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bookmark_borderRevisiting Chiron in Taurus
Well since the current transit is in Chiron in Taurus, the universe decided to remind me of my fears around material possessions, particularly around money. If you’ve read this old post, then you know I personally have Chiron in Taurus in the 3rd house and so I’m feeling the effects of this transit. It also doesn’t help that money has been a lot tighter lately because war and inflation. Sigh.
While I was writing out a check, I stumbled upon a letter writing out my fears around having a lot of money. I believe I cashed out a Universal Life Insurance policy and an old 401k (of course I had to pay taxes on it) but at the time, I needed that money to pay the credit card debt ($13k) I had accumulated for the crystal shop. And so, here is the letter I wrote. Of course I had to decorate it with Baphomet stickers that ChatGPT generated for me a while ago.
bookmark_borderFound: The Advantages of Being A Woman Artist
Working without the pressure of success.
Not having to be in shows with men.
Having an escape from the art world in your 4 free-lance jobs.
Knowing your career might pick up after you’re eighty.
Being reassured that whatever kind of art you make it will be labeled feminine.
Not being stuck in a tenured teaching position.
Seeing your ideas live on in the work of others.
Having the opportunity to choose between career and motherhood.
Not having to choke on those big cigars or paint in Italian suits.
Having more time to work when your mate dumps you for someone younger.
Being included in revised versions of art history.
Not having to undergo the embarrassment of being called a genius.
Getting your picture in the art magazines wearing a gorilla suit.A Public Service Message from Guerilla Girls Conscience of the Art World
bookmark_borderFound: Nothing is Original
“Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic.
Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery – celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take them to.”
– Jim Jarmusch
bookmark_borderFound: The Evolution of Fear
bookmark_borderFound: How To Feel Miserable As An Artist
How to Feel Miserable as an Artist (or what not to do)
- Constantly compare yourself to other artists.
- Talk to your family about what you do and expect them to cheer you on.
- Base the success of your entire career on one project.
- Stick with what you know.
- Undervalue your expertise.
- Let money dictate what you do.
- Bow to societal pressures.
- Only do work that your family would love.
- Do whatever the client / customer / gallery owner / patron / investor asks.
- Set unachievable / overwhelming goals. To be accomplished by tomorrow.
bookmark_borderPOR VIDA FOREVZ
You would’ve been 43 today. I miss you terribly. I’m sure you’ve heard me talking to you. I miss my number one hater. What were we laughing about here? You were probably talking about twinks and shit, lol. I want to draw for Drawloween because it was our thing even though we never finished because we’re fucking adults who have busy lives.
I’m stuck in these photos and I don’t want to leave.
bookmark_borderWhen You’re a Scorpio AND a Sagittarius
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So in Western astrology, I am a Sagittarius. In Vedic, I am a Scorpio. Both make a whole lot of sense to me, but lately I’m starting to see more of my Scorpio side come out. For example, my career – sun in the 10th house with a Midheaven in Scorpio. Scorpio is naturally at home in the 8th house – the house of sex, death and transformation. I’ve been working in the adult entertainment industry for more than 16 years now, and I’ve become more secretive and mysterious about my life (a Scorpio trait) even though I’m still in public spaces (social media).
What is western astrology?
Core Concepts
- Tropical Zodiac: Anchored to Earth’s seasons rather than fixed star constellations, starting with Aries at the spring equinox.
- The Natal Chart: A map of the sky at the exact time and location of a person’s birth, used to analyze character and life tendencies.
- Sun Signs: Popularly used to describe a person’s core identity based on the position of the Sun during their birth month.
- Planets, Houses, and Aspects: Planets represent distinct drives, houses represent specific life arenas, and aspects show how planets interact with each other. [1, 2, 3, 7, 9]
What is vedic astrology?
- Sidereal Zodiac: Unlike Western astrology (which uses fixed seasons), Vedic astrology uses the actual, observable constellations in the sky, creating a shift of about 23 to 24 degrees in the zodiac signs.
- The Birth Chart (Kundli): A map of the sky at your exact time and place of birth, divided into 12 houses representing wealth, health, career, and relationships.
- Nakshatras: A specialized system of 27 lunar mansions that track the moon’s path to offer deeper, more personal insights into your mind and emotions.
- The Dasha System: A unique timeline used to predict when specific planetary periods will happen and shape events throughout your life. [11, 12]
If you’d like to explore further, let me know: Do you want to know your Vedic sign compared to your Western sign?Would you like to learn how the dasha planetary periods work?Tell me how you want to proceed!
What is sidereal astrology?
- Star Alignment: Uses visible constellations along the path of the sun (the ecliptic) as a permanent background map rather than anchoring to the changing seasons.
- Ayanamsa: Relies on mathematical correction systems—such as the popular Lahiri ayanamsa—to sync the starting point of the zodiac with specific reference stars like Spica.
- Real-Time Astronomy: Matches what you would see if you pointed a telescope at the sky and checked which constellation a planet is physically sitting in. [4]
- Vedic Connection: Forms the core foundation of Vedic astrology (Jyotish) from India, as well as several ancient Babylonian and Egyptian systems.
- Tropical Contrast: Tropical astrology fixes 0 degrees Aries to the spring (vernal) equinox and tracks Earth’s seasons, meaning it grows out of alignment with the actual physical stars over long spans of time.
- Sign Shifts: If you are a late-degree sign in Western tropical astrology (like a late Aries), your sidereal chart will typically place you in the previous sign (such as Pisces). [3, 4]
If you would like, let me know your birth date and I can help you figure out what your sidereal sign might be compared to your regular Western sign.
bookmark_borderAugust 1, 2020 // Halloween Emojis

bookmark_border072826 // WIP – First Attempt at Creating my Avatar
Well here is my first real attempt at creating an avatar for myself. I’ve been lazy about starting but also picky because sure – I COULD pay someone else to create an avatar or character of me but then they might not capture the true essence of me. I definitely want to look more anime but I’m also happy with the results here. Anyways, hope to post more soon and get into rigging! Yay.














