My 49 year spiritual journey on earth has been made up of conspiracy theories, pop culture entertainment and watching movies. A little bit of everything. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Movies to watch:
Donnie Darko
Stargate
They Live
Transcendence
Once you level up in your spiritual practice, you’ll come up with your own prayer. This one is Reiki based. I like this one the most because it includes levels of Self – the lower, middle, and higher self as well as the past, present, future, and parallel Self. Remember, you are the universe experiencing Itself. You are an Energy that never dies, which is why I highly believe in reincarnation. You are the human avatar through which the Universe gets to live and experience many, many lives.
I think this invocation covers all beings – living and non-living. Feel free to use it for yourself and add other beings that you personally pray to.
Monday 11/2/2026:
Another thing I’ve learned about those with Saturn in Cancer placements – since Saturn is about boundaries and restrictions and Cancer is a water sign who is nurturing and protective – I noticed these people have difficult time sharing their body with others. The person I am thinking about has only shown their face and and sexual organs (lol) but never their full face and body. Of course it’s in the 8th house of sex.
Career wise: they make good managers of other people’s money (8th house, finance management) and can grow their wealth for the long term.
June 26, 2026:
I’ve learned that those with Saturn in Cancer [8th house, of course] seem to struggle with giving themselves over to someone emotionally, like they don’t fully trust the person even in intimacy. There’s a blockage in the expression of feelings even though the person wants to be close to someone. They are likely to have fears around the issue of emotional closeness and sexuality, and being able to give of themselves; so much that they’ll probably suffer from thwarted desire and self-sabotage. And by self-sabotage – they’ll likely to say cruel and mean things to the person that they like to push them away, even though they still want them (I experienced this first hand a few years ago).
How to heal with this placement? It’s going to take a long time but loving and accepting yourself is a start, as well as building up confidence in yourself. Also, work on learning to trust and be vulnerable with the other person who actually thinks you’re fucking amazing. Otherwise, they’ll just give up one day and leave.
Unfortunately, people with this placement won’t appreciate the person that truly liked them for who they are until they’re gone. It truly is a lonely existence.
I didn’t know what image to add to this post so here’s a meme:
Someone asked me once before why I liked rap or hiphop music. Or why do I want to be black or something like that. At the time, I didn’t know how to answer that as I was still so young. All I knew was that black people just always seemed cooler. Some of my friends from my first tagging crew were black. They’re just funny and talented as fuck and I could relate to them more. They introduced me to new music and some really cool anime, and they made dope art.
Well I look back on those times and now that I’m older and know about the history of black people in the United States of America, I can say that without black people – particularly Martin Luther King Jr., Malcolm X, the Black Panthers and other folks who fought for our civil rights today – people of color like me wouldn’t be able to exist here.
I was organizing and deleting stuff off my iCloud and uploading them to Flickr when I came across this photo from June 2020, around the time when the BLM movement was gaining traction, around the time when George Floyd and Breonna Taylor died at the hands of police/law enforcement. I think there was also some Asian hate going on in the Bay Area. Around the time when I was interested in Andrew Yang too.
Life gets heavier as one gets older, there is a lot to learn and unlearn at the same time and there is only so much information one can consume and understand. Be patient with yourself.
When you’re ascending into 5D consciousness, but your ego has a fat ass:
Unpopular opinion but I really don’t think ego really goes away until we leave our human bodies.
This is an old photo of cards I pulled for Friday, May 6th…it may have been from 2022. Yet while searching for something else today (Wednesday May 6th 2026), this photo somehow came up. Time is wild, I can’t stress this enough. I’ll be back to add the message I’m getting from these cards 4 years later.
You have the power to become anything you want. Set your expectations for yourself, and know that you will become whatever you think about.
I read from one of my many tarot books that instead of looking at the cards, step inside the scene itself. What is going on inside each card?
Card 1: X of Wands – the doggie is carrying too many wands = you’re doing too much and overwhelming yourself.
Card 2: IV of Cups – are you meditating or procrastinating? Maybe you’re avoiding something or someone.
Card 3: VIII of Wands – no people just wands moving fast in the air. Perhaps you’ll need to act or create something fast or a creative opportunity is coming your way (sometimes they say within 8 days).
Card 4: V of Cups – the figure is upset because there are 3 cups that spilled, even though there are 2 still left standing. Disappointment, grief, not seeing the positive side.
Card 1: Power – you have power available to you at all times. What kind of power would you like; is it self serving or does it help others?
Card 2: Talisman – stones, crystals, keys, rings, necklaces or any object that has magical powers can be useful in enhancing the energy of your magical requests and manifestations.
Card 3: Focus – focus on what you want. But make sure it’s in service to your highest and best good.
By the way, when I ask questions during readings for myself – believe it or not, I am not there to judge (this takes A LOT of practice btw). The tarot and oracle cards help us to “see” and “hear” different aspects of ourselves. A lot of the times it can be contradictory but if you learn that everything in life is contradictory, you’ll eventually learn to make sense out of the cards.
This is one of those visually stunning, surreal, trippy, abstract, spiritual movies that you don’t really understand what it’s about until you watch it time and time again as you get older. I watched this movie way before I started learning tarot, before I started working with crystals and stones, before I became witchy, occult-y and metaphysical.
The movie is called The Holy Mountain by Alejandro Jodorowsky
The tarot will teach you how to create a soul.
Each stone has a soul, formed by the work of millions of years.
In order to make magic happen, we HAVE to act. We can’t just sit around and wish for shit to happen. Today is a good day to be around friends, and to be truthful when something doesn’t feel right. As we age over time, lying to make yourself or others feel comfortable is more exhausting. It’s just better to be truthful and honest, even if the truth hurts. It’s better to be yourself. Yes it’s uncomfortable but not telling the truth becomes a burden on your mind, body, soul and spirit after a while.
Lots of wands action today; wands = fire, creativity, passion, action.
Go forth and make magic with your friends. If you have no friends, then be a friend to yourself – especially the parts you don’t like. People in your life will come and go, but the only person you’re going to be with for the rest of your life is YOU. So learn to love yourself each and every day and ALL parts of you.
I really love how these custom tarot cards came out.
Found on Twitter X. I will never stop calling it Twitter. Which phrase draws you in? Mine is ‘blessed be’.
