Was looking for something in my old Gmail account when I stumbled upon this old illustration from 2006. The chubby Sherm bunny was my signature character during my graffiti painting days. He’s blinged out and drinking a 40, while the squirrel is smoking a pipe, the crow above snagged a cig and the racoon is chewing bubble gum. This was a social commentary about the current state of the world at that time – how humans leave trash everywhere they go.
Do you think anything has changed?
Gosh, scrolling through Instagram I feel so weird right now. I want to start posting again, but everyone’s posts are so goddamned good and I feel intimidated. I shouldn’t be and yet I kinda am. So I guess I’ll just post over here until I feel confident again. People who follow me on that particular account aren’t down with AI too much so everything I post needs to be handmade digitally and somewhat original. It’s understandable as a lot of them are artists.
Just remember – AI is a tool, just like a pencil or a pen. It really can’t do anything without your input. Although I like it for some things, I don’t rely on it entirely unless I’m at work. Another reason why I just talk about it here because again, my Instagram followers will probably shame me for using it.
Anyways, here is the original drawing done inside my Many Moons journal today, Friday May 29 2026. Don’t get it twisted – I am lucky as fuck to work where I work. This is not a complaint but more like a commentary on people like me who have to work but would rather create just because we’re wired to. At the same time, my job supports what I do. If I had no job, then I’d probably be stressing about not having a job and money and because of the stress I probably won’t be creating anything so it’s a double edge sword that I’ve learn to live with.
My goal with this gif was to create a seamless loop. I guess I’ll try again until I finally have it down…
Large GIF incoming…I forgot about this. Made in After Effects, exported in Photoshop to lessen file size and frames. Valentine’s Day is such a cheesy holiday but I secretly love making graphics for it.
February 4, 2026: It’s alway fun to do experimental shit.
July 31, 2019
Some old stuff I did in After Effects mixed with some new, jittery Photoshop animation.
+ I love my job. For someone who is a weirdo and an introvert anyway, it’s actually a good fit for me.
+ I get to create animated gifs (my favorite).
+ I get to be on the internet all day.
+ I get to learn new things in the world of internet marketing, as it’s constantly changing.
+ I’ve gotten better at writing.
I wonder, would my bio dad be proud or ashamed? I have a memory of him drawing naked ladies when I was little.
– There’s a high risk of your social media accounts getting suspended. This is what happened to me on Twitter recently. Like if you use your own phone number for work AND personal, then you will risk your phone number being blacklisted. I’ve already appealed to get my Twitter accounts back so we’ll see.
– You can’t really talk about it with anyone unless they’re in the industry themselves or they’re cool AF & open minded.
– Since I create graphics, trying to get another job is pointless as you can’t show any of your work. You would have to make up some dummy, “safe for work” designs just for your portfolio which in my experience, has been a total waste of time.
– The marketing gets repetitive; meaning, there’s only so much sexy shit you can say.
– Your marketing may come off as spammy to some people.
– Spammers and scammers are then attracted to you.
– It’s really competitive and if you’re successful, other people will just copy exactly what you’re doing and basically steal your shit.
Remember: high risk = high rewards. No matter how much the big social media companies try to suppress adult entertainment, people are always looking for it.
I made it in Photoshop with 4 frames. So with each frame, you tweak the lips and the chin just a little to simulate movement. Maybe I will write a tutorial on this.
Animated GIF by me. It took a lot of frames to move the rainbow.
I’ve come to the conclusion that all is divine energy – whether you use Reiki, Light Language, Middle Pillar, Quantum Touch or any other type of energy work to heal yourself and others.
I started using Reiki again for self-healing and found myself combining it with the others I just listed. I didn’t even force it, it just wanted to come through that way. I’ve encountered reptilian energy again while meditating with Serpentine, but this time it was benevolent. It was from the earth and I wasn’t fearful; it was alligators, snakes, kundalini energy.
I’m also at this state where I’m no longer paying attention to anyone in particular on IG, especially if they’re not paying attention to me. Whatever that was, a one sided energy exchange – has worn off. Admiration and adoration of others that you look up to is nice, but I noticed that I was hanging onto every word a few people were saying and believing it to be the absolute truth. It might be true for them, but not for me. So I pretty much had to snap out of it and unhook myself from people.
Just know that your thoughts and feelings about something or someone can change at any moment and that’s okay.
I’ve decided to stay in my lane and do whatever it is I’m good at. I’m still really trying to learn PHP, MySQL but mostly Javascript because I still suck major ballz. Not putting myself down, just being realistic; numbers with problem solving and equations aren’t my strong points but since I have to work with it a lot at work, I feel as if I really need to fucking learn it already. Wish me luck. As a Sagittarius though, I know that I tend to take on too many things to learn & achieve. I guess we’ll see.
Quick animated digital sketch gif by me, let’s call her Minty.
I’m writing this down before it slips away.
Some people get clear messages with absolute clarity that they should be doing something or not…
I don’t. Instead, my interests are led by it. I just realized this now, so I had to write it down immediately.
Like if I really like doing something, I’ll be into it. I’ll put lots of energy into learning it, investing time and money even.
For a while I really thought that becoming a Web Developer would be my path. But it’s clear now that it’s not. I tried applying myself a few times and it just would not gel. I look back now on the few times I’ve tried to apply for school and I kept being blocked by something inconvenient. I was forcing it.
Combining all the things I’m into now (art/design/marketing/magick) and really making it my own little thing, is where I feel like I’m truly thriving. I can actually feel my sense of purpose.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, trust yourself to make the right decisions. You are going the right way even though it might not seem like it, it might not even make sense at first.
I got into crystals & stones in 2012 not knowing that I would setup a crystal shop 5 years later, learn how to heal myself and in the process become a healer too.
I followed my interests and it led me to finding my true self and my true purpose. Life is trippy.
I was digging through old files when I stumbled upon this old drawing. My mom was Christian so after she passed away in 2006, my soul wanted to draw, paint and explore the dark stuff. I was fascinated by the occult, Satanism, Anton LaVey and the image of the devil.
I was also heavily influenced by tattoo imagery, so I borrowed the devil image from Sailor Jerry’s flash. I wanted to be a tattoo artist at some point, so I bought a tattoo machine – tattooed myself and a couple of people out of my home. I was a scratcher, I didn’t get very far :/
Anyways, I guess I’m just reminiscing.
The Devil (15) is still my friend. I look forward to seeing him and I actually laugh, wondering what kind of temptation will he present to me whenever he shows up via tarot, or will he play the devil’s advocate through a person I encounter that day? You never know and that’s why I like him. He breaks up the seriousness of the tarot with his presence.
