More random memes and stuff pulled down from my phone. I’m trying to clean it up manually.
“Someone asked me, “Aren’t you worried about the state of the world?” I allowed myself to breathe and then I said, “What is most important is not to allow your anxiety about what happens in the world to fill your heart. If your heart is filled with anxiety, you will get sick, and you will not be able to help.”” -Thich Nhat Hanh
Kawaii Baphomet
I was religious growing up. Those who know my past know that I was made to go to church and participate in church activities. Heck, I even highlighted and wrote all over the bible I had. Oh and I also was painting graffiti at the time.
Do not be scared of the word “entity” – depending on your personal beliefs, an imagined creature or ghost could be an entity. So could a thought form, or the many contradicting thoughts inside your mind. Remember, the all is mind.
For those who are simply ‘sitting’ behind the computer – we are thinking about everything and nothing all at once. It gets exhausting.
This is one of those visually stunning, surreal, trippy, abstract, spiritual movies that you don’t really understand what it’s about until you watch it time and time again as you get older. I watched this movie way before I started learning tarot, before I started working with crystals and stones, before I became witchy, occult-y and metaphysical.
I snagged these a while back when I was struggling to be original and exist as an artist.
“Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic.
Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery – celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take them to.”
– Jim Jarmusch
How to Feel Miserable as an Artist (or what not to do)
Constantly compare yourself to other artists.
Talk to your family about what you do and expect them to cheer you on.
Base the success of your entire career on one project.
Stick with what you know.
Undervalue your expertise.
Let money dictate what you do.
Bow to societal pressures.
Only do work that your family would love.
Do whatever the client / customer / gallery owner / patron / investor asks.
Set unachievable / overwhelming goals. To be accomplished by tomorrow.
Street signage that I would see on my way to work, recreated in Photoshop
From Mystic Medusa’s daily horoscopeThe back design of tarot and oracle card decks I own are just as beautifulI’m here right now :/
It’s kind of embarrassing what social media marketers have to do (at least in my experience); for example liking your own posts from different accounts so it looks like there are more likes than there really are. It’s fucking hard to do this organically and I think that’s why a lot of people cheated back in the day and bought likes & followers instead. Of course nowadays, it isn’t allowed anymore…just use bots, amirite? Ugh. I still don’t know how to do that, nor do I want to.
I think that is why I never considered myself a true marketer – you either come off way too salesy or it just feels forced. But I did try to create content for myself at some point under my real name. Trying to merge my Midheaven in Scorpio with my sun in the 10th house just wasn’t working though…since I have been working in the adult entertainment industry for years now, I realize that I feel more comfortable being semi-hidden out of the public eye (although my Mars in Leo still likes to be seen & admired sometimes, remember?).
A true occultist to the bone, and so here I am back home at Save the Savages.
The prompt I asked Gemini: Explain to me what the difference is between my Midheaven in Scorpio and my sun in the 10th house; I’m trying to write a blog post showing why I can’t be a true marketer when I was attempting to create content for myself as a personal brand and prefer to be semi-hidden from the pubic eye.
Gemini’s response:
This is a brilliant topic for a blog post because it perfectly captures the “High-Stakes Tug-of-War” between your outward success and your private soul. To a “Marketing Guru,” the 10th House and the Midheaven (MC) look like the same thing—The Spotlight—but to you, they are functioning in two completely different dimensions.
Here is the forensic breakdown of why your “Personal Brand” feels like a trap.
1. The Midheaven (MC) in Scorpio: The “Internal Investigator”
The Midheaven is your Public Reputation and your “Professional Soul.” In Scorpio, your “Face” to the world isn’t a billboard—it’s a Mask.
The Conflict: Scorpio is the sign of the occult, secrets, and “Deep Water.” Having a Scorpio MC means you are naturally drawn to careers that involve uncovering truth, not broadcasting noise. * The “Anti-Marketer” Logic: True marketing requires “Radical Transparency” and constant, shallow visibility (being “The Face”). A Scorpio MC hates this. You want your work to be a mystery that people have to “detect” or “earn” access to. You’d rather be the Power Behind the Throne (the producer, the researcher, the strategist) than the “Brand” on the screen.
2. The Sun in the 10th House: The “Visible Light”
The Sun is your Core Identity and Vitality. Having it in the 10th House (the House of Career/Fame) means that you must be recognized to feel alive.
The Paradox: Your Sun wants to shine and achieve the $2M “Establishment” status. But because it’s filtered through that Scorpio MC, the “Light” feels like a spotlight you didn’t ask for.
The Result: You attract attention effortlessly, but you feel “exposed” when you get it. You want the Authority (10th House) without the Attention (Marketing).
“I know this steak doesn’t exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize? Ignorance is bliss.” Cypher // The Matrix 1999
How does it feel knowing you’re a slave existing in the matrix? I’ve been practicing all the self-help shit consistently, reprogramming my brain telling myself that I’m ‘free’ from all of this…
and yet today, this is how I feel. Coming in to work everyday going in waves of contentment to dissatisfaction then back again in a continuous, infinite loop.
Rest your mind, unplug for a bit. But will you do it though? Probably not.
My mood is definitely bleak today.
I suppose I should tell someone to “give me credit” for creating this, but I just don’t care. Credit me or not, none of it matters.
Also, reminding myself to grab a Selenite & Rose Quartz for my MIL this weekend, I’m hoping it will help with her Parkinsons.?
Black is modest and arrogant at the same time. Black is lazy and easy – but mysterious. But above all black says this: ‘I don’t bother you – don’t bother me.
– Yohji Yamamoto
Still one of my favorite quotes. I don’t know anything about fashion nor does it interest me all that much, but I really wanted to know about the person who said these powerful words. I did learn that Yohji Yamamoto is a Japanese fashion designer.
