05/09/2026 – Have you ever missed someone so much but at the same time don’t want nothing to do with them anymore because the pain is greater than the pleasure? Like, you’re attracted to fire but you know playing with it will only get you burned. If both of you are fire/air signs – the compatibility is off the charts but at the same time there will be lots of mental sparring & sexual tension as both tend to be headstrong – one wants to control (top from the bottom) while the other doesn’t want to submit nor take control and then it keeps going back and forth in a toxic dynamic loop.
It was fun until it wasn’t. Getting hurt repeatedly from someone’s energy takes a toll on you after a while. Being publicly degraded, insulted and disrespected while secretly worshipped can be really taxing on one’s spirit. Giving yourself to someone who is too insecure & controlling to give back is also exhausting. It’s just not worth it anymore, and I’d rather be alone and not interact with this person ever again.
I hope you meet yourself in someone else and see how it really feels.
Edit 031426 – here is the song that inspired the title – Metallica / Ride the Lightning
July 8, 2015
Hand drawn & digital from 2011, turned animated gif art.
Image description: voluptuous lady with a dragon head. Her breasts are exposed, there’s lightning bolts on each side. I signed it with my old graffiti name, SHERM.