bookmark_borderTarot Card Pulls for 11/2/26 – 11/7/26

First set of tarot pulls with the HK Tarot Deck:

Monday: 10 of Swords again – I pulled this card last Monday so it must be important. Endings which lead to new beginnings, again and again.

Tuesday: 6 The Lovers – Irl, true love means you stick it out with someone through the good times and especially the bad. You learn to love and appreciate them through time and commitment. There is also an unbroken trust that is built over time. It cannot be destroyed.

Wednesday: 14 Temperance – over time, you will learn to balance it all out; what you need, what other people need from you, what life demands you become, etc.

Thursday: 8 of Pentacles – continue to get better at whatever you’re doing; quietly building the skills you need to adapt in this economy.

Friday: 7 of Pentacles – some things take time to grow, like long term investments. Have patience or learn to develop it. If anything, as long as you’re putting money and actually buying stocks regularly, best to forget about it. For me it’s “I am a tree who’s growing $1,888,888 or more, now or in retirement”

Saturday: 10 of Wands – You’re doing too much creatively and it’s time to let go of the ideas you’re not really into all that much. Rest up because you’ll start it up again.

11:11 am // 4:44pm

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Second set of tarot pulls with the Tarot of the Cat People

Monday: 4 of Wands – it’s nice to have a creative and stable job. Could also mean your finances / resources are in a good place right now. Find something to be grateful for.

Tuesday: 1 The Magician – what will the magician do next? You have everything you need to succeed, trust in your magical power.

Wednesday: 15 The Devil – I feel far away from the devil at the moment. But he always wants to remind me that he’s there if I ever want to indulge.

Thursday: Page of Swords – you’re learning to sharpen your mind. Or perhaps you’ll encounter someone young with a sharp wit.

Friday: 18 The Star – something ethereal to look forward to.

Saturday: 2 of Cups – meeting someone who is a mirror of you.

I’ll be back to edit these interpretations more as I move along the week.

bookmark_borderThe Devil XV – HK Tarot & Occult Tarot

10/15/2026: Thursday = Jupiter day never lets me down. Today is the 15th – the number of the Devil card in Tarot. 15 = 1+5 = 6, my lifepath number. 6 is The Lovers card in Tarot. You can be bonded to someone in secret and also have true love, my twisted version of balance? Sun in Libra, moon in Sagittarius = balanced relationships & secret adventures. Money & resources flows to me repeatedly and unexpectedly. VI of Pentacles in Tarot = we give and we take.

Kinda random but I learned a new word today from BDSM advice subreddit:

limerence 

The complete and final devotion of your actual being to one single person other than yourself in a romantic fashion. Limerence creates a spiritual image with almost divine traits of the person you love that may have nothing to do with their actually existing person. It is a state of mind, fully captivating the heart, soul and spirit, that might last until the end of your life. All your actions, every step you take shall be done for that person you love only. In every hour, on every day you will think of only him or her. The other person’s rejection of you will also be your downfall.

Oswald: I declare myself to be limerent over Victoria. And as such I declare myself to be completely devoted to her, and every moment of my life shall be dedicated to her.
Winston: Nah, limerence sucks, go fuck some whores bruh tbh

Tuesday 2/10/2026 // Edit: I wanted to add a photo of HK Baphomet and Baphomet from the Occult Tarot deck. Side by side, they look aesthetically pleasing to me.


Feb 3, 2026: I love this particular card – it represents my style – kawaii occult graphics. Also, purple and orange just go together really well. Again this unique HK tarot deck was a limited edition purchase from Etsy years ago so don’t ask where I got it from. But hey, there might be something similar?

I’m sure people who read my blog – including family members – will assume I’m a devil worshipper or satanist just because I’m into occult shit. What most people don’t really know is that the devil isn’t an actual creature – it’s a composite symbol. It represents the material plane – worldy success, addiction, obsession, people, situations or things that ‘bind’ us to them in a negative way (bondage). It’s really just an invisible force that gets projected onto people and things; for example – women, booze, drugs, sex, white people, etc.

Like when people are trying to tempt us, or even something playful as an invite to something fun, daring, or out of the norm – we usually say ‘you’re being the devil right now’.

The Devil is also associated with Capricorn and the number 15.

bookmark_borderThe Spiritual Community Has Me Feeling Jaded

These last few months has left me feeling jaded about the spiritual community. From spiritual bypassing to fake Instagram gurus, to false spiritual “influencers”…

I know it’s nothing really new but on top of a pandemic / economic depression / apocalyptic times maybe that’s why I’m not as vested in Crystal Healer LA as much as I was before. My relationship with Reiki has also changed as I’m learning to decolonize my spiritual practice, which is complex. I still love crystals though and believe 100% in their healing abilities, I just don’t know where I belong in all of this.

Perhaps that’s why I respect and admire the Devil so much; even though he/she/it is a made up figure it still represents a powerful, opposing force. Last night as I was going to sleep, I pulled the Devil tarot (the third card of 3) from the Labyrinthos app.

At least the Devil, who is a symbol of our shadow / aspect of our true and unconscious desires – won’t lie to us. Of course we will spend half our lives denying it, but if you look at your life thus far – your unconscious was really running the show all along. Please read Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliott.

Here’s an old drawing that I did, scanned and altered in Photoshop. At the time of this drawing, I wanted to be a tattoo artist so I was heavily influenced by Sailor Jerry’s flash. You can see that i borrowed the demon head from him.

Hail Satan.

bookmark_borderAm I a Tomboy Feminist Marketer??

via GIPHY

I noticed recently that I’m not really into super feminine pages on Instagram – pages that look soft, pretty and overtly feminine. Super curated and absolutely perfect. They’re great, just not for me.

Look, I’m a woman and I’m definitely soft. And I’m also straight. But I’m not super feminine and girly at all, but I really like hot pink and pretty things. Even the word ‘tomboy’ is not a fit to describe me, as looking at the definition of a tomboy – I don’t even like nor participate in sports. Who the fuck came up with these definitions anyway?

So what’s this really about then? I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m not a super feminine person; I don’t follow all the witches who worship goddesses as well as the moon. It’s sort of becoming a cliché, don’t you think? Even witchcraft is becoming a look and everyone is doing the same exact thing…

I’m down for all that stuff just not too much of it, you know?

Speaking of doing the same exact things, I’ve been following a marketing guy on Instagram who is abrasive and hard to like, but he is interesting af to me because he’s one of the very few marketing people out there who dare to be different, saying some real shit; and trust me when I say that I’ve come across a few marketing people already and have subscribed to their emails & bought their e-books. A lot of the stuff they teach is mostly the same bullshit, just packaged different.

I basically saw an ad of his – Ryan Orrico – and started following him. And trust me, I’m very hard to convince, I reject a lot of ads on IG; a lot of them are pretty bland and cookie cutter. As a matter of fact, Ryan “inspired” me (I put this in quotes because I know to him, the word ‘inspiration’ is a loaded term and he talks in depth about this in his emails) to start doing these random talking videos on my crystal shop’s Instagram page – where I talk unedited about whatever it is I want to talk about. This is actually working for me. How is it working? Let’s just say that by looking at my analytics, the talking videos are what people watch the most.

Now am I getting more sales? Not necessarily but really the whole point of these is to put yourself out there, imperfect & unedited…especially when you feel anxious and nervous about doing it, do it anyway. Because the truth is, you will never get it done if you are expecting perfection – literally spending hours editing the fuck out of a video to make it perfect or making sure your face is as beautiful and as flawless as it can be. Fuck that. This is what got me fired up to start doing these videos. Ryan literally destroys yoga people on Instagram who have these ultra cliché photos of themselves doing yoga in the jungle and basically making the rest of us feel like shit because we can’t live up to that.

I feel like the perfection part is what’s been keeping me from actually doing YouTube videos – I’ve only been talking about it. Now that I’m practicing doing these random talking videos on my IG page with a small amount of followers, I can feel more confident in doing it for a larger audience down the road.

So Ryan aka Yoga Sex Rock God if you happen to see this – thank YOU!

Anyways, what I’m trying to say about marketing and why I follow this guy is this: you have to stand out somehow. Marketing is all about getting noticed, it is NOT the same as advertising. Advertising just gives the information needed to make a purchase. It took me a while to understand this. Most people see marketing & advertising as one and the same because they can be used in that way.

Marketing is getting people to react to you or whatever it is you’re offering, whether it’s perceived as a good or a bad reaction. The fact that they even reacted means that it’s working, right? They gave you their attention. It’s works the same exact way when someone hates you – they hate you but they CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU. They check your Instagram page daily, they constantly need to see what you’re up to.

This is what I’m learning right now from Ryan. New ideas and concepts cannot be created if we don’t challenge the status quo. The greatest minds of history were not liked at first, they were hated because their thoughts and ideas were different.

By the way, The Devil tarot card appeared this week yet again. I now recognize him as the antagonist, the angel who challenges God.

bookmark_borderDrawing: Save the Savages

Wed 10/28/26 – Scorpio season has me in a more negative, brooding mood…I don’t like it. I want to be delulu for once but those days are over…10 of Swords vibe. Having so much knowledge can become a burden.

+ On some more exciting thoughts (at least to me) – the real flex in Astrology is synastry – how your birthchart interacts with someone else’s birthchart. It’s really fascinating to me how a person can influence someone else and vice versa.

+ Oh and just a friendly reminder, if you’re not being authentic with me – mind, body, soul – I have no problem blocking you over and over again. You think you’re clever, but you’re not. You want to take and take but can only give a false image of yourself. You’re not going to get what you want from me or anyone you want to get close to if you’re not being authentic. Just saying.

Like, how can you expect people to be real with you if you can’t be real with them; it goes both ways, remember? You’re the one who told me that.

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Sun 10/25/26 – A lesson is repeated until it is learned. I guess I haven’t learned my lesson and fell for it again. That’s why The Devil tarot card keeps showing up, isn’t it? Venus in Scorpio retrograde. It felt good in that moment, but afterwards…you felt used yet again didn’t you…and they still wanted more. The person kept on demanding for more, but couldn’t give anything in return as usual (Saturn in Cancer in the 8th house – they won’t show me their body or voice even though I gave them so many videos of myself) – just their Plutonic power of “take as much as I can get out of her and control”. Sigh, I really am the stupid one.

I want to tell myself never again but every time I say that, The Wheel of Fortune spins me right back into the karmic wheel.

I know I’m just a kink dispenser to this person and nothing more. I want to get away from them as far as possible, but they’re everywhere online now. Always watching me. I can’t escape. And I know they’re going to read this. And I know they’re going to contact me again in one form or another.

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Tue 9/29/26 – Today I allowed myself to enjoy my most secret pleasure. Even now as I type this I feel completely detached, elated and content that my latest interaction with this person felt so intense yet so balanced – I gave to him and he gave to me. It feels like our mutual attraction to each other got elevated; I got mindfucked with physical results, it was really amazing.

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Sun 9/27/26 – Disclaimer: this may or may not be true but for me it is. They say that in a karmic connection in astrology, there is a deeper reason why a person continues to chase someone beyond just attraction & connection. Perhaps a debt is owed to that person in a past life, where someone died before they could be together. And so that person who died finds that person that they loved in this current life and now has an unexplainable need to have closure with that person they never got to be with. The closest movie that kind of shows this is Bram Stoker’s Dracula – right on time for Venus in Scorpio retrograde; it’s quite erotic.

The debt is paid on my part, it took 3 plus years to pay it off. In case you’re wondering if you owe me anything, you don’t. We are both free now, so let me go and live your life ok? I’ll always love you weirdo but the astrology says we can never be together.

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8/22/26 – When a person you care about consistently disappoints you, eventually you lose your attraction to them. This time, I really hope it’s for good. Thank you for showing me again your true self – the person who only uses people to get what they want then turns around and insults them. I wish you well in life, I really do. Just get your toxic, lame, ugly energy far, far away from me.

A person who tricks you into taking them back to extract the sexual energy that made them feel good then turns around and insults you is an addict and a demon. They don’t love you, they just want to use you. Protect yourself from these energy vampires.

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July 8, 2015
Drawing from 2013.