My goal with this gif was to create a seamless loop. I guess I’ll try again until I finally have it down…
Tag: artsy animated gif
bookmark_borderAnimated Gif: VDay Emoji Particles 2021
Large GIF incoming…I forgot about this. Made in After Effects, exported in Photoshop to lessen file size and frames. Valentine’s Day is such a cheesy holiday but I secretly love making graphics for it.
bookmark_borderGIF Art: Trippy Witch
February 4, 2026: It’s alway fun to do experimental shit.
July 31, 2019
Some old stuff I did in After Effects mixed with some new, jittery Photoshop animation.
bookmark_borderWork Shit
The pros and cons of working in adult entertainment marketing, at least for me.
Pros
+ I love my job. For someone who is a weirdo and an introvert anyway, it’s actually a good fit for me.
+ I get to create animated gifs (my favorite).
+ I get to be on the internet all day.
+ I get to learn new things in the world of internet marketing, as it’s constantly changing.
+ I’ve gotten better at writing.
I wonder, would my bio dad be proud or ashamed? I have a memory of him drawing naked ladies when I was little.
Cons
– There’s a high risk of your social media accounts getting suspended. This is what happened to me on Twitter recently. Like if you use your own phone number for work AND personal, then you will risk your phone number being blacklisted. I’ve already appealed to get my Twitter accounts back so we’ll see.
– You can’t really talk about it with anyone unless they’re in the industry themselves or they’re cool AF & open minded.
– Since I create graphics, trying to get another job is pointless as you can’t show any of your work. You would have to make up some dummy, “safe for work” designs just for your portfolio which in my experience, has been a total waste of time.
– The marketing gets repetitive; meaning, there’s only so much sexy shit you can say.
– Your marketing comes off as spammy.
– Spammers and scammers are then attracted to you.
– It’s really competitive and if you’re successful, other people will just copy exactly what you’re doing and basically steal your shit.
Remember: high risk = high rewards. No matter how much the big social media companies try to suppress adult entertainment, people are always looking for it.
About the gif animation:
I made it in Photoshop with 4 frames. So with each frame, you tweak the lips and the chin just a little to simulate movement. Maybe I will write a tutorial on this.
bookmark_borderAnimated GIF: Happy Face Rainbow Pyramid
Animated GIF by me. It took a lot of frames to move the rainbow.
bookmark_borderAll is Divine Energy
I’ve come to the conclusion that all is divine energy – whether you use Reiki, Light Language, Middle Pillar, Quantum Touch or any other type of energy work to heal yourself and others.
I started using Reiki again for self-healing and found myself combining it with the others I just listed. I didn’t even force it, it just wanted to come through that way. I’ve encountered reptilian energy again while meditating with Serpentine, but this time it was benevolent. It was from the earth and I wasn’t fearful; it was alligators, snakes, kundalini energy.
I’m also at this state where I’m no longer paying attention to anyone in particular on IG, especially if they’re not paying attention to me. Whatever that was, a one sided energy exchange – has worn off. Admiration and adoration of others that you look up to is nice, but I noticed that I was hanging onto every word a few people were saying and believing it to be the absolute truth. It might be true for them, but not for me. So I pretty much had to snap out of it and unhook myself from people.
Just know that your thoughts and feelings about something or someone can change at any moment and that’s okay.
I’ve decided to stay in my lane and do whatever it is I’m good at. I’m still really trying to learn PHP, MySQL but mostly Javascript because I still suck major ballz. Not putting myself down, just being realistic; numbers with problem solving and equations aren’t my strong points but since I have to work with it a lot at work, I feel as if I really need to fucking learn it already. Wish me luck. As a Sagittarius though, I know that I tend to take on too many things to learn & achieve. I guess we’ll see.
Quick animated digital sketch gif by me, let’s call her Minty.
bookmark_borderHow Does Your Intuition Communicate with You?
I’m writing this down before it slips away.
Some people get clear messages with absolute clarity that they should be doing something or not…
I don’t. Instead, my interests are led by it. I just realized this now, so I had to write it down immediately.
Like if I really like doing something, I’ll be into it. I’ll put lots of energy into learning it, investing time and money even.
For a while I really thought that becoming a Web Developer would be my path. But it’s clear now that it’s not. I tried applying myself a few times and it just would not gel. I look back now on the few times I’ve tried to apply for school and I kept being blocked by something inconvenient. I was forcing it.
Combining all the things I’m into now (art/design/marketing/magick) and really making it my own little thing, is where I feel like I’m truly thriving. I can actually feel my sense of purpose.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, trust yourself to make the right decisions. You are going the right way even though it might not seem like it, it might not even make sense at first.
I got into crystals & stones in 2012 not knowing that I would setup a crystal shop 5 years later, learn how to heal myself and in the process become a healer too.
I followed my interests and it led me to finding my true self and my true purpose. Life is trippy.
bookmark_borderGIF: Eternal Conflict 2012
I was digging through old files when I stumbled upon this old drawing. My mom was Christian so after she passed away in 2006, my soul wanted to draw, paint and explore the dark stuff. I was fascinated by the occult, Satanism, Anton LaVey and the image of the devil.
I was also heavily influenced by tattoo imagery, so I borrowed the devil image from Sailor Jerry’s flash. I wanted to be a tattoo artist at some point, so I bought a tattoo machine – tattooed myself and a couple of people out of my home. I was a scratcher, I didn’t get very far :/
Anyways, I guess I’m just reminiscing.
The Devil (15) is still my friend. I look forward to seeing him and I actually laugh, wondering what kind of temptation will he present to me whenever he shows up via tarot, or will he play the devil’s advocate through a person I encounter that day? You never know and that’s why I like him. He breaks up the seriousness of the tarot with his presence.
bookmark_borderIn the Pursuit of Healing and the Unknown
If you’ve been reading this blog, you’ve probably heard me say this often:
I just don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
And it’s quite true.
I don’t know why I keep pursuing certain things; I don’t know why I am interested in wanting to learn Reiki, Crystal Healing and other healing modalities…or why I even decided to sell crystals and stones. I feel like I’m not the type, yet on the contrary here I am. The fantasy I had a year ago became a full blown reality; having an online business is expensive af, I imagine having a brick and mortar would be even more. I still really love the crystals though, the ones who are sitting in my home have brought so much good to my life.
Sales have been slow last month but that’s fine; I’m learning to trust the ebb and flow.
A lot of things don’t make sense to me right now, but again I’m going to trust it.
It would be a lot more practical of me to take more classes in computer programming, marketing, design, motion graphics, etc. More classes related to my work to stay competitive or whatever; keep up with everyone else and make more $$$…
But I’m just not into it right now. Yeah I love money, I mean who doesn’t? But I’m not into hustling or chasing money.
I’ve also been noticing recently that employers don’t pay people as much for being skilled. If anything, people are being laid off for being highly skilled AND making too much.
Things are always changing, even faster now it seems.
On the upside, I feel completely at peace. I am happy for no reason.
If you also know me from the past, you know that I lived within my ego. And while it had its highs, a lot of it was low vibrational.
What are people going to remember you for, really?
I can look back and say I was a low vibrational human being. Lol! I guess if you want to insult somebody you can start calling them a “low vibrational being”. They would probably be confused by that, or not. Try it and report back 😉
Anyways, so that’s what’s been going on with me.
We’re all evolving and becoming one with our Selves, one with the Higher Consciousness.
If you’re reading this, I hope you are doing what feels good and right for you…even if it doesn’t make sense! I feel as I will probably have less friends after this round. You will look back and then it will all make sense. Trust yourself, everything will be fine.
All my love to you.❤
[I made this drawing today to go with my blog post and turned it into an animated gif again. Sorry (not sorry), all I seem to draw are pyramids, stars and eyes now. I’m boring I know and I don’t care. Artists are SO full of , aren’t they? I don’t even know who is reading my blog tbh, so.]
bookmark_borderIt’s So Easy to Slip Back…
Into an old habit, an old way of thinking…
I am totally aware of this. Right now I’m feeling an old habit creeping up on me, the feeling of boredom. I don’t want to be bored, yet I am. Perhaps the gloomy weather is causing me to feel this way, perhaps it’s my job.
Regardless I am thankful for my job, I am thankful for my life. I’m thankful that I was able to manifest an online business selling crystals; I don’t even know how it happened – being a seller was never really on my radar but marketing and building websites were, so there. It helps that I really like crystals too.
But I get bored still from time to time…I think everybody does.
You don’t have to fight it, but you can’t let it take over completely. So I am writing this to my future self as a reminder:
+ If you get bored, remember to just simply change it up! Do something a different way or make it a point to learn something new every day.
+ Read, read, read. Doodle, scribble, draw. Write with a pen, handwriting is still important.
+ Snap out of it, snap out of feeling sorry for yourself. Other people are really suffering and here you are complaining about being bored. SMH. Exercise, go outside, take a walk, breathe and be in gratitude for fuck sake. You really have a lot to be thankful for.
I am all too aware that I am also creeping my way into getting old, I can see the subtleties on my face. I’m caring less and less about a lot of things but I also don’t want to be forgetful. And I don’t want to be helpless. That’s why they say reading, writing and problem solving or playing memory games is important.
I’ve also been thinking about my finances a lot more, like 401ks and life insurance. I don’t have children so that made it a little easier, but I still have to think about retirement and my loved ones. Had I payed closer attention to this stuff when I was younger, I would be all set for retirement! I would be rich by this world’s standards. But if I DID amass that huge amount, then Uncle Sam would be taxing me for it, wouldn’t he? He sure would! So really, which choice is better; and are you really rich if all that you saved up for goes to paying down debt?
Whatever choice I picked is fine for me, I am successful either way. No matter what choice we make in life, Spirit will always look out for your best interest. You can always look back on your life and see how everything actually worked out for you.
I wanted to draw something for this post but I got stuck. So here’s an old drawing that I decided would look better in hot pink and as an animated gif.
I haven’t been feeling super creative and so I wrote this blog post over at my crystal shop’s website: How to Break Through a Creative Block with Crystals