Gosh it’s been a while since I made something just for fun. I only used 2 frames for this animation. I am using Adobe Photoshop 2024.
You can refer to my Photoshop Tutorial post called: How to Make DAT ASS Shake!?
I’m sure there are easier ways to create this but no matter what I’ll always be a Photoshop girl. Old habits never die.
Jun 6, 2023: Bumping this up because it’s become even more relevant to my life as of late. I love reading old posts to see how much of an intention or something I wanted at some point I’ve either received or completely moved on from.
Aug 11, 2022: This is a screenshot from Mystic Medusa’s Astral DNA Report that was specifically created for me based on my birth date, year and time. I love her writing and it makes my astro life sound more interesting than it really is.
Just a reminder to myself why I’m into the things I’m into. Or where I ended up working because of it (IYKYK). Sometimes I don’t understand why I’m drawn to certain things or why I insist that I’m a fucking magical witch when half of the time it just feels like I’m being an imposter. I tell myself that at least I’m not scamming other people.
I’m thriving in my “weird magic personality” on this full moon in Aquarius.
June 2, 2023: I’m bumping this up because it’s still and will always be relevant to me. I know a lot of people still think astrology is fake…IDGAF.
June 27, 2021: I used to want to know/learn everything, I used to want to be everything. I literally would drive myself nuts.
In astrology, the four elements – Fire, Earth, Air and Water – can help you make sense of your personality and why you think and act the way you do. Each element represents a basic kind of energy and consciousness that operates within everyone and each person is consciously more attuned to some types of energy than others.
FIRE SIGNS : Aries, Leo & Sagittarius : expresses warm, positive energy. Keywords: enthusiasm, encouragement, passion, creativity and the drive to express self.
AIR SIGNS : Gemini, Libra & Aquarius : related to the thinking mind and its perception, expression, sensation. Mental pursuits and activities, abstract ideas.
WATER SIGNS : Cancer, Scorpio & Pisces : symbolize the cooling, healing principle of sensitivity, feeling response and empathy with others.
EARTH SIGNS : Taurus, Virgo & Capricorn : reveal an attunement with the world of physical forms and a practical ability to utilize and improve the material world.
One way of understanding these various energy patterns is to analyze them in terms of their modalities:
The Cardinal signs – Aries, Cancer, Libra & Capricorn – initiate and act
The Fixed signs – Taurus, Leo, Scorpio & Aquarius – represent concentrated, stable energy
The Mutable signs – Pisces, Gemini, Virgo & Sagittarius – are flexible and constantly changing
Source: Stephen Arroyo’s Chart Interpretation Handbook
I am mutable fire and cardinal/fixed air dominant which means I am powered mostly by creativity (fire) and thinking (air). It seems that I’m always moving to the next thing or I can’t stay still or make commitments. I also work fast (this is true when it comes to my work). I also like to think ahead and get things done as soon as possible.
The downside to this is that if I’m not aware of it I can become hasty or even reckless.
Why am I writing this?
I think it’s important to know these things if you want to understand people…especially yourself.
I had to really work on meditating, patience, compassion and being still with myself.
Still working on it.
Art by the late Namio Harukawa whose erotic illustrations have always inspired me. Do a Google search and you’ll see his work, hard to miss. Also NSFW and filthy.
I hate how the iPhone 11 Pro Max doesn’t capture true color, I had to modify this in Photoshop to show the pastel quality of these Zeyar highlighters.
Drawn last night, I stayed up til 1:30am drawing and listening to music.
A part of me wishes there was a place where I could just dance. No one bothering me or making small talk. Spirit dancing, moving your body to music, releasing toxins. I recently watched this video of Irene Cara (RIP) and she literally looks like a spirit dancing in human form. Then you listen to the actual lyrics and she’s talking about immortality and being remembered. I swear everything takes on a different meaning when you’re older. Or actually, the message was always there; it was my own understanding that took years to catch up to the message.
I did go to a party in an undisclosed warehouse in DTLA more than 10 years ago and I did just that.
Well since I’m old and don’t know where to go anymore for such things, I just danced in my room in between drawing. That was enough for me.
I gotta say, this was fun to make. I started doing this because I hated how things looked on TikTok – the white outlines around text BUGS me, like nothing is pleasing to look at on there.
Initially, I used the Rotoscoping Brush in After Effects, but it didn’t work. So I started rotoscoping it manually. Rotoscoping is the fancy term in After Effects that “cuts” the person out of the background. It’s painstaking to do it frame by frame, that’s why they have the Rotoscoping Brush tool.
The downside of rotoscoping this manually? I experienced tennis elbow. My right elbow, arms and hand all became stiff and it hurt to move it for a few days. Luckily, some electrical stimulation and Aleve helped me recover quickly.
Should I blame it on getting old or just overdoing it with this project? I probably overextended myself. Either way, I feel as if my body can’t do fun things anymore because I’m getting old. Like I have to watch what I’m doing now, like working on something for too long and injuring myself…
so lame.
The internet is becoming a wasteland, isn’t it? You’ve probably heard every single inspirational, motivational quote out there. I’m sure we ALL have. It makes you roll your eyes or make that puking face, doesn’t it?
The meme says:
It’s never too late to start believing in yourself.
Vlad the Impaler didn’t even start impaling people until his mid-30s.
*Also, don’t get me wrong. I love getting motivated and inspired, we all need it. I just don’t wanna hear it or see it ALL the time.
Old photo of a 13 Quartz crystal grid with Kyanite. I sprayed some metallic paint to give these crystals a shimmery, iridescent look. I took it to Photoshop and doodled on it.
Ugh, not the best screenshot stitch I’ve done but it’ll do. Westworld is a sci-fi show about humans and androids, technology, consciousness, death, rebirth, reincarnation, past life memory, playing God, becoming a god, the future and so much more; subjects that my air (Aquarius rising & Libra moon) signs love. We started watching in 2016 but had to cut off HBO for a couple of years. We finally caught up in 2022, just finished S4 and are now revisiting the first season.
Have you ever questioned the nature of your reality?
I must’ve drawn this 5 years ago. I usually date my drawings but for this one, I didn’t.
Halloween last year was pretty non existent. I still look forward to it even though I don’t even dress up or actually do anything for Halloween.
I think it’s just mostly the vibe for me – the darkness, the fog, spooky atmosphere, horror movies, Samhain, etc. Just like how I like the design of the main Sanrio characters enough to get it tattooed on me but not be an actual collector of those items (unless it’s Badtz Maru). Ok, I’m rambling.
I live in my head, I live in the world of ideas. It must be the combo of my Fire and Air signs (Sag, Libra / Aquarius).
I’m missing my cat. I’m missing Roxy. This drawing was pulled from a 2016 folder of photos and both Tabby & Roxy were in there. She had an art show so we made a spontaneous trip to Las Vegas and texted her when we were already there. She was so stoked.
I’m also reminded that she passed 11 days before Halloween. First year anniversary on top of the pandemic was hard. This year is already flying by quickly. The years are just flying by as I get older, period.
And yes, I made a bigass file size, looping gif of my cat Tabby so I can look upon her sweet face until this blog is gone.
