Edit 05/04/26 – I went out with friends yesterday and took a pic of the sky and palm trees. I wanted to add it to the plain background.Thoth deck and Sacred Symbols Oracle with a Carnelian heart.
In order to make magic happen, we HAVE to act. We can’t just sit around and wish for shit to happen. Today is a good day to be around friends, and to be truthful when something doesn’t feel right. As we age over time, lying to make yourself or others feel comfortable is more exhausting. It’s just better to be truthful and honest, even if the truth hurts. It’s better to be yourself. Yes it’s uncomfortable but not telling the truth becomes a burden on your mind, body, soul and spirit after a while.
Go forth and make magic with your friends. If you have no friends, then be a friend to yourself – especially the parts you don’t like. People in your life will come and go, but the only person you’re going to be with for the rest of your life is YOU. So learn to love yourself each and every day and ALL parts of you.
This image was created to go with the astro weather at the time [2021] – Saturn Retrograde, Lunar Eclipse, Mercury Retrograde, Solar FlareThe older I get the more I get to know Saturn, the ultimate Time Lord. Also known as Kronos.
The Saturnian period lasts from a person’s forty-second to their forty-ninth year and marks the end of their natural growth. By the time a person has completed their first half-century, they have thoroughly determined the type of human being they are going to be…
By now they should have achieved a measure of self-discipline and be of sound and mature judgement. However, if the previous stages have not been fulfilled, they will find themselves verging on depression and decline.
Being a Sagittarius Sun, I’m naturally optimistic. Please don’t mistake my personality for “positive vibes” though – I’ll roll my eyes at you.
But lately, I’ve just been…
– sad
– depressed
– bored
– isolated
– feeling stuck
– feeling way too serious
– more concerned about my health and how to preserve it
Yeah, seriously. I was thinking again to myself ‘fuck, am I having a midlife crisis right now’ because it’s about that time. Mid 40’s. And it could be because I’m having feelings of boredom and stuckness. But then again as a Sagittarius, I feel that way ALL the time.
VIII of Swords and IX of Swords type of vibe. I pulled those exact cards this week after not pulling cards for a while.
Saturn will discipline you and keep you restricted.
Saturn in Capricorn did this to me last year. It was trying to be my father and tell me I wasn’t shit. That everything I was doing was a waste of time. Like, where do these ancient, paternal/maternal ‘voices’ suddenly come from? Making you doubt yourself? Making you feel inadequate? Making you feel small and not-so-confident? That’s Saturn.
This year, of course Pisces energy amplifies it even more. All of this was going on in my head but it felt real. The output of emotions were real.
You’re not going crazy my dear, it’s all in your chart!
Having Neptune in the mix just makes everything more…nebulous. I feel dreamy but also lost and confused.
I hope this helps if you’re feeling heavy lately and not feeling fully like yourself. Look to the planets transiting your natal chart. It will give you some relief, but you’ll still feel crazy or attract it.
Many people don’t believe in astrology because it’s purely psychological; you can’t see it but you’ll definitely feel it.
The app I use is Time Passages.
p.s. for anyone who is wondering – I am okay, truly.❤️ I am pretty good at being able to see beyond myself and see a different perspective.
Edit: wanted to add some additional insights to this post. It’s true that while Saturn isn’t super fun, you can still benefit from Saturnian energy. For example, perhaps maybe you do need discipline – whether you’re trying to eat more healthy or change a habit (which in my case, yes) or you need to be restricted for a bit (which is also a yes for me because I’ve been spending money left & right).
Conclusion: you can still find opportunity or something good in a planet that’s not exactly known for being good-natured.
I am and have been living in the eternal now moment more these days. Life has been feeling more and more timeless the more I let go of certain concepts, like birthdays.
Like today is supposed to be my “40th” birthday but what does that really mean? It’s a construct, created by humans to measure time.
Anyways, before I ramble on about esoteric things – the whole purpose of this blog post was to post my first Celtic Cross reading I did for myself today. For the longest time, I feel as if I have been intimidated by this spread and was actually looking for someone to read my cards for me; but through the process of searching for someone I realized that I ‘could’ just read for myself (even though I still need help from a book). To anyone who is reading this, I’m not a professional tarot reader at all – I just read for myself.
So here is a photo of my reading using my favorite deck the HK Tarot with the card and card position meanings:
Position 1 / Heart of the Matter: IV of Pentacles
Position 2 / Opposing Factor: I The Magician
Position 3 / Root Cause or Unconscious Influence: XV The Devil
Position 4 / The Past: Page of Cups
Position 5 / Attitudes and Beliefs or Conscious Influence: IV The Emperor
Position 6 / Future or Approaching Influence: Ace of Wands
Position 7 / You as Your Present Self: II of Pentacles
Position 8 / You as Others See You: IX The Hermit
Position 9 / Guidance: III of Pentacles
Position 10 / Outcome: X of Pentacles
I’ve definitely been focused on business stuff lately so of course it makes total sense that a lot of pentacles are present in my reading. I’ve had money on my mind a lot – how to make it, how to keep it, how to make more of it in a way that’s enjoyable to me. The devil is ever present, reminding me of my strong attachments to material wealth (money).
I used Joan Bunning’s Learning The Tarot book as my guide; it was one of the first tarot books I got for myself and seems to be the book I still go back to often.
Do you have a tarot book that you really like? I’d love to know what books you read.
