bookmark_borderRevisiting Chiron in Taurus

Well since the current transit is in Chiron in Taurus, the universe decided to remind me of my fears around material possessions, particularly around money. If you’ve read this old post, then you know I personally have Chiron in Taurus in the 3rd house and so I’m feeling the effects of this transit. It also doesn’t help that money has been a lot tighter lately because war and inflation. Sigh.

While I was writing out a check, I stumbled upon a letter writing out my fears around having a lot of money. I believe I cashed out a Universal Life Insurance policy and an old 401k (of course I had to pay taxes on it) but at the time, I needed that money to pay the credit card debt ($13k) I had accumulated for the crystal shop. And so, here is the letter I wrote. Of course I had to decorate it with Baphomet stickers that ChatGPT generated for me a while ago.

bookmark_borderWTF Are You Supposed to Do For the Rest of Your Life?

We don’t know, do we? All we have to do is to just keep on going…

Who are you supposed to follow for guidance when everyone else is lost or in their own headspace most of the time?
The answer is: you follow yourself – the quiet, inner voice that tells you ‘hey I really like doing this’ or ‘let’s do this for right now and see where it goes. And then when we get bored, we’ll just move on to something else’.

You follow your interests, and build skills around it and see if that’s what you can do for a living.

If you’re not really sure, maybe you can take an aptitude test.

Besides the physical drives of needing food, water, shelter and sleep to live (and of course, sex)…what else do you think about the most? That is what you should probably be doing.

I mean sure, you can read Reddit all day long and read about other people’s experiences…
but you still gotta figure out your own life and create your own experiences.

You have to follow your inner compass. Your inner compass won’t steer you in the wrong direction and if it did, then perhaps there was something you needed to learn from that experience.

You’re going to fail and make mistakes over and over again. That’s part of life that is simply unavoidable. From that you’ll gain knowledge, wisdom and a better understanding of your process and getting to know who you really are.

Keep on learning and making stuff, be patient with yourself and it will all come together eventually.

There is a version of you waiting patiently to evolve, get to know yourself.

Even at 48 – though it may seem I have accomplished a lot, like…been there done that…I still haven’t met my full potential and I still don’t know everything. And I think it will be that way until it’s time to leave our human bodies.