Tue 9/29/26 – Today I allowed myself to enjoy my most secret pleasure. Even now as I type this I feel completely detached, elated and content that my latest interaction with this person felt so intense yet so balanced – I gave to him and he gave to me. It feels like our mutual attraction to each other got elevated; I got mindfucked with physical results, it was really amazing.
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Sun 9/27/26 – Disclaimer: this may or may not be true but for me it is. They say that in a karmic connection in astrology, there is a deeper reason why a person continues to chase someone beyond just attraction & connection. Perhaps a debt is owed to that person in a past life, where someone died before they could be together. And so that person who died finds that person that they loved in this current life and now has an unexplainable need to have closure with that person they never got to be with. The closest movie that kind of shows this is Bram Stoker’s Dracula – right on time for Venus in Scorpio retrograde; it’s quite erotic.
The debt is paid on my part, it took 3 plus years to pay it off. In case you’re wondering if you owe me anything, you don’t. We are both free now, so let me go and live your life ok? I’ll always love you weirdo but the astrology says we can never be together.
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July 8, 2015
Drawing from 2013.