Text 1: When you’ve been working on your mind and spirit for so long and now the Universe tells you it’s time to work on your physical body
Text 2: Don’t make me run! I’m full of chocolate!
Text 1: me when someone from high school finds my social media
Text 2: I can explain…
I am still downloading & organizing my photos from iCloud to Flickr and found old pics of Miri my second cat.
I woke up this morning feeling extremely tired and stressed out about the current state of the world, particularly in the lovely USA. So much that I had to let it out, meaning I had to cry in front of my husband. He knows I NEVER cry as it’s usually the other way around (he’s a double water sign). I literally couldn’t stop the tears flowing – I am SO tired of paying bills when everything is getting more expensive while the orange man gets away with so fucking much. I just got a pay increase recently but now it’s going to the utilities bill and gas for the cars.
I don’t want to repeat all the negative shit going on in politics & economics so I’ll just leave it at that. This is supposed to be my therapy right now.
So yeah, I cried. But not to worry, I am okay. I actually needed that, and I feel better now actually.
If you ever have really strong feelings or emotions that you’ve been bottling up and have been holding inside – it’s better to just let it out whether it’s through writing or crying which is what I did. Just don’t take it out on someone else.
I probably mentioned that I have a lot of Saturn in my long term influences lately; I really think that’s why I’m feeling this way – Saturn opposition natal Moon and Saturn trine natal Sun. Aargh.
I know at the end of the day, I am still blessed. I wake up with a roof over my head, I still have a job and I’m not sick or injured. But I had to get it out at that very moment, as Saturn was pressing on me.
Here is an old card pull from 2019 – IX of Pentacles – self-mastery, attainment, gains. Desire for financial security. Money. Success. Material comfort. Leisure time. Fruitfulness. Cultivation. Self-worth. Well-being. Pleasure. Refinement. Prosperity as a result of past efforts. Solitary affluence. Well-deserved success. (Source: Tarot Plain and Simple by Anthony Louis)
Here is the 9 of Pentacles from the Albano Waite version, along with some other cards pulled from the same deck as well as cards pulled from Sacred Symbols Oracle deck. Surrounded by a Quartz crystal grid with a Selenite on top. I tend to pull the same cards over and over, even though this was from 2019. Even ChatGPT, Grok and Gemini would pull the same cards for me when I had questions. When learning tarot, pay attention to the same cards coming up over and over again – that means something that you should probably pay attention to.