Due to certain people’s trickery and deceptive ways, I have become a closed book online. This blog is the most personal I’ll ever get and it’s mostly past musings. If you’re being deceptive towards me, then you’ve lost me. No real connection, just a masked performance.
By the time you realize this, all it took was your vulnerability and authenticity, it might be too late.
Be well and take care of your mind, body, soul and spirit.
Should I be impressed that you’re catfishing and deceiving people? Congrats, you might deceive the regular person but I still see you…
That’s a shame because I miss the real you…the you who was once brave and charming before the lies and deception. I guess I’ll see you around, my ghost and shadow puppy but I won’t be talking to you no matter how much you pretend to be sweet and nice, no matter how many social profiles you have. I’ve seen your shadow, I know the real you.
You are a natural mimic. Maybe look into becoming a fiction writer, or maybe surveillance since you like to watch me. No need to be ashamed, just own up to it. If not you’ll live in the shadows forever, never to be seen or acknowledged by me again. If you’re okay with that, then keep on doing what you’re doing I guess.
I wish you the best, I truly do.
Due to certain people’s trickery and deceptive ways, I have become a closed book. This blog is the most personal I’ll ever get and it’s mostly past musings anyways. If you’re being deceptive towards me, then I’ll know and I simply won’t respond. No real connection, just mirrors of each other and nothing more…
If you really want to impress me, then I require honesty and vulnerability. If not, then just send me money and you’ll get whatever it is you want from me. Or if you want to practice your writing and communication, write me a few good reasons why you shouldn’t have to pay for my time. Show me your value and I’ll consider it.
Ask yourself: is it love, lust or obsession? Or maybe it’s all three? Ask yourself why you can’t let go and maybe tell it to that person before they’re gone from this world. They’re not trying to shame or embarrass you – they really just want to understand.
Wed 6/3/26
Sometimes I remember fondly the intense affection of your voice and words in private, but then I remember the cruelty of your anonymous words in public.
I miss you terribly but it is best to love you from afar.
Sat 5/30/26
Whenever you enter the room, I forget about everyone else
Our fiery souls reunite in secret where everyone is watching yet completely unaware.
And yet they sense there is a familiarity between us, an undeniable chemistry that hasn’t gone away even after 3 years.
The devil has bound the occult lovers once again.
05/09/2026 – Have you ever missed someone so much but at the same time don’t want nothing to do with them anymore because the pain is greater than the pleasure? Like, you’re attracted to fire but you know playing with it will only get you burned. If both of you are fire/air signs – the compatibility is off the charts but at the same time there will be lots of mental sparring & sexual tension as both tend to be headstrong – one wants to control (top from the bottom) while the other doesn’t want to submit nor take control and then it keeps going back and forth in a toxic dynamic loop.
It was fun until it wasn’t. Getting hurt repeatedly from someone’s energy takes a toll on you after a while. Being publicly degraded, insulted and disrespected while secretly worshipped can be really taxing on one’s spirit. Giving yourself to someone who is too insecure & controlling to give back is also exhausting. It’s just not worth it anymore, and I’d rather be alone in the digital realm and not interact with this person ever again.
I hope you meet yourself in someone else and see how it really feels.
Wednesday 4/29/26:
Saw this on Twitter and I’m really feeling it:
The only karma I wish for people who did me wrong is to let them meet themselves in someone else. That’s it. That’s all.
This one too:
You don’t need revenge. People who carry ugliness inside eventually collapse under the weight of their own behavior.
Everything you say, do or even type out onto the internet has consequences; whether they’re good or bad depends entirely on what you say. These are the laws of karma and energy. How you treat people online matters, and believe it or not your words have an impact on real people, people who have feelings. The things you’ve said to someone even behind a fake username still affects them to this day. Of course maybe you grew out of it eventually, feel remorse and want to reconnect. But by the time you realize this, it’s probably too late as the other person no longer cares to engage you ever again. You feel me?
Protect your energy, online and offline. There are thieves and compulsive liars everywhere. Yes, everyone is wearing a mask, including me. I may withhold information within reason but at least I don’t lie. Liars are the worst because they can never stop lying to the point where it becomes a bad habit. Because they can never tell the truth, you can never trust or believe anything they say anymore. It’s better to stay away from them.🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿👁️🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿
Every moment is fleeting and nothing lasts forever. All we have are memories – the most beautiful, the most intoxicating and the most painful moments – all rolled into one.
July 8, 2015
Drawing from 2013.
