bookmark_borderPhotos: Memories of the Future MMXV

02/05/2026 – Sorting through photos and wanted to add these. The bird was painted by my lovely friend, Femme9. Her Instagram


01/11/2026 – Just reminiscing about who I was…I think this was the last piece I painted in 2015.


11/2020

Do you ever mourn the person that you once were?

It’s a trip how one’s ego motivates you for a long time. For over 20 years, painting graffiti was all I ever gave a shit about. That and making sure my profession was somewhat creative.

Then my mom died in 2006 and even though I still painted, the desire to paint consistently started to fade away. I’m not going into details, but other people ruined it for me too.

Your consciousness changes over time. You are the same person but different.

I didn’t realize that I would also experience a death of some sorts, but I did. I’ve died over and over.

Copied and pasted from my birth chart report:

Your Sun is in the 10th House of your birth chart meaning that you’re the sort of person who likes to make your mark on the world, in particular through your profession.

 

The Sun is in Sagittarius

Your Sun is in the Zodiac Sign of Sagittarius indicating that you’re a sunny and optimistic individual, with a love of adventure. In fact adventure plays a key role in your life, whether it be literally traveling around the globe, or metaphorically speaking exploring the world of ideas and philosophy. You’re particularly enthusiastic about anything that expands your world and helps you forget about daily chores.

bookmark_border020326 – Video of This Magical Labradorite

While people bring photos of their loved ones to work, I bring my rocks lol. Everything I say sounds crazy anyways but for a Fire/Air/Air dominant person – the stones actually ground me into the present moment. They literally keep me from floating away.

Here’s a video of one of my favorite Labradorite stones. Labradorite is a stone of magic and protection, I always have a Labradorite stone in my pocket when I’m driving. According to Gemini:

The Sagittarius Connection

  • Calming the Restless Mind: Sagittarians are known for a “busy” or restless mind. Labradorite is praised for calming an overactive mind while simultaneously stimulating imagination, making it perfect for your philosophical and adventurous nature.
  • Stone of Transformation: It is frequently called the “Stone of Transformation,” which aids in self-discovery and navigating major life changes—a natural fit for the expansive energy of Sagittarius.
  • Spiritual Intuition: It is believed to help Sagittarians trust their instincts and break through limiting beliefs during their quest for truth and exploration.

Edit Thu 2/26/26: the stone is no longer for sale as it has a chip on it. Perhaps it’s meant to stay with me? It’s already been with me for more than 6 years so…

bookmark_borderSelf Portraits from The Past✨👁✨


Feb 4, 2026 – I’ve been looking for this photo, as I don’t really take photos of my own tattoos. I think this is from between 2015-2017. This California tattoo was done by skateboarding legend Eric Dressen. Eric if you happen to see this, hi!


Jan 20, 2026 – Bumping this up just because. Saying hello to myself from the future.


Aug 23, 2017 Hello friends!?

I don’t have a whole lot to say these days. Selling crystals and stones along with marketing and advertising the small business I started in April 2017 is keeping me busy as well as learning and expanding my knowledge of the mineral kingdom. I also became attuned to level I Reiki very recently; I wanted to bless the stones that I’m selling with Reiki energy. So yeah, I am very grateful for everything that I am experiencing. I don’t know where all of this is taking me, I’m just here for the ride and following whatever interests me.

This year has been so different, doing the constant work on myself has been life changing.

I am turning 40 at the end of the year, technically I already am.? I don’t know wtf that means anymore as I don’t feel like it. It used to be a big deal for everyone, right? I guess for me, it’s not…at least not anymore.

If you are reading this, I hope that you are having a transformative year, I hope you are living your best life.???

bookmark_borderTest Video – Adobe Character Animator – 020326

I’ve been learning a new program in Adobe for work purposes these last couple of days; it’s called Adobe Character Animator (2026 version). With this app, you can create a character and it will sync up to your voice and body movements…

Obviously this doesn’t even look like me, but just wanted to do something fast. It is my voice though.

Next up, trying to figure out the alpha channel so I can put a custom background, there are some little annoying things with Ch that I don’t like. Anyways, so much to learn and figure out still!

p.s. don’t I look and sound sooo wholesome?? Omglol

bookmark_borderHappy Full Moon – Meme

Sunday, February 1st 2026 — happy full moon in Leo! I hope you feel fired up to do something that lights your soul on fire. Keep going


Sat Jan 3, 2026 — Happy Full Moon in Cancer! May you feel emotionally nurtured tonight. Still my favorite meme so I’m bumping it up.


Some apps along with my personal calendars say the moon is in Sagittarius, others in Capricorn. Shrug if I know BUT I always tend to feel more energized & motivated when the moon is in Sagittarius since it’s my Sun; determined and ‘into my work’ when the moon is in Capricorn (my Mercury).

I don’t have anything to say, as you can see I’ve gone ghost on nearly all my IG accounts or simply deactivated them. It takes so much energy and effort to be on there; I don’t know when I’ll feel motivated to pick up my side projects again.

Introverts gonna introvert I guess…

I just wanted to post this meme as it was buried in my Instagram saves. Credit: @thatcatbobbie

I hope you’re doing well. I’m just here lurking and being on the internets and pondering the next stage of adulthood: do I want a house, or do I want to retire with lots of money? I constantly go between wanting everything and wanting nothing. It’s hard to decide when you’re a Libra moon!

bookmark_borderOn Repeat // Shake The Disease – Depeche Mode

I’m not going down on my knees
Begging you to adore me
Can’t you see it’s misery
And torture for me
When I’m misunderstood
Try as hard as you can
I’ve tried as hard as I could
To make you see
How important it is for me

Here is a plea
From my heart to you
Nobody knows me
As well as you do
You know how hard it is for me
To shake the disease
That takes hold of my tongue
In situations like these

Understand me

Some people have to be
Permanently together
Lovers devoted
To each other forever
Now I’ve got things to do
And I’ve said before
That I know you have too
When I’m not there
In spirit I’ll be there

bookmark_borderThe Spiritual Path

January 18, 2026 – I’m revisiting old posts of mine, looking at old paintings and writings. Our thoughts and feelings always need to be expressed no matter what and that’s why I keep this blog around. I was inspired by Buddhist / Tibetan spiritual paintings at the time.


May 5th, 2016

Is strange, weird, beautiful, synchronistic…

and that I’ve been on it all along.

I am able to recognize it now that I look back at what I’ve painted; and only now am I able to understand why I have been drawn to certain symbols and themes in my paintings and drawings.

But like most people, I was drawn to occult imagery first because I thought it was cool; not having any actual understanding of the symbols used.

This one is titled “Self Absorbed” from 2008, only now I could say it was more about self-discovery, self-development, knowing thyself. This is a self-portrait of me, sitting on a lotus flower like you see in Buddhist paintings. But there are also different faces or sides of me (left & right).

At the time, I wasn’t even meditating. Or perhaps I was and wasn’t even aware? I was always writing, blogging and sharing my thoughts with a handful of friends so perhaps that is how things were actually manifesting.

Your thoughts lead you to where you are now.