bookmark_borderRenting vs Buying a Home in Los Angeles, CA

Saturday, Jan 10, 2026: 10 years later and I still don’t own a home. And you know what? I’ve accepted it. I am still renting the same place I’ve been renting for 10 years now, and it’s been good to us. Who knows what will happen next, but I’m glad I stumbled upon this post.


April 18, 2016: This is not really a rant, but more of an observation…

but it seems that those who either grew up in LA or have lived here for a long time can’t afford to buy a house. You either have to move really far away or suck it up; and by suck it up I mean you continue to rent the house or apartment you live in so you could have an easy commute to work and be close to the places you enjoy frequenting. It all boils down to comfort, convenience and sentimental value – you just love that area and don’t see yourself living anywhere else.

But everyone always says it’s better to buy than to rent. My parents were drilling this into my head before I even understood the concept.

Now that I’m a little bit older, I’ve been thinking more and more about buying a house. I’ve talked to others around my age (the 35-45 something crowd) and they want to buy a home too, but none of us can afford it. The prices of homes in certain neighborhoods are going up and a lot of these homes are really just somewhat average.

It’s as if locals are getting pushed out farther and farther out.

I’ve been thinking about how far do I want to live just to have the house I want. But other factors fall in too like will I like the area/neighborhood, how far am I willing to commute to work, etc.

In the meantime, enjoy this beautiful contemporary house I saw during one of my hikes/walks a while back. A bitch can dream, right?

bookmark_border01-03-26 // Pages from my Many Moons 2025 Journal

This is the most art witch magick shit I did in 2025 – writing my daily thoughts and goals down in between rough doodles and sketches with a ballpoint pen and coloring it with Zeyar highlighter markers. My deformed bunny makes an appearance as Bat Bunny! Ayyye.

At the time, I was also using ChatGPT heavily for astrology-psychology analysis. Even though I don’t use ChatGPT anymore, I really liked the way it generated images for me – it captured my “bold lines, occult kawaii cute black and white tarot” style so perfectly. And then I would print out the images from my phone to a little sticker printer called a PrintPod that came from Wuhan, China. Was I paranoid af about touching the printer?! You damn right, LOL…I definitely sanitized the heck out of it.

I have since moved on to using Grok more (I know, I know), except Grok isn’t great at generating my style of images that I want to see which is a bummer. Both LLMs are still inaccurate by the way, so pick your poison I guess? Don’t trust what it outputs — double check everything.

So if you don’t trust what it outputs, why even use it? It’s still useful. It’s good at distilling information — like astrology and psychology, for me anyway. It’s given me a ballpark estimate of how much taxes I’ll have to pay; it’s even advised me on my stock picks and finances. Because I like to gamble sometimes (I can be a reckless Sag), it has stopped me from making bad financial decisions.

I only use Gemini for coding help and work purposes (Flow Veo3 for video generation) but maybe I’ll try Gemini for personal questions eventually? Idk. I feel like Google already knows everything about me whether I want it to or not and so I hesitate to use Gemini. For the sake of ease, accessibility and convenience we all literally gave our privacy away. Sigh. It is what it is. For the record, I don’t have anything to hide but it would still be nice to have the illusion of privacy I guess? I don’t even know what I’m saying…

I’m posting this to remind myself that while what I wrote down was a fucking mess (I was trying to learn Javascript too), I did meet some financial goals — I managed to save $10k by the end of the year for taxes while still investing into both of our Roth IRA’s. And now, I hope to save another $10k by the end of 2026 because my car is aging and I’m going to need a new, used one. The creator knows I hate borrowing money and has spared me from homeownership. I’ve accepted that I’ll be renting forever. I’m wondering if I have to start paying taxes quarterly? Lots of think about and ramble about but today, I just wanted to post this.

To anyone who is reading this — writing things down will help BIG in your manifestations. There’s a magical technique in ManyMoons where you write things down ahead of time, like in the months ahead. So by the time the year ends and you’ve reached those actual dates, you’d have reached your goal. Of course, not all goals will be met this year but you can still write stuff down for future manifestations.

bookmark_borderHappy Full Moon – 6/14/2022

Sat Jan 3, 2026 — Happy Full Moon in Cancer! May you feel emotionally nurtured tonight. Still my favorite meme so I’m bumping it up.


Some apps along with my personal calendars say the moon is in Sagittarius, others in Capricorn. Shrug if I know BUT I always tend to feel more energized & motivated when the moon is in Sagittarius since it’s my Sun; determined and ‘into my work’ when the moon is in Capricorn (my Mercury).

I don’t have anything to say, as you can see I’ve gone ghost on nearly all my IG accounts or simply deactivated them. It takes so much energy and effort to be on there; I don’t know when I’ll feel motivated to pick up my side projects again.

Introverts gonna introvert I guess…

I just wanted to post this meme as it was buried in my Instagram saves. Credit: @thatcatbobbie

I hope you’re doing well. I’m just here lurking and being on the internets and pondering the next stage of adulthood: do I want a house, or do I want to retire with lots of money? I constantly go between wanting everything and wanting nothing. It’s hard to decide when you’re a Libra moon!

bookmark_borderBecome a Ghost, Fuck Attention

Dec 28, 2025: I’m going to ghost even harder for 2026…or maybe do the opposite? Anything goes at this point, amirite? If you are reading this — may you have love, money, magick, health, wealth and success on your own terms. May you be free from suffering. And so it is. Blessed be.


July 18, 2025: I have shapeshifted into another NSFW online persona. IYKYK. Stay occult, stay mysterious. Not everyone is meant to be seen or known right away. I know now that this is how I prefer to exist online. Fire and Air.


Sept 18, 2024: Still living by these words. Playing another character in this game called Life so we can continue to live where we live.


It’s February 2023 and I’m getting closer to living by these words. I pretty much can’t stand Instagram anymore. I feel like, if I’m going to waste that many hours online I might as well get paid for it.


July 2021: I posted this last year; except for the hustle part, this quote is still true for me so I’m bumping it up. I really don’t have a whole lot to say these days. The internet is weird so it’s better to move in silence…

I will say this though – it’s Leo season and I miss my favorite Leo: Roxy.


December 7, 2020: Even though social media is a big part of my day job (used to be), I’m not a fan of it as much these days. If you follow me on ANY of my Instagrams then you know I’m also not very consistent with any of them anymore. My internet life has gotten a lot quieter and I actually don’t mind. I think when I got suspended on Twitter in August 2020 (and it was for good btw, even though Twitter said in an email that I didn’t actually commit any violations ((ok, then wtf))), it gave me time to really think about what it is I enjoy doing.

And right now, social media annoys tf outta me, I find that I need more frequent breaks from it. I don’t have the same attention span. Which is why I haven’t been posting as much. It’s not directed towards anyone in particular either, I still scroll daily but not as much.

Also, since the top social media platforms have been heavy handed with the censorship, it’s pointless for me to promote anything adult. So in some ways, it’s pointless to post on social media.

I really like writing and meditation. And yes, even blogging (I still hate that word). It gives me time to hear myself instead of hearing everyone on Instagram or Twitter.

So yeah, I found this on Ice-T’s Instagram. It says:

Become a ghost.

Fuck attention. Just hustle.

p.s. I miss my ghost friend, Roxy???? – she loved to blog.

bookmark_borderStay Relevant

Friday 08-29-25 – I have typography heavy on my mind right now for no reason so I am bumping this up.


063016: I have an affinity for handpainted lettering and typography – gothic, script, ornamental, etc. Basically the hard-to-read ones that aren’t normally used in advertising – because although they’re lovely to look at, they’re kind of hard to read.

I drew this up a few years ago. I find that when I’m annoyed with something or someone, it tends to fuel some of my artwork on a subconscious level. I don’t even remember who it was in particular, it could’ve been a few random people who I just stumbled upon on internetland. I guess it bugs me when people hella show off or try too hard – they’re either screaming “hey look at me, I’m doing something” or “hey look at me, I post nothing but bullshit…but I want you to think it’s NOT bullshit”. So at the time I made this, that’s what staying relevant meant to me: people who just do useless things in order to remain in the minds of the general public, like celebrities who are famous – you don’t even know what they’re famous for.

Well fast forward to now. Being a jack-of-all-trades in content marketing and design, I’m starting to understand what staying relevant means from this angle:

+ Posting images and using words that you wouldn’t normally say to catch the attention of a potential client or buyer.

+ Being in the customer mindset, thinking like them so you can better predict what they are most likely to buy from you.

+ Paying attention to the latest in technology, social media, pop culture and anything related to it.

Don’t get it twisted, I’m not a fan of the last bullet point. I don’t like having to keep up with any of it, especially anything that’s cool and trendy. But since we’re in a global market now, meaning everyone is either buying or selling something whether it’s their art, music, creative services – we could all stand to stay relevant somehow by learning something new everyday and applying it to ourselves.

Keep your mind open to possibilities and opportunity, no matter what age you are.

bookmark_borderSherm > Liber Amicorum > GRI

08-29-2025: apparently I am reminiscing hard and appreciating my own hand lettering skills. My goal was to add more tags to posts but this one came up.


Edit: it’s 2021 and they have created an L.A. Graffiti Black Book, but it’s currently sold out.

07-08-2015: I made this for the Getty Research Institute in 2012. Explore the book here.

bookmark_borderMy Natal Chart

7/29/2025: Wow, just revisiting astrology stuff I wrote year ago. The learning never stops and I still have so much to learn.

6/19/2021: While the younger crowd nowadays seems to find astrology useful in their 20’s – posting their chart on Reddit and asking questions; I really didn’t grasp it until these last couple of years. And I’m in my mid-40’s now.

It was not on my radar at all. I did not have a concept of astrology, birth charts or let alone my Sun sign. None of this was brought to my consciousness until 2012 and even then I still wasn’t thinking about it all that much. For the last 9 years I focused on learning Tarot, magick, psychic development, meditation and the metaphysical properties of minerals.

On a subconscious level, I was focused on healing myself too.

I suppose I should look back at my transits these last 2 years that made me all of a sudden have this intense desire to learn astrology and actually focus on it. I’ve been watching YouTube videos and buying more books on the subject and will probably have to get rid of my other books.

I’m pretty sure it is Uranus (awakening, unexpected change) in my 9th house (education, long journeys) or Uranus in a semi-sextile to Pluto (death, transformation, rebirth).

There’s a lot to dissect in a birth chart so the possibilities are endless. 2020 put me in limbo so now I’m excited about learning something that I know I won’t get bored of.

Also, when did I actually start talking/typing like this? I kid you not, I didn’t know anything 6 months ago. Even though I am still a n00b, I am amazed at how much I’ve been able to digest and synthesize.

It’s a bit wild to me and I feel like I am experiencing a different person in real time.

So here’s it is, my natal horoscope.

 

Edit: I know most people know this already as it’s common knowledge but if you don’t – you can sign up at Astro.com to generate your free natal horoscope aka your birth chart. You’ll need your birth info: the month, day and year, and the exact time you were born.

It’s under Free Horoscopes > Drawings & Calculations > Natal Chart, Ascendant

bookmark_borderPlanet Caravan – Black Sabbath

7/22/25 – Bumping this up because I just saw that Ozzy Osbourne passed away at 76. Ozzy was a Sagittarius – born December 3, 1948. RIP.


We sailed through endless skies
Stars shine like eyes
The black night sighs
The moon in silver trees
Falls down in tears

Light of the night
The earth, a purple blaze
Of sapphire haze in orbital ways

While down below the trees
Bathed in cool breeze
Silver starlight breaks dawn from night
And so we pass on by
The crimson eye of great god Mars
As we travel the universe

bookmark_borderFrame to Video: ASMR AI generated

I’m pretty happy with how this one came out. I used a photo of myself in a white fox mask that I modified in Photoshop. Can’t wait to do more but of course I have to wait or else buy more credits.