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Warning: this is going to be a brainy, head spinning post. Mostly a ramble about what I’ve been learning in astrology. As some of you know, I’ve been on the astro tip lately like studying it for real. It’s all I’ve been talking and thinking about. I only talk about it here though because I still feel like a total n00b.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ll probably be a total n00b witch forever…there’s always something else to learn, you know?
Anyways, I’ve reached a point where things started to get really confusing and complex.
For example, when I look at my chart using the Placidus method – my sun is in the 10th house – the house of profession or your work.
But then I also looked at my birth chart through the Whole Signs method – my sun is in the 11th house – the house of friends, community.
I’m not going to say which method is more accurate because truthfully, there are more than just these two methods of interpreting a birth chart. I’ve observed so far that these two methods seem to be the most well known though.
And they’re very close; they’re just off by one house.
I guess you have to compare charts and see which one resonates with you more. Because at first, I was 100% sure that Placidus was more accurate. But then months later I revisited my Whole Signs chart again and now I’m not so sure.
Maybe they can just be blended together somehow? I don’t know…being a Libra moon, I can never decide and just pick something. I need balance, damn it!!
Oh yeah, I even looked at my Sidereal Astrology and that was completely different as well.
It’s all so overwhelming for my tiny human consciousness but I also feel more expansive knowing that I am beyond my human limitations. Thank you, Lord Jupiter!
Just remain curious and fluid about what you’re learning and hopefully after some time it won’t feel as overwhelming. This is how I felt about learning Tarot – it was TOO MUCH to learn at first. But 9 years into it I feel I’ve kind of reached a ceiling. I guess that’s why astrology is what I’m studying now.
Also, you know yourself better than anyone else, so it’s up to you to see what lands and what doesn’t. Professional astrologers – even tarot / oracle readers – spend a lot of time really knowing their stuff – interpreting and synthesizing what they see in your chart (or cards). Perhaps ‘synthesizing’ isn’t even the appropriate word but more like accepting that there will be contradictions in your chart or cards and that certain life situations will be in your favor and some will not. It’s a skill that takes years to study because there’s SO MUCH going on in a chart and there’s so much to learn.
I saw The Weeknd post this to his IG story so I had to listen to it.
At some point I even searched online as to when the Age of Aquarius actually began, as there was no definitive answer that astrologers could agree on.
But it must’ve started at the beginning of the 20th century, when technology started to advance? How did such groups such as The Fifth Dimension create this song or why was Sun Ra, Earth Wind & Fire, George Clinton and other musicians so ahead of their time? From where did they channel this information?
I’m an Aquarius Rising by the way so my consciousness is currently emotionally detached, wondering about things the collective is going through right now – like the whole meme stock revolution on Reddit.
Makes sense because last year around this time I was all about Humanity First, Universal Basic Income and Andrew Yang.
Anyways, here are the lyrics to this song:
When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the starsThis is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius
The Age of Aquarius
Aquarius! Aquarius!Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Golden living dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the minds true liberationAquarius, Aquarius
Lyrics found here
I have been grappling with this question for some time now and I finally have an answer that I’m satisfied with:
So there. That is the answer.
There is no point in fighting myself about it.
Or feeling bad that I can’t be consistent with any of them.
Anyway, here is a digital doodle of some pentacle flowers as I’ve got investments, money and visions of a future where we can all thrive on my mind. More than ever since we are now in the Age of Aquarius. The self and the collective are intertwined.
I also wanted to share this: if you’re feeling confused about your life and all your impulses – why you do the things you do, what motivates you, why you constantly contradict yourself, etcetera; I highly suggest looking at your astrological birth chart or getting a natal chart report. Astrology has answered so many questions for me, personally.
Also, if you’re in the giving mood please take a look at this awesome Instagram called Transanta.
I got tired of being on the computer so I willed myself to just draw something. It started with the needles / leaves on the bottom left then the eye, then the skull, then the inverted triangle lines.
I wanted to see a neon color blend so I did so with sharpie highlighters.
Then I added the crystal points.
Roxy’s passing a year later still looms over me, especially now that we’re approaching Samhain. Everything feels so heavy and I’m not in the Halloween spirit at all.
In my birth chart report, the moon is in the 8th house and it says:
The Moon is placed in the 8th House of your birth chart suggesting that you are a sensitive person. Your emotional antennae are switched on to high . This may have something to do with an event connected to your mother or childhood.
As a result you may develop a need to understand the cycles of life and the metaphysical nature of the world. Why do people behave in the way that they do? What affect do the natural cycles have on human behaviour? What happens after death?
You’ve the ability to develop your interest in the occult world and to use your discoveries for practical results in your own and other people’s lives.
If anything, I have learned to open my heart and give with my money.
Ironic given that the whole purpose – at least I thought it was MY purpose – was to make money with the crystal shop. And I definitely have and I’m super thankful.
What I didn’t expect was that I would be giving a lot more.
I’m learning to work with money in a way that I haven’t before. For a long time, I lived in scarcity mode meaning I always hoarded money. I always felt like I never had enough. So I was stingy with it even though I had more than enough.
Lately though, I noticed it just comes back to me naturally whenever I give it.
Ever since Covid hit I’ve been tipping witches online and / or buying their products and I am definitely seeing a benefit of doing that.
Some of these Auras are available at my crystal shop by the way, the Money Drawing Ritual Conjure Oil is from Mētztli aka The Revolutionary Mystic’s shop.
Missing my best friend Roxy every fucking day. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about her. October 20th will be a year since she transitioned. I wonder if she will visit us on Samhain.????
This song – Kapila’s Theme by Om always takes me somewhere else. I only listen to it when I’m driving to work.
Sight to freedom rises descender.
Ground to screen of the seer, the sight, and the seen.
Up to obviate the sentinel and ground prevails.
Fuse to seed at the flight into absalom.
Perhaps not being on Twitter is good for me, I am less distracted and reading and writing more. I really was on there mostly for work but then work & personal kind of started crossing over to each other. I don’t know, I guess that was my fault for allowing it to happen.
For this new moon, I re-commited myself to writing for 20 minutes a day again. I was doing it earlier this year but fell off.
Current books I’m reading:
Reiki and Japan: A Cultural View of Western and Japanese Reiki
Let me just say that this book has clarified and confirmed a lot of things for me. If you’ve been reading my weird & confusing experiences with Reiki, then you’ll understand.
Way of the Ancient Healer: Sacred Teachings from the Philippine Ancestral Traditions
This one is also really good, as the author blends history, culture, spirituality, shamanism, metaphysics, psychology.
Image description: photo of Ozzy Osbourne with subtitles “What the fuck am I talking about.” I’m guessing it’s from The Osbournes.
I am writing this down as quick as I can because it feels like I’ve received a download from above that’s worth sharing.
Martyr, sacrifice, reincarnation, karma, ancestors, trauma, healing, justice, integration, shadow work are the words I keep receiving in my mind.
Are things worse off than they were before?
Even though it seems fucking horrible (and it always seems fucking horrible), I’m going to say NO.
Black, indigenous, people of color are rising up continuously – becoming more empowered each time one of their own dies from injustices such as racism or police brutality. Though it is exhausting as fuck to have to go through this over and over again, it empowers them and many others to fight back, using the technology that we now have.
Taking pictures and documenting the whole experience with video, boosting it on social media.
The internet is a gift.
I don’t know how to articulate this exactly, but those who have died from police brutality, racism, abuse, etc…
had a mission to do exactly that.
It may seem extreme and violent, even unfair – because it is – but again: violence, death and rebirth is our heritage.
The big bang was a violent, cosmic event. So was the birth and destruction of stars and planets. Even human and mammal birth is violent – it’s literally stretching the opening to its limits so one could be born. Then you’re covered in blood and plasma.
That also doesn’t mean we just sit back and allow fate to happen – as we have free will – to fight back and follow what our inner guide/daemon/spirit/higher consciousness calls us to do.
So that the masses can continue to wake up, including their own people; so that we can continue to heal, becoming more aware and conscious with each iteration, each death.
It was not all for nothing.
Nobody dies for nothing.
Understand that we are all witnesses to this, witnesses to the United States of America facing its own shadow…over and over again.
On a microcosm level – I understand to a point now, why I’m here in California in the US. It is my home, it’s where I belong.
Even though I was born in the Philippines, I have never felt at home there. I feel at home here.
Why? Because I am American, just as much as I am Filipino. My mom brought me here in 1984. I wouldn’t have met the friends I love so much if I wasn’t here. I wouldn’t have met the person I married if I wasn’t here.
I would be living a life in the Philippines probably, but not as the same exact person that I am now. Probably living a whole different existence, probably unaware and just living a regular life.
There’s nothing wrong with any of that. But that is not what my soul wanted for me, obviously.
Believe it or not, I am grateful to be here right now – amidst the violence and chaos. I feel connected to all people, perhaps the internet is making that possible. I am witnessing the light and dark forces at work.
I love and hate the United States of America.
I feel the sadness, anger, hate, frustration, grief while simultaneously feeling peace, love, gratitude and an expanded awareness of it all.
We are one existing separately, living that paradoxical life for all eternity.
Animated GIF by me. It took a lot of frames to move the rainbow.
