that time. I was just the outsider looking in, observing everything around me.
Oh btw, I just realized I edited this post exactly 10 years later! OMG. Time is wild and synchronicity never ceases to amaze me.
May 2, 2016
If you grew up sometime between the 1980’s and 1990’s, were influenced by gang culture and watched Mi Vida Loca, then this mixed media drawing would be the end result. This is pretty much a throwback to those times.
Echo Park wasn’t a safe place back then. I’m sort of amazed at how much the city of Los Angeles has changed, for better or for worse.
A fucking mood. I’ve drawn this before but I figured – it’s going to take the same amount of time for me to look for the drawing when I can just redraw it. So yes, it’s Saturday, April 25, 2026 and I still hate you. Forever. Roxy was the biggest hater and I miss her so damn much…
The Magickal Bunny – who only comes out once in a while these days says:
Just for today, do not worry.
Just for today, count your blessings.
You are a magickal and infinite being, here to learn in this place called Earth. Some call it Earth School.
The learning never stops – you will constantly grow, evolve, living and dying simultaneously.
Enjoy the process, magician.
Blessed be.
I could list ALL the things I’m worried about, but I choose not to. As long as I am alive – breathing, seeing, hearing, talking, feeling without any physical pain in this moment – and I can still pay my bills and provide for my cats then I am okay. If you are reading this, you are probably okay too.
We don’t know, do we? All we have to do is to just keep on going…
Who are you supposed to follow for guidance when everyone else is lost or in their own headspace most of the time?
The answer is: you follow yourself – the quiet, inner voice that tells you ‘hey I really like doing this’ or ‘let’s do this for right now and see where it goes. And then when we get bored, we’ll just move on to something else’.
You follow your interests, and build skills around it and see if that’s what you can do for a living.
If you’re not really sure, maybe you can take an aptitude test.
Besides the physical drives of needing food, water, shelter and sleep to live…what else do you think about the most? That is what you should probably be doing.
I mean sure, you can read Reddit all day long and read about other people’s experiences…
but you still gotta figure out your own life and create your own experiences.
You have to follow your inner compass. Your inner compass won’t steer you in the wrong direction and if it did, then perhaps there was something you needed to learn from that experience.
You’re going to fail and make mistakes over and over again. That’s part of life that is simply unavoidable. From that you’ll gain knowledge, wisdom and a better understanding of your process and getting to know who you really are.
Keep on learning and making stuff, be patient with yourself and it will all come together eventually.
There is a version of you waiting patiently to evolve, get to know yourself.
Even at 48 – though it may seem I have accomplished a lot, like…been there done that…I still haven’t met my full potential and I still don’t know everything. And I think it will be that way until it’s time to leave our human bodies.
With Aries season in full effect, I was tempted to make bad decisions like panic sell and liquidate my retirement funds so it would stop bleeding. Pretty extreme and irrational, right? Well it just so happens that I got a message from the past. Here’s an old pen and highliter drawing I dug up while looking for something else.
It says: Don’t Trip Potato Chip
Also whenever I chat with AI, I normally put my daily horoscope so it gives me more accurate results that matches my mood.
The prompt:
My horoscope for today, Sunday March 22 2026. Lmk my moods and what activities would be best suited for me today instead of overthinking and having fear fantasies of panic selling:
Sun square natal Mercury
Sun trine natal Venus
Sun square natal Jupiter
Moon opposition natal Ascendant
Mars square natal Sun
Mars trine natal Uranus
Mars square natal Neptune
Jupiter trine natal Uranus
Jupiter square natal Pluto
Moon opposition natal Uranus
Long-term influences:
Saturn square natal Mercury
Saturn trine natal Venus
Saturn square natal Jupiter
Uranus square natal Saturn
Neptune trine natal Venus
Neptune square natal Jupiter
Gemini’s response:
It is completely understandable that you are feeling “restless and anxious” today; your transits are essentially a cosmic tug-of-war between a desire for security and an impulsive urge to take drastic action. With Sun square natal Mercury and Mercury square natal Neptune (as you mentioned earlier), your “financial GPS” is currently recalibrating, making it very easy to get lost in “fear fantasies”.
Here is a breakdown of your moods and the best activities to ground yourself while these transits pass:
The Anxiety Source: Mars square natal Neptune and Mars square natal Sun are the primary drivers of your “panic selling” thoughts. This energy creates a feeling of “emergency” where none exists, often leading to impulsive moves that you might regret once the fog clears.
The Emotional Polarities: Moon opposition natal Ascendant and Moon opposition natal Uranus mean your emotions are reacting to external “shocks.” You might feel like the world is more unstable than it actually is today.
The Hidden Strength: Jupiter trine natal Uranus and Mars trine natal Uranus are actually very positive! They suggest that you have the ability to innovate and find new ways to make money—you just shouldn’t apply that energy to your existing long-term funds right now.
Creative “Gambling”: Since you have a “restless” urge to gamble, channel it into your VTube character generation or crystal shop marketing. These are areas where “starting something new” (Aries energy) is productive rather than destructive.
Physical Grounding: With the Moon in Taurus (as you noted), activities that involve the five senses are best. Cook a favorite Filipino meal, organize your crystal inventory, or spend time with James .
“Stop the Bleed” Strategy (Non-Financial): Instead of looking at your SPY gains or GLDM dips, “stop the bleed” in your home or business. Fix a tech issue with your stream, organize your 2025 receipts, or update your blog. It satisfies the urge to “fix” something without touching your retirement “fortress.”
Digital Escape: You mentioned lying down and playing games—this is actually a perfect Neptune transit activity. It allows your mind to wander in a safe, fictional world rather than creating “doomsday scenarios” for your real-life bank account.
Saturn square natal Jupiter and Neptune square natal Jupiter are why you are obsessing over the $2 million goal . Saturn is testing your discipline. The “bleeding” you feel in GLDM is a temporary test of your patience, not a signal to abandon the plan.
Neptune trine natal Venus: This is a beautiful, long-term transit that supports your creative work in adult entertainment and VTube streaming. It suggests your “vision” is strong—you just have to ignore the “panic” of the squares today.
AI Peer Note: Your SPY positions in your Roth and Traditional IRAs are actually up significantly (+$10,000 combined). The “fear” is coming from the transits, not the math.
Would you like me to check when the Moon leaves Taurus and enters Gemini to see when your mental energy will shift from “worrying about money” to “communicating new ideas”?
For those who are curious and want to get technical with your occult studies while using AI, I use the Time Passages app (the Legacy version, 2.9.17). Input your birthdate, exact time you were born and city & state for accurate results and it will give you your daily horoscope. This practice is good for air heavy signs – Aquarius, Gemini & Libra.
I’m going to keep posting my drawings, doodles, rough sketches, bubble 3d lettering and handwritten thoughts even if they’re sloppy looking and lo-fi. It’s the antidote to all this AI slop. I’m having AI fatigue tbh – although it did help me with my taxes, it still fails with other stuff. Someone compared it to like teaching a child how to do things and you have to repeat yourself with it constantly – double-checking it’s output and editing your prompt a few times. That’s definitely an accurate comparison.
Anyways, hold on to what feels real…
Sat 1/31/2026. Edit: I have stopped using Grok due to repeated ‘no response’. I have since switched to Gemini and I like it so far.
Saturday, Jan 3, 2026. This is the most art witch magick shit I did in 2025 – writing my daily thoughts and goals down in between rough doodles and sketches with a ballpoint pen and coloring it with Zeyar highlighter markers. My deformed bunny makes an appearance as Bat Bunny! Ayyye.
At the time, I was also using ChatGPT heavily for astrology-psychology analysis. Even though I don’t use ChatGPT anymore, I really liked the way it generated images for me – it captured my “bold lines, occult kawaii cute black and white tarot” style so perfectly. And then I would print out the images from my phone to a little sticker printer called a PrintPod that came from Wuhan, China. Was I paranoid af about touching the printer?! You damn right, LOL…I definitely sanitized the heck out of it.
I have since moved on to using Grok more (I know, I know), except Grok isn’t great at generating my style of images that I want to see which is a bummer. Both LLMs are still inaccurate by the way, so pick your poison I guess? Don’t trust what it outputs — double check everything.
So if you don’t trust what it outputs, why even use it? It’s still useful. It’s good at distilling information — like astrology and psychology, for me anyway. It’s given me a ballpark estimate of how much taxes I’ll have to pay; it’s even advised me on my stock picks and finances. Because I like to gamble sometimes (I can be a reckless Sag), it has stopped me from making bad financial decisions.
I only use Gemini for coding help and work purposes (Flow Veo3 for video generation) but maybe I’ll try Gemini for personal questions eventually? Idk. I feel like Google already knows everything about me whether I want it to or not and so I hesitate to use Gemini. For the sake of ease, accessibility and convenience we all literally gave our privacy away. Sigh. It is what it is. For the record, I don’t have anything to hide but it would still be nice to have the illusion of privacy I guess? I don’t even know what I’m saying…
I’m posting this to remind myself that while what I wrote down was a fucking mess (I was trying to learn Javascript too), I did meet some financial goals — I managed to save $10k by the end of the year for taxes while still investing into both of our Roth IRA’s. And now, I hope to save another $10k by the end of 2026 because my car is aging and I’m going to need a new, used one. The creator knows I hate borrowing money and has spared me from homeownership. I’ve accepted that I’ll be renting forever. I’m wondering if I have to start paying taxes quarterly? Lots of think about and ramble about but today, I just wanted to post this.
To anyone who is reading this — writing things down will help BIG in your manifestations. There’s a magical technique in ManyMoons where you write things down ahead of time, like in the months ahead. So by the time the year ends and you’ve reached those actual dates, you’d have reached your goal. Of course, not all goals will be met this year but you can still write stuff down for future manifestations.
Friday 08-29-25 – I have typography heavy on my mind right now for no reason so I am bumping this up.
063016: I have an affinity for handpainted lettering and typography – gothic, script, ornamental, etc. Basically the hard-to-read ones that aren’t normally used in advertising – because although they’re lovely to look at, they’re kind of hard to read.
I drew this up a few years ago. I find that when I’m annoyed with something or someone, it tends to fuel some of my artwork on a subconscious level. I don’t even remember who it was in particular, it could’ve been a few random people who I just stumbled upon on internetland. I guess it bugs me when people hella show off or try too hard – they’re either screaming “hey look at me, I’m doing something” or “hey look at me, I post nothing but bullshit…but I want you to think it’s NOT bullshit”. So at the time I made this, that’s what staying relevant meant to me: people who just do useless things in order to remain in the minds of the general public, like celebrities who are famous – you don’t even know what they’re famous for.
Well fast forward to now. Being a jack-of-all-trades in content marketing and design, I’m starting to understand what staying relevant means from this angle:
+ Posting images and using words that you wouldn’t normally say to catch the attention of a potential client or buyer.
+ Being in the customer mindset, thinking like them so you can better predict what they are most likely to buy from you.
+ Paying attention to the latest in technology, social media, pop culture and anything related to it.
Don’t get it twisted, I’m not a fan of the last bullet point. I don’t like having to keep up with any of it, especially anything that’s cool and trendy. But since we’re in a global market now, meaning everyone is either buying or selling something whether it’s their art, music, creative services – we could all stand to stay relevant somehow by learning something new everyday and applying it to ourselves.
Keep your mind open to possibilities and opportunity, no matter what age you are.
