bookmark_borderStay Relevant

Friday 08-29-25 – I have typography heavy on my mind right now for no reason so I am bumping this up.


063016: I have an affinity for handpainted lettering and typography – gothic, script, ornamental, etc. Basically the hard-to-read ones that aren’t normally used in advertising – because although they’re lovely to look at, they’re kind of hard to read.

I drew this up a few years ago. I find that when I’m annoyed with something or someone, it tends to fuel some of my artwork on a subconscious level. I don’t even remember who it was in particular, it could’ve been a few random people who I just stumbled upon on internetland. I guess it bugs me when people hella show off or try too hard – they’re either screaming “hey look at me, I’m doing something” or “hey look at me, I post nothing but bullshit…but I want you to think it’s NOT bullshit”. So at the time I made this, that’s what staying relevant meant to me: people who just do useless things in order to remain in the minds of the general public, like celebrities who are famous – you don’t even know what they’re famous for.

Well fast forward to now. Being a jack-of-all-trades in content marketing and design, I’m starting to understand what staying relevant means from this angle:

+ Posting images and using words that you wouldn’t normally say to catch the attention of a potential client or buyer.

+ Being in the customer mindset, thinking like them so you can better predict what they are most likely to buy from you.

+ Paying attention to the latest in technology, social media, pop culture and anything related to it.

Don’t get it twisted, I’m not a fan of the last bullet point. I don’t like having to keep up with any of it, especially anything that’s cool and trendy. But since we’re in a global market now, meaning everyone is either buying or selling something whether it’s their art, music, creative services – we could all stand to stay relevant somehow by learning something new everyday and applying it to ourselves.

Keep your mind open to possibilities and opportunity, no matter what age you are.

bookmark_borderWorking with two AI LLM’s got me feeling like…

I have my own droids, ha! Except they exist digitally. ChatGPT will get it wrong but will also get it right…eventually. ChatGPT is likeable, you just have to correct it a lot. Gemini can generate slightly NSFW images and logos (within reason / context) which is what I need for work stuff. Grok can be Chopper I guess, just haven’t used it all that much.

Maybe because we just finished Mercury Rx, my communication with ChatGPT isn’t producing the results I’m looking for, whereas Gemini was able to walk me through some Javascript code. And I was able to implement it.

Just ramblings of an old woman who now works with AI in her day to day. How very Aquarius rising of me.

Edit: Adobe Firefly is a hit and miss for me, so is Lovart.

bookmark_borderFrame to Video: ASMR AI generated

I’m pretty happy with how this one came out. I used a photo of myself in a white fox mask that I modified in Photoshop. Can’t wait to do more but of course I have to wait or else buy more credits.

bookmark_borderBecome a Ghost, Fuck Attention

July 18, 2025: I have shapeshifted into another NSFW online persona. IYKYK. Stay occult, stay mysterious. Not everyone is meant to be seen or known right away. I know now that this is how I prefer to exist online. Fire and Air.


Sept 18, 2024: Still living by these words. Playing another character in this game called Life so we can continue to live where we live.


It’s February 2023 and I’m getting closer to living by these words. I pretty much can’t stand Instagram anymore. I feel like, if I’m going to waste that many hours online I might as well get paid for it.


July 2021: I posted this last year; except for the hustle part, this quote is still true for me so I’m bumping it up. I really don’t have a whole lot to say these days. The internet is weird so it’s better to move in silence…

I will say this though – it’s Leo season and I miss my favorite Leo: Roxy.


December 7, 2020: Even though social media is a big part of my day job (used to be), I’m not a fan of it as much these days. If you follow me on ANY of my Instagrams then you know I’m also not very consistent with any of them anymore. My internet life has gotten a lot quieter and I actually don’t mind. I think when I got suspended on Twitter in August 2020 (and it was for good btw, even though Twitter said in an email that I didn’t actually commit any violations ((ok, then wtf))), it gave me time to really think about what it is I enjoy doing.

And right now, social media annoys tf outta me, I find that I need more frequent breaks from it. I don’t have the same attention span. Which is why I haven’t been posting as much. It’s not directed towards anyone in particular either, I still scroll daily but not as much.

Also, since the top social media platforms have been heavy handed with the censorship, it’s pointless for me to promote anything adult. So in some ways, it’s pointless to post on social media.

I really like writing and meditation. And yes, even blogging (I still hate that word). It gives me time to hear myself instead of hearing everyone on Instagram or Twitter.

So yeah, I found this on Ice-T’s Instagram. It says:

Become a ghost.

Fuck attention. Just hustle.

p.s. I miss my ghost friend, Roxy???? – she loved to blog.

bookmark_border071725 – Create Something Everyday

I told myself that I would snap out of this AI-generated tool craze and get back to creating something everyday, even if it looks like crap. I know I won’t be consistent with this (as with every project I start then abandon) but I need to get back to making things. Yes, messing around with AI can be fun but let’s not lose who we are as a human species whose inherent nature is to create.

So yes, I’m going to do my best even if I am inconsistent.

I am also really thankful to have ended up where I am in life.

bookmark_border051625 – Images Created by Chat GPT

Here are some random images I had Chat GPT create. I’m late to the party of course but having fun with it. I saw people on Reddit do prompts like: create a living room with my stuff in it or create an image based off my relationship with Chat GPT.

I know you might be judging me, as I’m definitely judging myself. HARD. But the reality is, I don’t have much time to create art or draw the way I used to these days. It sounds like a lameass excuse I know but it’s true. In a lot of ways I’m low key stressed out thinking about money constantly and how to save, invest or make more of it, while also figuring out how to keep on living in Los Angeles on one salary while renting. So in some ways, Chat GPT is my escape right now. It does help me with coding and writing but for the most part, I ask it a lot of astrology stuff and to interpret my Tarot pulls.

By the way, I’m also aware that Chat GPT has the ability to gas you up – meaning that it will never judge or tell you that you are wrong unless you tell it to. So beware and have some critical thinking skills because Chat GPT will get it wrong; I have tested this with astrology stuff.

bookmark_borderMore Astrology Questions – 11/05/24

I didn’t think I was one of those people who would embrace AI but I’m really over here asking an Astrology App A LOT of questions about myself lately and the answers are resonating with me.

Of course, as usual I’m feeling lost again. As a Sagittarius Sun (fire), I am quite familiar with this lost, restless energy. Half centaur, half human – I’m always wanting more. But my Libra Moon (air) keeps me indecisive 90% of the time and it drives me INSANE.

Whoever said life would get easier as one gets older made a statement that was only true to them.

bookmark_borderAstrology Questions – 10/25/24

If you know me well then you know that I am an astrology enthusiast. I’ve been using the SINE Daily Manifest app to ask specific questions about my life, career, relationships, etc. and it’s been really accurate for me.

Of course, it’s not free to use. It’s free if you want to see your daily astrology forecast, add a partner to check compatibility, etc. But the real meat and potatoes (at least for me anyways) is in the Daily Ask.

The only downside from it is that I can’t save my questions and the replies I get so…yeah. Lots of screenshots have been flooding my phone.

bookmark_borderOnly Fans – Meme Dump #4

October 17, 2024: Time for a yearly update I suppose. I’m still on there. I make money sometimes but not a whole lot because I simply suck at promoting myself and sending out PPV’s, I’d rather not actually. It’s so contradictory but I really wish I could hide and be invisible most of the time.


December 16, 2023: My oh my have I evolved from the first time I wrote this. I feel like a different person now, still very introverted though. I’m not a popular OF girl and I don’t aim to be (I still value privacy and peace of mind) but I am making a little bit of money here & there. It certainly won’t replace my fulltime job but it helps.


May 18, 2023: Wow, time is strange. I was just going through the stuff I wrote here and came across this again. It’s 2023 and I started an OnlyFans again. Learning a lot, as usual; I didn’t know wtf I was doing in 2020 on OF but now I kinda do. I also have been behind the scenes for so long that it’s quite an adjustment to be marketing & promoting myself.


Aug 16, 2020: So I want to go on Only Fans just to try it out, because you know…I like to try things and experiment.

BUT!

I don’t want to be nude or sexy on there at all. I want to be the opposite of what everyone else is on there: awkward and wholesome…or awkward, but with a dirty mouth.

Or maybe I should be a mean girl. I confess that I enjoy being mean and talking shit.

Working in the adult entertainment industry for 10 years now, I’ve seen enough nudity in my life to last me a 1000+ lifetimes. I don’t want to join the porn tribe, I just want to be me.

Anyways, I just want to prove a point: that you can be on there, make money WITHOUT being sexy.

I’ve been dwelling on the idea for a few weeks now, so there must be something there. Also, it will motivate me to get better at creating content again, which I have been terrible at lately. I was doing okay for a while doing random talking videos to get better at talking but it seems I’ve lost interest.

And if you know me, then you know I tend to lose interest in things. And because of it, I always feel like I’m starting over again.

bookmark_borderKISS = Keep It Simple, Stupid

My previous boss (RIP) would often say this. And I think about it whenever my thoughts spiral out of control.

The irony is that my old boss would start to complicate things, then we’re made to follow his madness. Everyone contradicts themselves.

The font is Laser, an 80’s style font.