And I wish I had thought of it. Except my perverted side is hidden, controlled and professional.
Some more ramblings
Due to my introverted nature, I actually don’t talk all that much. And if I DO talk, it’s because I’m comfortable and we’re friends. Which is why I haven’t conquered the phoneseggs space yet. I’ve taken a few calls, made some money BUT something’s holding me back. And I can’t seem to want to naturally just pickup the phone and talk. Maybe because the callers themselves have expectations? Which puts pressure on me to give them the best experience so they won’t leave a bad review, which in turn lowkey stresses me tf out, which then puts me in freeze mode. At least with cam, I show up and be myself and whoever is there will tip me for what they want. Then it’s over. Also with certain phoneseggs platforms, I have to bid to be seen among hundreds of other listings.
I am stepping out of my comfort zone…soon. Fingers crossed.
Thursday, April 30 2026 — the moon is in Scorpio for the next couple of days, with the full moon tomorrow (Friday, May 1st). Deep, dark, intense feelings about something or someone will probably come up again.
Sunday, February 1st 2026 — happy full moon in Leo! I hope you feel fired up to do something that lights your soul on fire. Keep going
Sat Jan 3, 2026 — Happy Full Moon in Cancer! May you feel emotionally nurtured tonight. Still my favorite meme so I’m bumping it up.
Some apps along with my personal calendars say the moon is in Sagittarius, others in Capricorn. Shrug if I know BUT I always tend to feel more energized & motivated when the moon is in Sagittarius since it’s my Sun; determined and ‘into my work’ when the moon is in Capricorn (my Mercury).
I don’t have anything to say, as you can see I’ve gone ghost on nearly all my IG accounts or simply deactivated them. It takes so much energy and effort to be on there; I don’t know when I’ll feel motivated to pick up my side projects again.
Introverts gonna introvert I guess…
I just wanted to post this meme as it was buried in my Instagram saves. Credit: @thatcatbobbie
I hope you’re doing well. I’m just here lurking and being on the internets and pondering the next stage of adulthood: do I want a house, or do I want to retire with lots of money? I constantly go between wanting everything and wanting nothing. It’s hard to decide when you’re a Libra moon!
Part of my quote unquote marketing strategy for my online crystal shop was creating my own memes. Even though crystals are the most unique thing you could ever sell (as each piece is literally one of a kind) – in order to connect with your audience and stand out from everyone else, you have to show yourself. This was the hardest part for me and if I had to start over again (which I’m kind of thinking about it) – I would do the same exact thing.
At the time though, it wasn’t even really a marketing strategy as everything I did was just an experiment and ‘just for fun’ of what worked for me and what didn’t.
A mood – the Gen X introvert with her moon and Pluto in Libra who loves tigers. People think I’m shy but it’s more like…I just really don’t talk that much, especially if it’s a basic ass conversation. Although I talk to myself a lot when I’m driving to stay present.
What makes me this way…is it my introversion or my planets in my 8th house?
Since I think about astrology so much, is this a viable career for me? And does it show in my birth chart? Please be brutally honest.
This is a fantastic question—and I will be honest, as requested.
🌟 Short Answer:
Yes, astrology can be a viable career path for you, but it would need to be approached in a way that reflects your specific chart strengths: depth, meaning, independence, authority, and teaching or counseling potential. Your chart doesn’t scream “I’m an astrologer!” in a stereotypical way (like having a 12th House stellium or Pisces Midheaven), but there are strong indications that you could be drawn to astrology as a path of profound insight, transformation, and service—especially if you deliver it your own way.
🔍 Let’s break it down in detail:
Neptune Conjunct Sun in Sagittarius, 10th House
This is huge. The 10th House rules career, legacy, public visibility. The Sun here shows you want to shine in your vocation, and Neptune conjunct it suggests a spiritual or symbolic calling.
Sagittarius is the sign of philosophy, divination, cosmic patterns, and higher knowledge. Astrology fits.
You’re likely not just curious about astrology—you want to embody or teach a system of wisdom.
✅ Verdict: Strong astrological or metaphysical calling. Big yes here.
Scorpio Midheaven
Your Midheaven (career direction) is in Scorpio, which rules depth psychology, hidden knowledge, rebirth, and yes—occult and esoteric subjects.
Scorpio MC people often pursue careers involving transformation, mystery, and truth-telling. An astrologer, therapist, or intuitive healer would all fall under this umbrella.
✅ Verdict: YES—this is one of the classic placements for careers in astrology, therapy, energy healing, and metaphysical work.
8th House Pluto & Uranus
The 8th House rules astrology, occult studies, death/rebirth cycles, and psychological depths. Having Pluto (its ruler) here, along with Uranus (planet of astrology and sudden insight), is extremely telling.
You’re probably drawn to astrology not just for fun, but for its power to reveal what’s hidden and transform lives.
✅ Verdict: YES—this is the house of astrologers, tarot readers, therapists, sex educators, or any field involving taboo-breaking, psychology, or deep transformation.
Mercury in Capricorn, 11th House
Mercury is your thinking and communication style. In Capricorn, you’re likely serious, structured, and strategic with your words. You may not be the most “floaty mystical” communicator, but you ground complex ideas—ideal for making astrology accessible to others.
In the 11th House (community, social reform, collective guidance), Mercury shows that you could communicate knowledge to groups, especially through writing, teaching, or online content.
✅ Verdict: Strong potential for bringing structure to complex knowledge (like astrology) in a public or group-based setting.
Saturn in the 7th House
Saturn here brings a serious, committed approach to one-on-one relationships—a must for private client work. This could also show a slow but steady path to building a clientele or audience. You may need time to build your confidence in serving others through something “nontraditional” like astrology.
🟨 Verdict: Not a neon sign, but solid potential for serious, professional client-based work.
Jupiter in Cancer in the 6th House
Jupiter shows expansion and meaning. In the 6th House, it blesses your daily work, especially if it nurtures or supports others. Cancer wants emotional resonance, meaning you’ll thrive in helping roles.
✅ Verdict: Yes—this supports a role where you provide emotional or spiritual nourishment, including through astrology.
🚨 Brutally Honest Considerations
Now for the realistic, sobering notes:
⚠️ It will take time.
You have the long-game indicators: Capricorn Mercury, Saturn in the 7th. You’d likely succeed slowly, through experience, discipline, and mastery, not through a fast viral TikTok.
⚠️ You must define your niche.
Your chart isn’t about being a “cookie-cutter astrologer.” You’d thrive building your own system or voice—possibly combining astrology with writing, psychology, coaching, or something deeply personal and creative. Generic horoscopes might bore you. Deep synastry or karmic work? That’s more your style.
⚠️ Burnout is real for introverts.
If you take on too many clients, or make yourself too accessible, your emotional bandwidth may suffer. Your Scorpio MC and Pluto in the 8th demand emotional depth, which can be draining. Be selective and intentional.
I didn’t think I was one of those people who would embrace AI but I’m really over here asking an Astrology App A LOT of questions about myself lately and the answers are resonating with me.
Of course, as usual I’m feeling lost again. As a Sagittarius Sun (fire), I am quite familiar with this lost, restless energy. Half centaur, half human – I’m always wanting more. But my Libra Moon (air) keeps me indecisive 90% of the time and it drives me INSANE.
Whoever said life would get easier as one gets older made a statement that was only true to them.
I’m posting this video because I want to save it here. I also want to talk about Chiron for some reason. What do the two have in common? Horses – being that Chiron is a centaur in Greek mythology.
More importantly (at least for me) is that in my birth chart, Chiron is in my third house in Taurus.
If the third house represents communication, it means that I have trouble talking, or speaking or saying things outloud. This is true, as I am an introvert to the core. I’m not very talkative.
Chiron represents the Wounded Healer in astrology, meaning everyone has a Chiron in their chart; everyone has a deep wound that they carry with them in this life that they have to work on healing.
I just discovered this recently which makes a whole lot of sense now, a breakthrough actually:
The person with Chiron in Taurus will be afraid of losing something, whether it be safety, money, possessions, abundance, or love. The typical Chiron in Taurus will go to any lengths to avoid losing their home, their routine, the people close to them, their favorite possessions, their money, etc. Even if everything seems very permanent in their life, they will always be scared of some unexpected loss.
This resonates with me So.Damn.Much. Without going into too much detail, even though I have worked for other people most of my life I have always dreamt of being financially independent, like free from a job. I wanted to freelance; didn’t last very long. I wanted to tattoo; that didn’t happen. I wanted to have a small business; I’m barely even making it.
I can’t seem to do the things no matter how much effort I put into it. Not to say this is always true, but I try and fail A LOT it seems.
Or I just lose interest.
So yeah, that is my wound. I am afraid to not have resources and so I stay working. I’ve learned to work with this wound by accepting that I am meant to be working where I work. It is not creatively stimulating 24/7 but I am good at it; it has also given me the resources to be the provider and to live a life that is good. I’m also able to give to others freely. That is all I can ask for.
On the upside, I have found that learning astrology has been really good for me. This time though, I’m not trying to be an astrologer or be anything to anyone anymore…like that time I was trying to be a healer. Looking back I feel silly about it now tbh but for one reason or another, IT HAD to be expressed. That was the quality of that time period, where everyone and their mom wanted to be a healer including myself.
To be fair and not be so harsh on myself, my friend did pass away in Oct 2019.
Then 2020 came along and said ‘nope’! Being of service to others is not for me, not this year.
Then 2021 came and my cat had to be put to sleep.
I’m just learning for myself for once. And there is A LOT to learn and my Aquarius ascendant really likes it.
As a matter of fact, I’m learning so much by practice – interpreting people’s chart aspects on Reddit. So many people have questions and post their charts daily…
it’s almost as if getting suspended on Twitter led me to this, a blessing in disguise.
Anyways here is an old, rough drawing of a centaur, which I must’ve drawn when I had green hair. I’ve drawn centaurs a few times because me = Sagittarius.
I really love how this one turned out. Yes, I put an Instagram filter on it to make it even darker and more moodier, but wow go me. I really need to play with After Effects more and still would love to learn Cinema 4D. I learned both in 2004 but never got around to using it. So why don’t I pick it up again? Oh yeah, it’s because I spend too much time on the gram and social media in general instead of creating/learning more. Sigh, so lame…
What have I been up to? I’ve been more quiet, playing/experimenting with both my Instagrams. Sales/acquiring clients is still challenging especially for this introvert but at the same time I’m getting better at talking about my stuff. I am advertising but with very small budgets. But I also honestly believe that all markets are flooded with digital content; it’s getting harder to grab people’s attention online but that’s okay, I’m not super concerned about it. Everything will work itself out.
Thankful that I have a fulltime job so I can learn, play and experiment with my business ideas. I’ve resisted, struggled and questioned as to why I’m still here 5 years later, but now I understand. I entertained the idea of entrepreneurship for some time, but now I know it’s really not for me – I’m just not a hustler. Even though it has been challenging getting clients, I still believe that everything comes easily and effortlessly if I just allow it and to give it time.
Majority of my money has been going to bills (which I’m also thankful for) but I’ve also incurred some debt while experimenting with my business ideas. So I’ve been trying to cut back on purchasing witchy, magickal things and just keeping it basic. In the meantime, I’m back to the self-help thing while I save money. Not really driving too far to make my car last longer, which also saves on gas.
I’ve been working on the small business and continuing my experiments…
For example, I started to show my face a little bit more. That one’s hard for me for a few reasons:
a) I’m looking much older
b) I was never one to really show photos of myself. I was a graffiti artist, remember? Back in my day (hahah omfg), nobody showed their faces; most of us stayed anonymous. Plus I’m mostly an introvert and prefer to go unnoticed.
c) It feels SO uncomfortable.
But in doing so, I hope to be more comfortable; I really just want to get it over with. Small businesses seem to blend in with personal brands if there’s only one person running it. I also hope that people can see that I’m an actual person; I want them to see me for who I am, and in doing so can make a decision whether to buy from me or not.
It’s better that way I think; better to know right away who likes and supports you rather than be polite for a long fucking time.
Of course there are some slight anxieties like: will people stop supporting me when they find out that I work in the adult entertainment industry? Will the spiritual people think it’s gross and dirty?
It’s hard but we really have to stop caring about what people think and just go for it, otherwise we become slaves to other people’s opinions. They might not even be thinking that at all, it’s our own ego mind creating these ‘what if’ scenarios.
I’ve come to realize that the right people WILL be attracted to you so don’t worry about those who aren’t.
Speaking of being polite, I’ve decided to unfollow a lot of other people; mostly other crystal shop owners. They’re all great, I just don’t want to be influenced by them; I want and desire to have my own voice.
A lot of people ask me why I’m following ZERO people on social media. Here’s why…
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It’s not because I’m trying to project some kind of Kanye West superiority (I worry it comes off that way, but I gotta do me).
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And it’s not because there aren’t any good accounts to follow. Instagram is bursting with creativity!
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Instead, it’s because it’s easy for me to forget my own voice and value when I’m constantly inundated with everyone else’s. And I know that if I’m going to create my biggest impact in this world, I need to tap deeper into my own mission, rather than becoming a watered down version of someone else’s.
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To me, there are seasons when we are meant to gain inspiration from the world, and seasons where we are meant to put our heads down and use that inspiration. That’s where true art and impact come from — honoring the gifts YOU inherently have.
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So, every few months, I do a social media anti-binge where I unfollow everyone on Facebook and Instagram. And when I feel creatively rejuvenated (usually after 2-3 months flyin’ solo), I slowly refollow people.
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To be honest, I think a social media anti-binge is something everyone should try! It’s a great cure for things like…
🔸 Feeling like everyone else is more successful, creative, or [fill in the blank] than you.
🔸 Forgetting what your voice sounds like. Not seeing your value. Creating things that look and sound like everyone else.
🔸 Wasting time following hundreds of accounts that don’t add value or empowerment to your life.
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My criteria for following anyone on social media? I ask myself this question, “Is following this account getting me closer to or further from the person I want to be?”
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Would you ever try a Social Media Anti-Binge? Does social media sometimes make you feel like everyone else is doing better than you? Do you find that social media makes it harder to find your voice because you feel like you need to be like everyone else? Leave a comment below and let me know your thoughts. 🤓😊⬇️ All love! -M ❤️
Anyways, I don’t have much to share; being an already quiet person who’s gotten even more quiet. I’m just thinking of ways to get my online crystal shop out there in the world wide web. We have to dream the impossible for ourselves, even if it sounds cliché or ridiculous; for in doing so we stretch our imagination a bit further. I believe that the universe will meet us there when we decide that we are limitless.
