note to self

Revisiting Chiron in Taurus

Posted on August 5, 2026 by savethesavages

Well since the current transit is in Chiron in Taurus, the universe decided to remind me of my fears around material possessions, particularly around money. If you’ve read this old post, then you know I personally have Chiron in Taurus in the 3rd house and so I’m feeling the effects of this transit. It also doesn’t help that money has been a lot tighter lately because war and inflation. Sigh.

While I was writing out a check, I stumbled upon a letter writing out my fears around having a lot of money. I believe I cashed out a Universal Life Insurance policy and an old 401k (of course I had to pay taxes on it) but at the time, I needed that money to pay the credit card debt ($13k) I had accumulated for the crystal shop. And so, here is the letter I wrote. Of course I had to decorate it with Baphomet stickers that ChatGPT generated for me a while ago.

7/25/26 – Notes on Astrology

Posted on July 25, 2026August 28, 2026 by savethesavages

Friday 8/28/26:

I don’t know why women are doing this trend where they put their faces in a reel and add astro placements but this one caught my eye simply because again – 2 of those placements I have with someone. 1 placement I have with my husband. Both are quite intimate.

Saturday 8/8/26:

How I feel about the second arrow situationship: skullfucked because no matter what or how long, I can’t get them out of my mind. So it’s almost like we’re married. Fuck.

So the first arrow is me and my husband, I am the Mars in Leo person. The second arrow has been an ongoing online situationship where we are both Sagittarius suns but the other has Moon in Gemini. That’s fuckin trippy and I don’t know what to do about it.

Saturday 7/25/26:

saw this on Twitter from @eroticacid and it blew my mind: marriage is the 7th house, but MARRIAGE marriage is the 12th house.

What in the actual fuck. So if my Venus is in someone’s 12th house, does that mean I’m secretly married to them, subconsciously/unconsciously?

So I asked Google: what does having Venus in someone’s 12th house indicate?

Having Venus in the 12th house indicates a deeply private, romantic, and spiritual approach to love, featuring hidden feelings, a need for solitude, and karmic connections. The 12th house rules the subconscious, the unseen, and isolation, while Venus rules love, beauty, and value.

Love and Relationships

Secret or unrequited love: Feelings may be kept hidden, unexpressed, or tangled in secret, long-distance, or complicated situations.

Karmic bonds: Strong attraction to past-life connections or people from very different cultural backgrounds.

Idealistic heart: A tendency to dream of a perfect, unconditional love that can lead to disappointment when faced with everyday reality.

Found: 10 Signs You’re Doing Well In Life

Posted on June 28, 2026June 28, 2026 by savethesavages

And the wheel keeps on turning…

Drawing: Do Not Worry // Apr 19, 2026

Posted on April 19, 2026April 27, 2026 by savethesavages

The Magickal Bunny – who only comes out once in a while these days says:

Just for today, do not worry.

Just for today, count your blessings.

You are a magickal and infinite being, here to learn in this place called Earth. Some call it Earth School.

The learning never stops – you will constantly grow, evolve, living and dying simultaneously.

Enjoy the process, magician.

Blessed be.

I could list ALL the things I’m worried about, but I choose not to. As long as I am alive – breathing, seeing, hearing, talking, feeling without any physical pain in this moment – and I can still pay my bills and provide for my cats then I am okay. If you are reading this, you are probably okay too.

WTF Are You Supposed to Do For the Rest of Your Life?

Posted on April 9, 2026August 3, 2026 by savethesavages

We don’t know, do we? All we have to do is to just keep on going…

Who are you supposed to follow for guidance when everyone else is lost or in their own headspace most of the time?
The answer is: you follow yourself – the quiet, inner voice that tells you ‘hey I really like doing this’ or ‘let’s do this for right now and see where it goes. And then when we get bored, we’ll just move on to something else’.

You follow your interests, and build skills around it and see if that’s what you can do for a living.

If you’re not really sure, maybe you can take an aptitude test.

Besides the physical drives of needing food, water, shelter and sleep to live (and of course, sex)…what else do you think about the most? That is what you should probably be doing.

I mean sure, you can read Reddit all day long and read about other people’s experiences…
but you still gotta figure out your own life and create your own experiences.

You have to follow your inner compass. Your inner compass won’t steer you in the wrong direction and if it did, then perhaps there was something you needed to learn from that experience.

You’re going to fail and make mistakes over and over again. That’s part of life that is simply unavoidable. From that you’ll gain knowledge, wisdom and a better understanding of your process and getting to know who you really are.

Keep on learning and making stuff, be patient with yourself and it will all come together eventually.

There is a version of you waiting patiently to evolve, get to know yourself.

Even at 48 – though it may seem I have accomplished a lot, like…been there done that…I still haven’t met my full potential and I still don’t know everything. And I think it will be that way until it’s time to leave our human bodies.

KISS = Keep It Simple, Stupid

Posted on January 17, 2024March 30, 2026 by savethesavages

My previous boss (RIP) would often say this. And I think about it whenever my thoughts spiral out of control.

The irony is that my old boss would start to complicate things, then we’re made to follow his madness. Everyone contradicts themselves.

The font is Laser, an 80’s style font.

It’s So Easy to Slip Back…

Posted on March 14, 2018June 23, 2026 by savethesavages

Into an old habit, an old way of thinking…

I am totally aware of this. Right now I’m feeling an old habit creeping up on me, the feeling of boredom. I don’t want to be bored, yet I am. Perhaps the gloomy weather is causing me to feel this way, perhaps it’s my job.

Regardless I am thankful for my job, I am thankful for my life. I’m thankful that I was able to manifest an online business selling crystals; I don’t even know how it happened – being a seller was never really on my radar but marketing and building websites were, so there. It helps that I really like crystals too.

But I get bored still from time to time…I think everybody does.

You don’t have to fight it, but you can’t let it take over completely. So I am writing this to my future self as a reminder:

+ If you get bored, remember to just simply change it up! Do something a different way or make it a point to learn something new every day.

+ Read, read, read. Doodle, scribble, draw. Write with a pen, handwriting is still important.

+ Snap out of it, snap out of feeling sorry for yourself. Other people are really suffering and here you are complaining about being bored. SMH. Exercise, go outside, take a walk, breathe and be in gratitude for fuck sake. You really have a lot to be thankful for.

I am all too aware that I am also creeping my way into getting old, I can see the subtleties on my face. I’m caring less and less about a lot of things but I also don’t want to be forgetful. And I don’t want to be helpless. That’s why they say reading, writing and problem solving or playing memory games is important.

I’ve also been thinking about my finances a lot more, like 401ks and life insurance. I don’t have children so that made it a little easier, but I still have to think about retirement and my loved ones. Had I payed closer attention to this stuff when I was younger, I would be all set for retirement! I would be rich by this world’s standards. But if I DID amass that huge amount, then Uncle Sam would be taxing me for it, wouldn’t he? He sure would! So really, which choice is better; and are you really rich if all that you saved up for goes to paying down debt?

Whatever choice I picked is fine for me, I am successful either way. No matter what choice we make in life, Spirit will always look out for your best interest. You can always look back on your life and see how everything actually worked out for you.

I wanted to draw something for this post but I got stuck. So here’s an old drawing that I decided would look better in hot pink and as an animated gif.

I haven’t been feeling super creative and so I wrote this blog post over at my crystal shop’s website: How to Break Through a Creative Block with Crystals

Some Personal Observations – 09/16/17

Posted on September 16, 2017April 15, 2026 by savethesavages

So if you’ve been following my adventures in selling crystals and having a small business this year 2017, you’re probably aware that I actually have been making some sales both from my ecommerce website and Etsy.

What a big surprise that is to me because honestly, I have never been able to do that with my own artwork. And trust me, I HAVE tried many times!

Is it because my ego is not involved this time around? I’ve been wondering about this a whole lot.

Is it because I’m selling crystals for the greater good, to help people in some small way? I think so and I hope so.

In the past I have tried to sell my artwork so many times it seems – people liked it but nobody ever wanted to buy; the only time my artwork actually sold was in an art gallery or at an art auction. Or through friends.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful. I guess what I’m trying to get at is – wanting your art to be sold can often be backed by ego. And for me personally, it seems to be true.

I’m just speaking from personal experience, I’m not talking about anyone else.

But if you think about it – art tends to do that, doesn’t it? Build up someone’s ego. Because people are constantly telling you your is art great blah blah blah…

Then you start to feel disappointed when people aren’t buying your art. And it all comes crashing down, a dose of reality sinks in.

I had expectations of how it should be, and so I suffered. How did my suffering manifest itself? Through having a negative attitude, being hateful and resentful. Stressful work environment and bitching about it on this blog (some of you probably remember that), not being kind to myself, talking shit about others and eating bad food. The list goes on and on.

So anyways, I just wanted to write this down before I forget. I never saw myself as someone who would be selling crystals, let alone start a small business. But I believe the universe saw that I was suffering from myself and set me free. Little by little, through working on myself with the help of crystals, tarot, books and meditation – I started to become a different person.