bookmark_borderSelf Portraits from The Past✨👁✨


Feb 4, 2026 – I’ve been looking for this photo, as I don’t really take photos of my own tattoos. I think this is from between 2015-2017. This California tattoo was done by skateboarding legend Eric Dressen. Eric if you happen to see this, hi!


Jan 20, 2026 – Bumping this up just because. Saying hello to myself from the future.


Aug 23, 2017 Hello friends!?

I don’t have a whole lot to say these days. Selling crystals and stones along with marketing and advertising the small business I started in April 2017 is keeping me busy as well as learning and expanding my knowledge of the mineral kingdom. I also became attuned to level I Reiki very recently; I wanted to bless the stones that I’m selling with Reiki energy. So yeah, I am very grateful for everything that I am experiencing. I don’t know where all of this is taking me, I’m just here for the ride and following whatever interests me.

This year has been so different, doing the constant work on myself has been life changing.

I am turning 40 at the end of the year, technically I already am.? I don’t know wtf that means anymore as I don’t feel like it. It used to be a big deal for everyone, right? I guess for me, it’s not…at least not anymore.

If you are reading this, I hope that you are having a transformative year, I hope you are living your best life.???

bookmark_borderVideo: Outerspace Crystal Skull Witch – Oct 2022

I gotta say, this was fun to make. I started doing this because I hated how things looked on TikTok – the white outlines around text BUGS me, like nothing is pleasing to look at on there.

Initially, I used the Rotoscoping Brush in After Effects, but it didn’t work. So I started rotoscoping it manually. Rotoscoping is the fancy term in After Effects that “cuts” the person out of the background. It’s painstaking to do it frame by frame, that’s why they have the Rotoscoping Brush tool.

The downside of rotoscoping this manually? I experienced tennis elbow. My right elbow, arms and hand all became stiff and it hurt to move it for a few days. Luckily, some electrical stimulation and Aleve helped me recover quickly.

Should I blame it on getting old or just overdoing it with this project? I probably overextended myself. Either way, I feel as if my body can’t do fun things anymore because I’m getting old. Like I have to watch what I’m doing now, like working on something for too long and injuring myself…

so lame.

bookmark_borderReiki and Reptilians

I must warn you now: this shit’s going to be weird and might freak you out but yes I’m going there because A) this is my blog and B) it’s all I’ve been thinking about these last few days and I needed an answer to my question:

Is Reiki another form of manipulation, is it part of the false light agenda?

These questions came up for me recently as I browsed on Instagram and saw that some healers have had their Reiki symbols removed; claiming that Reiki is another part of the Reptilian agenda to manipulate people who are spiritual.

What the fucking fuck.

I’ve been attuned to Reiki levels I and II in Usui method so of course this freaked me the fuck out and needed to know right away if I had just taken on some form of reptilian mind control.

The short answer is: no. But still, it took almost 5 days to find an answer that I’m partially satisfied with and on the first day of discovering this – my anxiety levels were rising and it felt real. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I guess it didn’t help that I started reading one of David Icke’s books to try to know more about reptilians, then I started YouTubing shit and learned all about the false light propaganda that is happening amongst us. It was definitely an eye-opener that was part fascination, part anxiety, part everything really.

So anyways, this video sort of gave me some relief but at the same time not really: Reptilian Carrier Wave in Reiki and Possible MK Ultra Connection

The lesson here? Question everything, including your own motives and listen/trust your own intuition. It’s tempting to not question it especially when everyone is doing it. Like right now, there’s so many people getting Reiki attunements, myself included.

Although I haven’t had a negative experience with Reiki, I’m on the fence right now. There were a couple of instances where people compared Reiki systems and a lot of them claimed that the ones they’re getting attuned to are more ‘powerful’.

Something about that puts me off, because the word ‘power’ can be so easily abused. You must ask yourself, why are you getting attuned or why do you want to be a Reiki master? Do you think you will gain more power? What kind of power are we talking about exactly and power over who or what? I thought the whole point of spirituality was to realize/actualize our own power, not look to an outside source.

For example – during attunement we work with an ascended master from an oracle deck. I honestly am not familiar with a lot of these so called ascended masters. Like really though, who are they?

I don’t know. Reptilians seek power and control so is there some subliminal connection there?

As they say around October/November that the veil is thin and entities from other dimensions can enter this one.

So basically this whole thing opened up Pandora’s box and I might have to step away from it all to get clear again. It’s no wonder I kept my Black Tourmaline close to me this whole time.

bookmark_borderWhat is Self-Love?

Loving yourself has been on the rise as of late and I really think it’s here to stay. Maybe perhaps it’s WHAT I’ve been choosing to see/experience more and more of and so now I see it everywhere; at least in my digital/real world. It’s a beautiful thing to witness people loving themselves, but what does it mean exactly?

Here is the definition of self-love from my perspective:

Self-love means being kind to yourself. Being kind to yourself means not putting yourself down, not telling yourself  “I suck” at doing things; self-love has a lot to do with how we talk to ourselves – our inner dialogue, our thoughts, what we think of ourselves.

Self-love means being happy with the way you look and not looking at the perceived flaws that you “think” you have. It means loving ALL of you, especially the parts that aren’t perfect.

Self-love means we deserve to have what we desire. We deserve to be happy and not feel guilty about it. We deserve to cut toxic, mean, assholish people out of our lives. Self-love puts “you” first,  all in the context of not harming others of course.

To those who don’t understand, self-love might be perceived as a form of selfishness. Why? Anyone that calls you selfish is probably projecting something towards you. When someone is projecting it means they’re putting an issue out there (maybe towards you or someone else), when in fact the issue has to do with them. I wish I could explain it better but just know that self-love DOES NOT equate to selfishness…

Self-love also doesn’t equate to acting like you’re better than others either, it is way deeper than that.

I’ve been seeing this phrase a lot online: “when we love ourselves first, then we can love others”.

Or I’ve also seen it as: when we heal ourselves first, then we can heal others.

I believe both statements are absolutely true. When we practice self-love (or self-healing), the issues that we have had in the past tend to gradually disappear – some issues like being needy and self-centered or wanting attention from someone else, feeling the need to be right, etc. Things of that nature, things that tend to involve the ego or the “I”.

Practicing self-love is going to be an ongoing process, it’s not something that happens overnight. I still feel like I’m working on some things, as we all are. It’s part of the human experience and why we came to earth in the first place.

But we’re all making progress everyday and that’s better than not doing anything.

One of the books that helped me achieve self-love is by metaphysics author Louise Hay. Her book “You Can Heal Your Life” is an easy read. So easy that it’s hard to believe that it’s simple. It really is.

Let’s all learn to love ourselves more and more each day.❤️

I created the above image in Photoshop and saw that it was GIF worthy, maybe I will post a tutorial.