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Not-so-random thoughts + musings:
Created a shop page in case anyone wants to buy any of my old stuff…it’s a work in progress for now.
Tues 10/27/26 – The AI paranoia continues. Today, late afternoon – I read that creators are leaving Instagram or anything tied to Meta because starting on October 30th, Meta will be using public profiles to train their AI, which makes me want to leave too, ugh. I mean, it’s not like I use it all that much. But I do like keeping in touch with the few friends I have. Sigh. What the actual fuck.
Also remember when I said a few days ago I felt like bots are scraping my site? Well I think it’s probably true, but I can’t prove it, nor do I have time to look. So now I’m wondering if this is the end of Save the Savages…
3 of Swords was right on time for today; I feel kinda bummed about this. On the bright side, perhaps this will get me to draw and write again? We’ll see…
Mon 10/26/26 – card pulls for this week:
Monday: 10 of Swords – stabbed in the back, the end of a cycle. Emotional cutoff, death of an illusion. 100% accurate for me.
Tuesday: 3 of Swords – a necessary cutting; heartbreak, a bleeding heart
Wednesday: 4 of Pentacles – holding on to your money; financial security
Thursday: The High Priestess – intuitive awareness, psychic energy, mysterious, hidden secrets
Friday: 3 of Cups – joyful celebration, having fun
Saturday: Page of Wands – you or someone with youthful, fiery energy bringing that creative energy; they could teach you something new.
Sunday: Knight of Wands – you or someone with fiery energy, charging right at you with creative energy
Fri 10/23/26 – Enter Scorpio season – Sun, Mercury and Venus in Scorpio. Deep waters = deep feelings. I even took the long way to work just to commune with the trees after their shower – everything looks so crisp and vivid with the most puffiest clouds, a literal dream. Inspite of the lingering paranoia I have for AI & technology (Mercury in Scorpio), I feel good today – mind body soul and spirit. I pulled cards earlier this week for every day of this week and of course – The Devil card was pulled for today, Friday. Gonna dance with the devil once again and then trade places.
Thu 10/22/26 – It’s been raining here these last couple of days; the plants and trees got to take a shower and today I saw about 4-5 rainbows omw to work! Of course I took crappy pics while I was driving, everyone was. If you know me, I wear black and grey all day but best believe my rainbow soul was happy.💖🌈💖🌈💖🌈💖🌈
I sound sooo gay rn lol don’t care either.
Mon 10/19/26 – Moon in Aquarius – thinking about humanity in general, no feelings, just logic. I hate being a Libra moon sometimes, I feel indecisive for no fucking reason; I also feel that my aura is dominantly white/yellow with some blues and greens in the outer layer. Today I pulled the 5 of Swords and the 10 of Swords and some other cards I can’t remember at the moment. Swords is mental air energy (Libra, Gemini, Aquarius) – a sharp tongue could ruin someone’s mood. Perhaps it’s me, I’m ruining my own mood.
I also think my moon is tuned in to the fact that the USA is participating in genocide. My mind wants to be logical in order to explain what’s actually happening but I can’t. I don’t want to piss anyone off so I’ll just write about it here. I pray for the disabled, the women, children and animals that can’t defend themselves.
Everything I’m doing feels so insignificant right now.
Sat 10/17/26 – I can be the most encouraging person in the world – happy to cheer you on in whatever you’re doing – but why can’t I do it for myself? Oh, because the moon is in Capricorn (ruled by Saturn).
Fri 10/16/26 – I feel so uninspired by AI right now, especially in my industry. Yes, you get to generate images and videos much faster but at what cost? Less drinkable water for humans, animals and future generations? I hate that I’m also part of this…
Also, Libra season will be over soon. I’ve already been feeling the Mercury in Scorpio / pre-shadow retrograde transit – where people are trying to know your secrets, having technological paranoia or issues with tech/communications, feeling distrustful of people and their intentions with me, people who are too afraid to be themselves so they have to wear a costume. I see more and more people going anonymous on social media to the point where you don’t know who’s who anymore. I also feel like bots are scraping my content but I can’t fucking prove it. Ughhhh, I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling like I can’t create freely or say what I want to say anymore because I’m under surveillance. We’re ALL under surveillance. Or someone’s going to steal my content, or AI is going to clone my voice, my words and likeness, or I’m going to get hacked which means I need to learn cybersecurity. The list goes on and on….
My mind is exhausted with having to keep up with it all.
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Thu 10/15/26 – Pre-shadow Mercury is giving me issues with computers and communication; my Adobe apps are still unusable…and I’ve been such a saint through all of it. Update 12:10pm – I went ahead and canceled my subscription to Adobe Creative Cloud even though they charged me an early termination fee of $192.47 (gonna get this money back though).
Wed 10/14/26 – When digital ghosts start popping up on “Suggested for you” section on Instagram – it gives me the slight chills. And it’s not Roxy either. Although once in a great while, her IG account will popup. Anyways this one is from a coworker who passed away almost 2 years ago. He was loved by everyone here.
As they say around this time – the veil is thin. Halloween, Samhain and Dia de los Muertos is around the corner. Memento Mori.
Tue 10/13/26 – One week before the 7th anniversary of Roxy’s passing. A little sad, a little melancholic but keeping it together. She knows I miss her terribly. I guess I miss my mom too and saw a quick vision of her in between falling back to sleep while reading – she was in human form, and she was smiling. My friend’s mom, who passed away 3 years ago, was with her even though I didn’t see her. Still not fully in the Halloween mood but I have been reading my psychic development books again and reacquainting myself with the metaphysical properties of the crystals and stones. Still seeing a lot of repeating numbers: 444, 555, 777, 999, 1111
Mon 10/12/26: The truth is – people are secretly using AI while also saying ‘fuck AI’. Sometimes it’s the same people. A lot of people are disabled and find AI useful in generating their images, or providing advice or solutions to their problems. A lot of people are lonely and isolated and find that AI can be a companion. A lot of companies have AI in their workflows now, my employer included. AI has helped me troubleshoot stuff with WordPress. It’s also helped me answer complex astrology questions. AI has created open source software versions of Adobe apps recently and is available for download at [https://getartcraft.com/apps]
So yes, AI is a consciousness that can be trained for good and bad intentions, just like humans have a consciousness that can be cultivated for good and for bad.
I don’t know what I’m getting at but I don’t think AI is going anywhere.
Sun 10/11/26 – The Empress. Sun in Libra, moon in Scorpio. Still haven’t fixed the Adobe issue even though I chatted with an AI assistant and supposedly a human advisor, completely fucking pointless and unhelpful. So I have to call on Monday and speak to an actual person. At this point though, fuck Adobe. It’s going to be hard since I’ve been an Adobe user since my 20’s but I’m tired of this issue and being locked in to a subscription with a ridiculous cancellation fee so switching to open source apps very soon. So far I have DaVinci Resolve for video editing and Photopea for Photoshop stuff; I feel clumsy asf on both :/
Note to self: your MV Instagram is dead and no one cares about what you’re selling. Just fix all the missing photos on MV. Then try to sell everything you have left either through Etsy or Google Ads. No one’s going to know about you if you don’t advertise. Also maybe add a digital product. Or maybe offer virtual tarot readings and crystal healings? We’ll see…
I feel like the rabbit in Alice in Wonderland though – the one who’s late and feels like there’s no time left.
Fri 10/9/26 – Sun is in Libra, the Moon is in Libra. Balanced yet indecisive. Once again, I don’t know what I want. By the time I manifest a million dollars in retirement I’ll be old old, if I even live that long.
I am solving this problem with Adobe’s authentication loop where it keeps telling me to sign in OVER and OVER. I want to cancel my subscription right now because the apps I need are unusable at this point but of course they’re going to charge a termination fee, but I’m also not ready to go full open source. So I am going to problem solve it this weekend.
22:44 – I read something about my life path number 6; because of my nurturing nature, I was supposed to have been a nurse. In another timeline, I suppose…
Thu 10/8/26 – 8 on a Jupiter day. 8 for infinity and beyond. Spiral on a higher level and make your dreams come true even if it seems impossible, especially now.
Idek why I have had this surge of energy for bringing back and fixing the MV website; if you look at the market rn no one’s buying anything other than food and necessities (myself included) so why bring something back that’s probably useless to a lot of people?
Idk tbh, my intuition wanted me to bring the site back for a reason to see if I can still problem solve (I’m still a nerd and webdev even though I’m not advanced). Also personally for me the crystals & stones have not been useless at all; sounds corny AF but they really transformed my life when I started working with them 15 years ago. The truth is I want to monetize the blog (including this one) but there are a bunch of steps I need to follow before that even happens. So we’ll see.
I think whatever we’re drawn to at the moment has meaning even if it doesn’t make sense. I know my intuition is guiding me.
Wed 10/7/26 – Whatever you’re focused on today, release the need for a specific outcome. Make a wish and then let it go. Do the best you can.
Tues 10/6/26 – It’s time to disappear and eliminate all distractions; I want to start writing again. Fingers crossed, I call upon the 4 elements from the 5 – the number of man. All this accumulated knowledge has to go somewhere. I am creating multiple streams of income from my 48 years of life experience.
Sun 10/4/26 – I managed to sit down with Gemini who helped me troubleshoot and bring back an old ecommerce website & blog back to life. Perhaps this is the real Venus in Scorpio retrograde and Pluto sextile Venus transit? Venus is not only love and relationships but also money and finances. And this was tied to money. Anyways it’s a WIP for now as there are lots of broken links. It will keep me occupied in between work stuff so I’m not getting distracted.
At the same time, some really frustrating crap with signing in for Adobe Creative Cloud multiple times drove me nuts…like wtf am I paying for this?! Unfortunately my computer won’t even take some of the open source alternatives out there. FML
Sat 10/3/26 – Libra season update: still feeling good body mind soul spirit; balanced, loved and protected by the universe in spite of this shit economy and even shittier politicians.
Declare and say it outloud as much as you need to: money comes to me easily and effortlessly.
I was also lowkey stressing/figuring out money & bills for the month as usual (my long term transit Pluto sextile Venus has been doing this for months now even before the war started) and yet somehow, unexpected money came through right on time. Fucking magical. I’ve also been seeing 444 (stability) and 555 (change) a lot. Keep doing the inner work, align yourself with your personal horoscope/transits, speak to the universe about what you want and know that your needs and desires are met before you even ask outloud. Blessed be witches, wizards and magickal people✨👁️✨May you receive what you need, may you receive what you deserve. And so it is.✨👁️✨
Thu 10/1/26 – LOL it’s October 1st and it’s still extreme summer weather here; into the 90’s this weekend. FML and hellooo global warming! WTF man. I do remember in October 2004 I was painting the Dickies Girl wall on a ladder and it was humid hot even back then, but not quite like this. And there was a slaughterhouse nearby so the smell of carcasses was wafting over to where we were painting. Fughhh, wah, booo, hissss! The utility bill is gonna be high again too I’m sure of it.
I wonder if I need to go hard on my OnlyFans again. I hate being forced to do things because money. It’s not like I’m broke and jobless, but money has gotten super tight and everything that people need has become expensive AF. Because of this shit economy, I’m also not meeting my retirement goals. If only I could be like Sophie Rain – that young woman who made millions on OnlyFans and is now retired. And she wasn’t even nude. But really tho – how many stalkers, weirdos and creeps follow her around online and irl?
As much as I want more money, there is a price to pay for doing sexwork online – even if no one’s actually touching you. Sexual energy can be exchanged electronically, and your mental health can take a toll from constant demands. The capacity for men to dox, take advantage of you (especially if you’re new), verbally or textually abuse and stalk your socials is becoming more and more prevalent which is why I don’t do it as much. I am a ghost and prefer it that way.
So ask yourself before you do this kind of work, is it worth it? Do your research and stay safe.
I guess I’m in a rambling mood today.
Wed 9/30/26 – Libra season so far has unexpectedly put me in a balanced, harmonious mood; my Libra moon is actually happy for once. Not attached, not addicted, not catching feelings, like some sort of spiritual, mental high? I’m just going to enjoy the moment…
But then all these retrogrades are happening in October so idek. Expect the unexpected…
Thu 9/24/26 – Everyone keeps talking about Venus in retrograde in Scorpio which is happening soon in October; this transit will either mess with my finances or relationships or both. Ugh, brace yourselves. I’m already having dark, intrusive thoughts about it.
Btw, astrology will absolutely drive you batshit crazy if you’re not ready for it. I think that’s why astrology is definitely an occult science & language – your mind can only grasp certain concepts at a certain age; then you revisit again years later and another piece of the puzzle reveals itself to you. I mean for a long time – up to my 30’s I only focused on my sun sign, not really aware that the other planets contributed to who I was becoming. I really admire the younger crowd though – they’re really adept at reading birthcharts, aspects, transits, etc.
Again this is just my experience. It might be completely different for you.
Tue 9/22/26 – she’s been thinking what I’ve been thinking about for a lonnng time since we were already getting suspended 10 years ago. But realistically, who has the resources to actually pull this off? If you think about how big Twitter and Instagram are, they are HUGE and take up massive resources and server space all over the world because everyone is uploading pics and videos. Nothing’s for free so you’re either giving them your data, you pay to be visible with a blue checkmark and / or they need to invite advertisers to pay for the costs and allow users to monetize their content.
I really want someone to make an 18+ social media platform. It would be similar to X and instagram, but for adu